Hello Loves! How are you all? I hope fine and with good health! 

I have written this updated after a long break so maybe its not that good! But still I managed!

So Yes finally an update! *Squeaks in excitement*

Before we start I would like to clear few things here! Those who think Nandini is irritating them by not telling her truth to Manik must think once and then tell me! 

What can you expect a lady with bad past? 

Will she ever do something or tell her lover something which takes him away from her? Ni na? Specially when she have only him!

Her conflicts and her condition is totally justified! 

If you can't understand her! I advice you not to read the story! 

Now cheers and happy reading! And please please please do comment! SO MANY of comments! It's a request *puppy eyes*

Chapter 12 A

Nandini's POV...

"Marriage?" I stammered staring at his serious like hell face and his expressions remained persistence.

He didn't seem like joking at all...

See! He can bring you stars from the sky! Queen sighed still trying to fix my brain but I was too lame to think about anything but Manik's words.

"Yes! Marry Me!" He didn't stammer...he didn't hesitate as he proposed me again. While my breath and mind was on fire.

Marrying the man I love...what else can be beautiful than this but!

Oh my God...

I am sure my face paled because Manik's expressions changed into worried ones as he cupped my cheeks.

"Hey! You don't love me?" He asked little scared, little panicked and my eyes widened as I shook my head frantically.

"Oh Manik I love you so much! More than anything! More than anyone else! No one...no one can love you as much as I do! It's just I don't know how to deal with all this! Manik everything is so new to me! I have never been in love! You are the only man in my life!" I tried to assure him and sat up holding the sheets near to my chest.

Once again I couldn't resist the urge of tears and Manik too sat up.

"Neither do I! Just like you! I have never been in love! I also don't know how to handle all this! Jo mjhy sahi laga myny wohi bola!" He said in a serious matter of fact tone and I stared at his face for a second before leaning my head on his shoulder to which he quietly adjusted himself to give me space.

How long you gonna hide? Queen was crying out...

"Manik! Nothing can be better than being yours forever! But...!" I was whispering in a very low and understanding tone while he laced his fingers with mine gently.

"But you need time to think!" He completed my words and I kept quiet.

What should I say...

"Am sorry!" I was really acting like a selfish b!tch but I didn't want to ruin the moment I was having with him.

"Aray its ok!" Manik suddenly chimed and looked at my face. He was smiling, warmly. "I can wait love! Take your time! Wesay bhi! Manik Malhotra kay charms say bach kart um kahen nahi ja skti!" He boasted at me and winked cutely to which I let out a hearty laugh.

"You know you are an impossible man!" I taunted and pulled his nose.

"Yes my lady! I know! But just for you!" His voice suddenly became husky and the next second my head hit the pillow while his lips on me...

The night went peaceful.

Just like the way I wanted.

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If loving him was beautiful then yes being loved by him was extra beautiful.

He was a man made of golden heart.

His touch...his kisses and his lips intoxicating.

His laugh...contagious.

His smile...breathtaking.

His talks...his words...everything divine.

Nothing could be better than getting up in his bed. In his sheets. Wrapped his scent.

The sun rays from the glass window dared to sneak in and pinched my eyes, disturbing my sleep.

I groaned and tried to hide in Manik's embrace but suddenly the realization dawned me.

He wasn't there.

I got up with a jerk and looked around.

Was it a dream?

No it wasn't! Queen snickered and I took in my appearance which made me blush instantly.

Yes! Of course it wasn't a dream.

I was just wrapped in his sheets and his fragrance was filling my senses with every breath I was taking.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to calm my nerves.

The flashbacks of last night roamed in my head and I clutched the sheets closer to my body.

The night didn't end after his marriage proposal...it actually started from that very moment.

Oh my God...he was so romantic.

I hide my face with my palms blushing like an idiot when suddenly the bathroom door clicked open, I saw Manik coming out rubbing his hair with towel and he was shirtless...

So hot! Should I call the fire team? Queen squeaked and I felt my toes curling while the whole zoo once again fluttered in my stomach as I stared at Manik shamelessly.

