WOW I CANNOT BELIEVE ITS BEEN A YEAR ALREADY! Time flies when you're plotting away XD

I tried drawing all our characters as cats. But I've deleted sketches for the Cas cat three times and Lindel's face is too warped ;-; So I don't have them all done. But I will eventually XD

With that said this is about the pm roleplay mentioned in my last art post with the great and magical bruh iRoleplayer !

You said such nice stuff about me, I feel like I'm not going to be able to do that because of how I'm not very good at sentiment and am better at humor regarding other human beings but I try this anyway XD

Okay when I first started role playing with le bruh Elly I was kind of like "o.o what do I do" because I didn't know that much about LOTR (well, not as much as I know now lol) and I was terrified of screwing up and looking stupid, not to mention my grammar was certainly not as good as it is now. But you didn't seem to mind, so that worked out well!

For those of you who don't know Elly, I feel like she's extremely quiet on here for the most part, I was surprised when she asked me if I wanted to have a pm roleplay but of course I jumped at the chance because I've never been in a good LOTR roleplay before, so I figured I'd give it a shot.
I'm glad I did! Ignore my creepiness but I've also mentally profiled her, I do it to everyone but she was a lot harder to figure out than most, rather mysterious 👻 I was also never sure how old she was for a while (for the longest time I swore you were like twenty o.o So mature! But that's good!), if she had any restrictions or preferences or you know, all that stuff. I just didn't know her that well yet, I felt like you were secretive and closed off too so I didn't pry. Eventually I got to know her better and she's like a quieter, sassier, and smarter version of me- she doesn't bother with getting into fights and she seems to know better when not to say things and when to stay out of things, and she keeps her sass to herself when needed, all skills I don't really have XD She's a fantastic listener too, which I appreciate more than she probably knows. 😊 It's good to be able to rant sometimes, since I don't like to vent or rant publicly. Thank you for putting up with my shit XD But at the same time I feel like I don't listen enough cause she doesn't want to upset me or make me in a bad mood (everyone says that usually) I know she's got things in her life too, I just hope one day we're both much happier and definitely still in touch!

And don't feel bad about the vocab, I've done the same thing but with other stuff. I didn't know what 'AU' meant for a while, or 'af' because I live under a rock so I had to go look them up 😂

Random thought but I also really feel like the fact that I was afraid of making you angry or offending you with a gay ship drew out Cas and Calix's fall for each other, it took so damn long but it was perfect when they finally fell yasss audjdbuxjsbzhsjd

You're very good at smashing my feels too, so don't worry, it isn't just you in tears sometimes. We're in it together  XD Calix's return to Mirkwood made me cry and so did several times when they thought they'd lose each other, oh my goodness, I don't even cry for anything else ever, never cried during a movie or show or book, but this roleplay.... We are so emotionally invested it makes it so real, I sometimes wish I lived in their world to actually see this stuff happen, if that makes sense?

When I watched the LOTR and hobbit movies I got a little confused, Thranduil was still alive and Elrond was good and Legolas had no brother. I was actually a little upset Cas wasn't on the throne and Calix wasn't with him. XD It just felt so wrong, this roleplay feels so unbelievably real!

And seven hells I shrieked when she threw the curveball (AKA little baby Maeglin) at me. Literally shrieked due to how surprising and cute that was. It was like "BOOM BITCH HAVE A BABY" And I wasn't really sure what to do either because I didn't know what you intended to do by bringing him in, if you wanted Mel to keep him or drop him somewhere or give him to our preciouses XD Sometimes it just takes a while for what you put to sink in and I can't even reply right away, like when Alyan was depressed about Erestor dying I wasn't even sure how to reply at first, that poor baby ;-; *whispers* Erestor was a dick anyway, Alyan's better off

And honestly I really do love making my master plans for this, it makes me so happy the hatch the plot and then see how you react and watch you start to kind of figure the plot out slowly with the details I give you. It's really really fun, and trust me, I've got more 😈 Anything I do is almost always for a reason. Every character and place and thing has a purpose, always. I feel like you're that type too, to avoid pointless stuff and focus more on the important details so it works really well! You're like the perfect roleplay buddy, open, smart, and devious in your own right XD So, if you want a good roleplay buddy, look no further than the bruh! She's awesome!

