Man my titles are so great rn...

like totally 10/10...

But ANYWHO so this happened last week not too long ago and basically, I was just having a normal day in afterschool. I take guitar lessons for afterschool and it is fun AF 

It's actually taught by my 6th grade ELA teacher and I'm pretty happy since he can play a LOT of instruments and is super talented. I've seen him play the flute, piano, and guitar but he really plays a lot more. He's also the teacher for the band. But anywho I like it even more since I'm the only eighth grader there. Everyone else is a seventh grader who I've become really great friends with xD I didn't want anyone from eighth grade here since a lot of people in my grade have just suddenly become so judgemental about everything anyone does and I didn't want people there seeing me play guitar. I felt a lot more free with the seventh graders who were so much nicer (plus we're all girls so I feel even more better since for some reason I can rarely be comfortable with guys idk why but that's just a problem I have). 

So anywho our teacher who I'll call Professor H was asking for any song recommendations to learn to play for us and I decided to give one that I really love. Force of Nature by Bea Miller. Since Bea is really underrated, it was nice to let people know of her xdd

So next class we start the song and there's always another person from the afterschool staff that stays with the class. For us it was a really sweet and funny lady that we'll call Jil. Jil was a really talented and confident singer and she usually sang the songs that we'd play and Profesor H would sing a few. So I told Jil how I wished I could sing the song since I obviously knew all the lyrics but I was sick. I was scared enough as it is to sing when I'm fine but I was sick at that time so I was even more scared. But Jil told me to go for it and sing it.

I wasn't going to at first but suddenly I just found myself singing along with the song playing. For some reason, I felt confident while playing the guitar. For the whole song I just kept singing while playing and I liked it. When I was done everyone told me how nicely I sang it. Everyone loved it which really made me feel great about myself. 

You guys might remember how I was rejected for the talent show. It kind of did shatter my confidence in my voice since it was the first time I got the courage to sing in front of someone in a long time and the fact that I just wasn't good enough made me feel even more self-conscious.

But that day after I was so care-free when singing in front of so many people and the fact that they thought I sounded amazing...it kind of gave me my confidence back.

Yeah, I'm not 100% confident in my voice yet but I'm at least somewhat confident to the point where I think I can sing in front of people who I'm comfortable with. 

Man I STILL feel happy about that like I could NOT stop smiling since that day about it xDD