PlZ DONT READ BECAUSE BOMBER IS DEPRESSED AND HEART BROKEN

So I wrote something super mean on a small piece of paper after my mom punished me a few years ago. When my sister was small and mischievous, I often got blamed for her wrongdoings. And so I get hit and hurt while she was there, safe from any bruises.

It was a wish for my mom to die.

I didn't really mean it, Y'know? At the spur of the moment, hate kind of makes people do mean things.

I don't know what to say to my mom when I get home. I'm not even sure if she's alive. I'm scared. I don't want her to go, even though through how many beatings I went through. She didn't answer the text I gave her.

I don't know what to do.