It been while since i got this diary well my mood right now feel i guess good i mean im trying my best to tell the truth showing more of my self but there are some people who just hated who i am so sometimes i just stay inside my house drownings myself the hatred that people give me anyway i got job now so at least make easy money for 15 boy im getting less sleep but i sometimes take small naps im slowly getting into fights with my dad and it was my first fight with him i didnt know what i was doing i guess my emotions take over but i got my guitar drown on my own tears and feeling alot better.The most painful part to see my big bother luis(not sam...) talking about his problems and then crying in my arms i mean i knew him he was always tought ans never crys but to me when i saw him cry i was scared im scared to turn 18 im almost there this damn world is fucked up all people want is money and money nothing else it make me sick...