"Good Morning Ms. Murthy! Like what you see?!" Manik's husky voice reached my ears as I saw him smirking at and I realized I was making a fool out of myself because he was wearing a shirt now.

"Morning!" I mewed immediately looking down and he chuckled throwing the towel on the couch. "You...woke up?" Seriously? That's all I have to say?

"Yes! I did!" He spoke softly and the bed dipped under his weight as he sat beside me.

I was still gathering courage to look at him when he cupped my cheek causing me to look at him to which I did.

"You okay?" He asked lovingly and tucked a messy strand of my hair behind my ear to which I nodded mutely.

Was I disappointed because I woke up alone after having a long passionate night with him?

Well you shouldn't be! But if you are than tell him! Queen said munching a sugar free biscuit because yes ladies my Queen is a diet freak.

"I...thought!" I started my rant and he encouraged with nodding his head. "It's just! If...there will be a next time! I don't want to wake up alone in your bed next morning!" My voice became throaty and I failed to conceal my disappointment. I heard him sigh and soon his lips met my forehead which calmed me down instantly.

Sorry to say sweetheart but sometimes your choice of words sucks! Queen spoke in a dejected tone and I bite my lower lip.

"First of all yes it was our first time! But it wasn't last! You are mine and I am not letting you go!" I felt like he was scolding me with authority. I think I liked it. Yes! "Secondly I am sorry! I waited for you to wake up but you were so peaceful while sleeping that I didn't disturb you!" His tone turned in to loving one and his words directly traveled to my heart.

"And you know what I didn't sleep all night!" The love in his voice forced me to look in his eyes and I forgot how to breathe. His eyes were so beautiful. "I couldn't sleep! Having you in my arms! It's the best thing happened to me ever and I didn't want to waste it in sleeping! I drank your beauty! All night!" Oh my God! Was he for real? How! How can he be so loveable!? Was there any limit of his love?

"You? Stared at me...all night?" Please say that you are just joking. But his smile said it all and I felt so...lucky.

Kash mjy bhi koi mily Manik jesa! Queen said with a sigh...

"Of course I did! You know I think I finally got a hobby!" He spoke lovingly rubbing his thumb on my lower lip and a little butterfly flew from my heart and busted in my stomach.

"It's creepy!" I tried to hide my flush by taunting him and he chuckled.

"Oh no baby! Its romantic!" He told me the fact and I giggled hiding my face in his neck hugging him tightly.

"I love you!" I told him...maybe nth time since last night and he hummed nodding his head.

"I love you too!" He told me back and run his fingers through my hair. "Btw! Cabir is back!" He exploded the bomb and I sat straight with a jerk, staring at Manik with horrified eyes. "Oh relax! He is a chill man! You don't need to get worried about him!" He immediately assured me and I visibly relaxed.

"Okay!" I smiled nodding my head and Manik too smiled brushing my hair away from my face.

"Why don't you take a shower and come out for breakfast? Cabir is cooking us pancakes!" He announced cheekily and I stared at his adorable face.

He looked so excited about pancakes. This made me giggle.

"Do you like pancakes?" He exclaimed at me.

No!! Pancakes are so fatty! Queen said with a bad face and I smiled.

"Yes! I love them!" I spoke to Manik and his excitement doubled all of a sudden.

"I so knew it! I mean seriously! Who can resist pancakes yar?" His eyes were literally twinkling and it left me in awe.

He was such a baby.

My baby...

"Chalo! You take shower! I will wait outside! And tumhry last night waly clothes! They are washed and dried!" He spoke getting up and gestured towards the couch where my clothes were lying neatly folded.

"You washed them?" I asked reluctantly as he was now combing his hair and he looked at me through the mirror.

"Yes! Why? Any problem?" He asked so causally and once again a lump formed in my throat as I looked down at my lap where my hands were lying knotted in confusion.

I won't be able to thank this man...

How can someone love so selflessly?

Am gonna tell him...very soon.

