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Estes x Karina one-shot!
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Requested by EsYaMiStes
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           "I've always been fragile. No matter how I tried to deny it... "

"...."

Karina climbed up the hill slowly with her poem held tightly in her arms. She marveled the night sky, twinkling stars were like sparkling diamonds scattered on a twilight curtain. It was a full moon that night, it was time for her to meet him. For a moment, she gazed at the stars, letting go of all the worries she had been holding in and let her tears flow.

"Why am I so worthless!?"

"..."

"Why am I useless?!"

"..."

"WHY DID YOU TAKE HIM?"

"..."

"It should have been me...."

"...."

"It should have been...."

Karina collapsed in her tears. It was silent in the holly graveyard, the crickets which once sang happily as they bathed in the moonbeam now stayed silent as if they felt pitty for the girl.

"Knock knock!" Karina turned around as she heard his voice.
"Who's there?" She smiled and answered.
"Love." Estes said gently.
"Love who?" Karina smirked, looking at him.
"Love you, dumb dumb!" With a smile plastered on his face, Estes rubbed Karina's head as she blushed and laugh.

She looked at him, suddenly with questioning eyes, she asked, "Did you ask Lolita for that one?" She smirked again as Estes scratched his head.
"You caught me, police! " He grinned, raising both of his hands up in the air.
Karina smiled as she launched herself forward, wanting to hug him.

"I... Love...you..." Karina said as she opened her eyes. Estes wasn't here. She was still in the holly graveyard all alone. She wiped her tears, she knew that Estes didn't want her to be sad, she had to stay strong for him. With steady steps, she finally made it to the top of the hill.
As she made her way up, a big tree with a slab under it soon became visible. She came closer and gently touched the slab which had Estes's name carved on it.
"Hi darling!" Karina said, smiling gently. "How have you been?" She took out some tea and knelt down, placing the cup of tea on to a table next to the tree.
"I've made you your favorite tea!" She smiled, trying to hold her tears in.
It was silent. Karina talked about some random stories where she had heard from her friend Lolita and talking to herself, she then finally took some paper out.

"Look at this Estes! I wrote a poem for you!" She raised the papers, waving it around as if she's hoping he'll reply. " You must be really proud of me, and tried so so hard for you!"

Karina wasn't a woman of poems, if it wasn't for Estes, she would never wrote them.
"Estes, you know? If you didn't leave me, wouldn't we be happier? " Karna sighed as she looked at Estes's grave. "Wouldn't we be happier? Wouldn't you still be alive if you didn't risk your life for me?"
She wiped her tears and put on her happy face again. She inhaled and started reading..    

Snowflakes

Once there was a snowflake
So delicate and small
It had so many dreams that it wished for
It tried it's best to not be fake.

So pure and innocent it was
So lovely and charming it is
Something that holly was not meant for this world
It was contaminated by the sins of life.

Corrupted, it sat
Alone, it stood
It can not understand what was happening,
So it blindly walks forward.

Foolish  it was
Stupid it was
It wanted to touch the ground which lay below
Too far for it's reach.

Every full moon,
It would wish
It would pray and wish to be taken to the ground
Curiosity was what killed it.

One day,
It fell.
Down through the layers of cloud it went
The surface was so so close.

As it touched the ground,
It melted.
It's final thoughts was regret,
It killed itself.

Karina started to cry, she missed Estes so so much. She missed him, she needed him. As she collapsed down, she heard a voice, a familiar one.

"Why are you crying? You always look ugly when you cried, dumb dumb!"

Part 1 ends here! I know it's a bit confusing so we'll be hopping on to the time machine in part 2! GET READY!