Dear Luke,

I wanted to tell you today. I wanted to tell you that i would die.

But I didn't. I couldn't

I don't want you to worry about me. I don't want your happiness turning into sadness.

Today we were at the park. We were just talking and having fun. I laughed. I haven't laughed for a long time.

Now I lay here. Alone. Crying.

I want you to lay with me and forget the world.

Today i realized something. I am in love.

With you.

You can make me forget that stupid cancer. No one else can do that. You treat me like a normal person. Not like 'the girl with cancer'. You make me feel alive.

Sometimes it feels like the only reason that i am still alive is you. I just don't want to hurt you. I just don't want you to feel sad.

But i don't want to be in love. I don't want you to be in love with me.

love,

Moon