"Hey?" His voice brought me back from my trance and I saw him sitting in front of me once again.

"Any problem?" He asked holding my fisted hands and opened them. I looked at my palms they had my nail marks now. I didn't realize I was fisting my hands so tightly. "Relax!" He whispered in a painful tone and tried to sooth the marks with his thumb then he did a very adorable gesture.

He. Kissed. My. Palms.

"Manik!" I whimpered out his name in desperation and he looked up at me in confusion. "Kiun karty ho mjh say itna pyar?" I cried out pulling my hands away from his soft grip and he kept quiet. "You very well know I am hiding a lot from you!" I again tried to shake him and he again kept quiet. "Manik! Uff!" Suddenly I felt so helpless and fisted my hair with my hands.

"I don't know! I don't know why I love you so much! But I know that I can't live without you! You need me and I need you! That's the only thing we need to understand!" His soft words felt so emotional and I looked at him he was staring out of the window still sitting in front of me.

"I understand you are hiding so much! I want you to tell me!" This time he looked at me and my chin wobbled. "But I know I can't force you either! So I will wait!" He said with a sigh and I saw a small smile. A sad smile on his lips. Then he got up and I stared at his back with almost teary eyes. He reached the door and placed his hand on its knob but then stopped.

"Aik request hai!" He started without turning back and I got myself ready for something bad. "Don't take too long!" His voice was throaty and the next second he was leaving the room...

Oh God...

What am I gonna do?

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"Nandini! What are you doing? Theek say khaoa na?" Manik finally scolded me when he tolerated me enough with my food tossing.

I told you! I told you last night to tell him! But you didn't! Agar sab bata diya hota tou abhi itna guilty feel na kar rahi hoti tu! Queen was sad so I was...

"What happened Nandini? You don't like pancakes?" Cabir asked almost worriedly and I shook my head with a small smile.

"I actually love them!" I told him truthfully. "It's just I don't feel like eating! Sorry!" I mewed this time looking at Manik who was searching my face with worried expressions.

I avoided his gaze and looked back at my pancake. I had hardly eaten half of it.

Everything was suffocating now.

The burden of my past was getting too much.

"It's okay! Don't eat! If you don't feel like!" Manik's warm voice made me feel home as he took the fork from my hands and pushed my plate away, to which I was very much grateful, because everything was making me nauseous.

Cabir went in to the kitchen taking our plates and Manik made me turn to him.

I stared at his chest because I had no courage to look at his face.

"Why are you getting so pale, baby?" His care and love was getting on my nerves and I shook my head.

"Come on! Tell me! What's bothering you?" He was whispering in a low voice and I gulped before faking a smile.

"I am fine! I...need to leave! I mean! I have some work at office! I will see you around?" I really needed to get away before I start crying hysterically and he won't be able to see me like that.

"You are leaving?" He asked in disbelief and I got up taking my purse with me. he kept sitting on the couch and I smiled down at him.

"Yes! Because I have no excuse to miss work my darling boyfriend!" I chimed at him and he grinned cutely. He held my hand and pecked my knuckle, taking my breath away once again.

No one can be as romantic as he is! Queen squealed and I blushed.

"I like that boyfriend thingy!" He acknowledged my compliment with a smile and I smiled back. Bending down I kissed his cheek softly and stood back.

"Miss me!" I mouthed at him and freeing my hand I hastily walked out of the apartment without telling any goodbye to Cabir too.

I can't do this....

I needed to tell him asap...

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Manik's POV...

"Manik? What was the emergency that you called me here?" Navya exclaimed irritated as she slumped on the couch beside Cabir and I stared out of the window as the rain poured heavily down the streets.

So we are gonna talk to Doctor Navya about it? It will get awkward! Mr. Subconscious spoke carefully and I nodded at it understanding the situation.

Both of us were not in a mood of joking.

"He is here!"

"Wo...woi Manik! Usy...mat any dena! He will hurt me! Usy mery pass mat any dena!"

Nandini's voice rang in my head and I closed my eyes remembering her each gesture.

She was scared of someone...

