Amidst my inner turmoil, I hurt those I hold dear
I profess my love, then disappear without a tear
My insecurities and fears, a burden I can't bear
Leaving behind those who trusted me, so unaware
I know my actions are unfair, and cause great pain
But I'm unable to resist the pull of my own vain
A craving for affection, a longing to be cherished
But self-doubt and fear leave my heart tarnished
It's a complicated mess of emotions inside
That drives me to act this way, with nowhere to hide
I wish I could be different, but I can't deny
The hurt I've caused, and the tears I've made them cry
So once again, I must face the painful truth
That my actions have caused wounds, not just a bruise
I must find a way to change, to make amends
And learn to love myself, before trying to make amends.