Have you ever sketched out a rough draft and you really love it? Like REALLY love it.

I just did.

I made the mistake of showing it to one of my most perfect friends.

She is wonderful at gymnastics, makes perfect grades, and can draw.

Me? I make good grades. But I'm not intelligent. Nope. I don't feel like I am. I don't play any sports. And now I feel like the one thing I do well actually sucks.

I showed her a sketch and said, should I continue.

She replies with, "Sure"

"Well I was meaning like an opinion."

"Oh it's better then So and So's" wow. That hurts

" what can I fix?"

She then proceeds to tell me a list, a LONG ASS LIST, of what I needed to fix, half of which were my style, some where just sketch. Of course it isn't perfect it's a sketch.

Needless to say I got upset.

It feels like the one thing I was good at is now something I'm really shitty at.

Sorry to say but I'm not in the best place right now so that just adds on to my stress.

I'm pissed off, tired, and upset.

I wanna live with my dad.

Can't becomes I'll be leaving my mom too.

It sucks ass being the oldest and no longer important. I'm a fucking built in baby sitter and not to mention I'm jealous as hell but too nice so I don't say anything.

Pardon me, but I'm not gonna update for a while.

Too much shit is happening.