This is from where Sanju disbelieves Sid in the village but here kundan is not that bad...he is just of the mentality that Sanju should leave army and do household chores...Sid finds this out and informs her it's a wrong decision she is taking...the os is From there

Title suggested by : -Eternal_Flames

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Meine tumse bola tha vo sahi nahi hai...vo kuch gadbad kar raha hai....lekin tume toh mera baath maani hi nahi thi ...kya bola tumne ...I am creating stories....you know what Sanju...mujhe jitni der tak ladna tha lad liye mere pyaar ke liye...ab bas .....yeh shaadi tabhi rukegi jab tum stand loge apne sapno ke liye..apni pyaar ke liye and khud ke liye... Sid said teary eyed...holding sanjana for one last time...and left her....he was about to leave her in her thoughts...just then he turned back and for one last time he said in a breaking voice ...mein itna gatiya nahi hoon sanju....just because i love and i want to walk with the rest of my life i would put down...kundan....aise admi nahi hoon...main.... He said

He left leaving her in her thoughts behind...and straight up took a cab to the academy....and rushed to his room...
He threw the bag on his bed and sat on it...and held his head and tears just rolled down his eyes....his heart was waiting in pain....faltu ka drama mat kar....what Sanju said was just lingering his mind .... He had enough of his life he thought..... whenever he wanted to held someone close...they always treated him like he was a doormat and left...and he remained lonely and dad...but when he saw sanju for once in his heart and mind he thought he could held someone close and trust her ...but the way she treated him at the village hurt he tried his best to hold back and fight for her till the last but his self esteem kicked in....and he though wanted help sanju he left the village...

He leaned back on his bed holding his head...as he had a headache ....with tears rolling down his eyes....

A lady in a saree.... Drama mat kar...chup chap reh a toh reh Varna papa ke saath chod kar chali jaungi.... She said as she loving teased him...stuffed his mouth...and  put him to sleep

He slept and woke up and farntically called her out....maa....maa...crying and rubbing with his little fingers.....and he searched for his mom....

Mr.Ganju bent near him and said tumari mom god ke pass chali gayi ab vo kabhi nahi aayegi...

Sid came out of his sleep shouting maaaa.....and was profusely sweating...and was having a hard time breathing....

This was his childhood memory....back when he was still a kid he thought if he would eat properly his mother would come back....to him cuddle him once again as she would always....but the Little kid in him always earned for her ...thinking if he might do this his mother would get back to him...

As days passed his father to became too busy with busy....orphaning him at such an young age... atleast he felt like that he had nobody ...

That's when he found a companion his best friend monami....his saviour his partner in crimes... A person where he could be him... without any boundaries or judgements....but as now monami is in love with karan.....he felt distanced to herself....yet at no point of time their friendship was affected....it was not like things used to be before for him....monami was still his bff still he didn't want to tell her about sanju ...he remembered how she never called at his visit to the village about his well being...he knows she cares...but he understood she was busy with her life ....and now Sanju also turning him down left him with noone....the thought that he was afraid of from childhood...that he might have noone by his side had become true....and it scarred him...

He laid back again...in total dismay....Sanju's voice of drama mat kar and his mom's voice was just playing on repeat .....in his mind making him restless and uncomfortable....

The night passed he didn't eat...he just laid there staring at the ceiling the whole night without much expressions....he had locked his room up and when Bala and monami came to call him up for dinner he yelled at them and sent them back....and he immediately resented the same to.....

He slowly got up and opened his bag...and deep down...there was a cotton shawl...which was the only thing he had that belong to his mom...and tears uncontrollably rolled down his eyes...
He hugged it cried ....maaa.....

It was like the same child tht cried years ago hugging the same shawl with his tiny...fingers....am i that bad ma??? Patah hai pehli baar jab love profess ki toh...jab tak behoosh nahi hua tab tak booka ta....ab yeh keh rahi hai....ki mein ab drama kar raha hoon....

Ya meine itna overdo karlia ki ab koi mujse pyaar karne may hi irritated feel kar rahe hai....bata na...maaa he cried looking at the ceiling...

The sun had dawned and it hit Sid's eyes through the window...he slowly woke....he realised he had slept weeping and held his head....he immediately saw his watch he was already late for the drill...

He rushed up and got ready and ran upto the drill...his face was all swollen...his hair was unmade... It usually is but this time the curls were entangled and it was messy...he still out up a smiley face and walked up to the drill....

Karan : kya hua??
Sid with a straight face kuch nahi...

As he was doing the drill Karan came up to him...i told you...she is sanju she has boundaries...vo apni shaadi se nahi mudegi....

Sid had lost his calm now ....toh bataye sir kitne din bhuka rehna padega mujhe???

Karan was about to speak...but sid has had it all....

Sid: nahi...tab toh unconscious hone tak bhuka ab mar jane tak bhuka rahun chalega???ok sir???he said with so much pain in his voice....

Karan: dekho...meine ....sorry
Sid smirked and interupted....kisko Marne chod do..phir keh do sorry...intention nahi tha mera .... Aur tum kya kehte ho commando ho na tum....commando bante bante aisa lagta insaniyat hi bhul gaye tum....sorry Karan sir....he adjusted ..and left the drill....

Monami:vo stress mein hai...tum isse serious mat lena please she said and followed Sid....

Sid was in the mess while monami followed her...

Monami in a loud tone.... Yeh kya tha Sid.....tumne sanju ka gussa Karan pe kyu nikala...tu aise kamjoor nahi ban sakt sid....

Sid sarcastically laughed....kamjoor...jab mere maa....ne mujhe choda ta...meine khud ko sambhala...jab mere dad ko...mujhse zyada interest business mein tha mein khud ko sambhala....jab mere best friend ko usaka pyaar mila...aur jab vo mujhe se baath karna kaam kardi meine sambala khud ko...jab Mera Sacha pyaar ke liye mujha bhuka rakha gaya...mein khud ko sambala....

He wiped his tears...aur patha mujhe laga ki vo mujhse pyaar nahi  karti teek hai it's her choice par vo galat isaan she shaadi kar rahi hai... isliye help karne gay...aur usne hi mujhe pata kya kaha...mein na drama kar raha hoon....he smirked....and he held monami by her shoulders....aur tum keh rahi ho mein ne hold back nahi kiya .....huuuihhhh??? He tightened his hold....monami got scared .....she realised she wasn't there for him as much he was there for her....and he was so hurt now and there is no going back.....

Sid understood he was hurting her and left her hand and mumured a sorry and left the mess back to his room...

It was evening....
Sanju had returned...and everyone in the academy was busy welcoming her...her eyes searched for one person Sid....but he wasn't there...she found out he was in his room and went there....

Sanju slowly opened the door to find string at the blank sky....

Sanju.: Hum yeh kehne aayo hai...ki...tum sahi the....hum jab stand lenge tabhi humari life badal sakto hai...

There was just silence from his side...

Kundan ji chahte ki army chod de...humne humari stand Li....aur badathi ki....hume commando banno hai...aur...agar unhe pasand nahi hai toh hum shaadi todh rahe hain....aur shaadi todh bhi Li...

Sid who was listening to this said with no expressions good for you....before Sanju could say something he left the room....leaving her guilt ridden and teary eyed...she had treated him badly in village she deserved it ....and it was so painful ...for here....more painful than the thought of she leaving army....

Sanju turned and followed him...but monami held her hand....he is so...hurt...vo ab pehle wala Sid nahi raha....and cried...

Sanju: aur Kaaran hai hum...

Monami : main bhi