But the question was who?

And when I was making love to her!

Oh damn I don't even want to remember the horrified face of hers...

She mistook me of someone else...

I wasn't a fool to not notice her expressions.

"NO! Stop! Stop!"

Her screams resonated through my ears once again and I fisted my hands tightly against my sides.

I needed to confirm whatever I was thinking was true or not?

"Manik...are we going to talk or not?" Navya's voice brought me back from my thoughts and I turned back taking a deep breath.

Go for it buddy! Mr. Subconscious nudged me and I nodded.

"Navya! I need to talk you about Nandini!" I finally broke my silence and sat on the couch in front of the couple.

"What about her?" Cabir asked confused expressions to did Navya.

Nandini was scared of telling me anything and I understood her insecurities.

Everything was settling down.

Her insecurities. Her pushing me away.

Her punishing both of us because of someone else...

Everything...

Gosh!

"Okay!" I took a deep breath and the couple waited for me to explain. "Last night! I and Nandini!" Okay this is getting awkward.

"You and Nandini did co-chi-co!" Cabir said with an irritated face and I have him a glare.

"What buddy? Cut the crap and come to the point! We both know what happened between you and Nandini last night!" He spoke anxious and worried at the same time.

"Okay!" I sighed and scratched my head. "Navya the reason I called you here is I want you to clear something for me! I know the topic is awkward but we really need to talk!" I said to Navya and ignored Cabir's nail biting.

"Yes Manik! Tell me? Was she okay?" Navya was also now taking interest and I shook my head.

"No! She...wasn't!" I told her the truth and both stared at me with anxious expressions.

"What do you mean? Wasn't she willing?" Cabir freaked out and I gave him an irritated look. "What mahn? You are the one throwing riddles here!" He spoke in a defensive tone and I looked back at Navya who was waiting for further explanation.

"Navya...she...wasn't...a! I mean...it wasn't her first!" I breathed out and the couple's eyes widened.

Stay calm! Mr. Subconscious patted my back.

"So now your male ego is killing you that she wasn't a virgin? What a shame Manik!!" Cabir suddenly lashed out at him and I gritted my teeth.

"Fu*k man! I am not angry that she wasn't a virgin!! Shut up and listen to me first!!!" I roared back and Navya was the one who was quiet all the time.

"See it doesn't matter if she wasn't a virgin okay? I love her beyond being physical!! The important thing I am saying here is that she was fu*king scared!!" I said it out loud and Cabir slumped back in his couch understanding the situation while Navya was now in some deep thought.

"She was horrified when we mated okay? She started shouting and started pushing me away! She once told me that she is scared of man's touch I thought it some kind of psychological problem! She trusted me enough and showed me her bruises!! Her whole body is covered with burnt marks!! Who did this to her? Who is her culprit I don't know! I am telling Navya this is because I want to confirm! I want to confirm my doubts!!" I kept ranting and ranting.

I highly wish my doubts never come true!

But Navya's scared and pale face was telling me either wise.

Her expressions were confirming my doubts.

No! God please No!

"Hey Navya? Say something?" Cabir was shaking her, worried and scared of her answer to which she gulped staring at my face with so much of sadness and pity.

Please don't say it! Please!!

"Whatever you have explained Manik! I have interpreted only a single thing!" Navya spoke lowly and water was visible in her eyes.

"Tell na??" Cabir was dying out of worry and now I was quiet....

Very much quiet...

Because I knew what she was going to say...

I knew it...damn.

"Your girl...she has been raped!"

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Wohoo! How was the update? Guys! Tum sab kahan gaib ho jaty ho? On every chap we cross 1K of comments and on last chapter there were hardly 500 comments!

See it's not my fault you guys make me spoil me by commenting this much and I become greedy! *pouts like a baby*

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Now coming towards the update discussion!

Okay yes! Manik knew everything! Like...he guessed! So yeah!

I don't know but I am feeling so so bad for my both babies!

Its sad to see your loved ones in pain!

I hope you must have liked the chap!

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Mawara!

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