I really don't ever want this roleplay to end lol It's been amazing and so beneficial, I hope it stays that way 😃

NOW ILL SHARE SOME OF MY FAVORITESSSSS

Favorite ship-
Same as yours, Cas and Calix are the best hands down XD They're such well developed characters I feel like they're real, it's just amazing to see how far they've come and all they went through and how they still survived together! And now they're married!!!! I wasn't sure it would ever happen but it was so cuteeeee XD

Favorite scene-
Uhhh...... Probably either when Cas was just like "then marry me", or that time when he surprised Cas in Mirkwood. The 'then marry me' made me squeal in class, I wasn't expecting that to be said at all but of course I was pleased, it was so smooth and cute and isnxnixdnxnxkemakkaLmenx Their first kiss was so cute too, they both weren't even sure the liked kissing 😂😂😂And yeah, I really like the scene where Calix returned to Mirkwood too. It showed their dark sides and more negative characteristics, Calix's insecurity and Cas' pent up worry and anger. It was a little hint of what they would actually be like if they lived without each other and I think it was really cool to see that!

Favorite twist-
When Calix found Cas on the throne. That one hit me like a bag of bricks, I read it about ten times and still couldn't believe it, it took me until the point when Calix was peeking into Cas' bedroom window for it to really sink in that Cas was king and that his father died. It took a while for me to think that way too, I will admit lol

My Favorite character of yours- Such an impossible choice XD I really like Nulladan right now, with how innocent and curious he is now that he's learning to trust people and be more civilized. It was so cute when he went puddlejumping in the splotches of light XD I also really really REALLY love Cas. He's so dynamic and unique, it is literally impossible to create another a character like him, he's just this amazingly perfect mix of sass, compassion, leadership, and overall oddness. And of course precious ickle Maeglin makes the list, he's so cuteeee. :3 and Lindel. The sassiness and the smoothness kill me, every time XD I was so mad at Elrohir when I found out he'd been tortured. ELROHIR DESERVED TO LOSE HIS HEADDDD

Most hated character of yours-
I really hated Erestor, always, but in a good way? It was so easy to hate him, natural, he was a very good bad guy, even right up until the end. I actually kind of regret he died, so much evil could've been done with him XD Elrohir too, I wanted to cut his head off myself! He's just so evilly evil and mean and cruel and fabulously villianish. Good job with that one XD

Most soul-crushing heart-wrenching tear-evoking depression-causing moment-
That'd be probably either when Calix and Cas argued and all that dark shit or when Calix was telling Cas about war and they both sort of just exploded into tears and pushed each other away for a while and Calix gave up Rivendell or in general whenever one of them almost died. It was also pretty soul crushing when Elrohir was hurting Cas and when Cas sung Calix to sleep in the cell, I felt like they'd never be free again when that happened ;-;

The most surprising coupling-
Either Indir and Alyan or Mel and Ro. I thought Alyan was asexual af at first and honestly I wasn't sure if Indir should go for Mel or Alyan, when he wasn't interested in either of course. I knew Indir was older and more experienced and though Mel would be a good match in that aspect but I didn't like that idea at all because personality clash. It just didn't connect with either of them until after Alyan did those experiments in the woods, and then I was like "ohhhhhhhh I'm so dumb and blinddddd". With Mel and Ro I thought they'd become really good friends, but I myself thought Ro was too much of a pansy to keep up with Mel until he showed his protective side over him and I had another one of those "ohhhhhhhh" moments XD a little fun fact- Gon's purpose was for me to test Mel's protectiveness and gauge his reaction to Ro's distress XD

I'll stop now before I talk too much. there's sooooooo much more I could say but there's not nearly enough space here!

Here's to another year, may this one be even better than the last!