( Hey guys.this is the story of high school life of Ryouta Murasaki. well, let's make it short introduction and deep into story.

Starting today, i will be going to High school. yeah that means today is my first day.)

"Brother, wake up. you don't want to get late on your first day,do you?" - Hikari
"Ah..what?"
I woke up somehow even though i wanted to sleep more. i somehow able to get my hands up to cloak placed near my bed.
"Ah..what? it's already 7:40."
I woke up and went to bathroom. somehow had my breakfirst and left home.even though it was my first day i wasn't much excited. It's been a hard time for me after what happened.

Few months before,while i was still in middle school, i used to like a girl. she was my first crush,Yuuki Akazawa. Black hair ,deep eyes,who would not fall for her. she was popular back in middle school. And in this long list of her followers, i was also the one. on the day of our farewell party, i confessed to her.

(On the day of farewell party, after party was over and everyone headed to home, i was waiting for her. i wanted to find a chance to be alone with her so that i can say what i really wany to say. she was one of the member of organizing the party,bso she was helping out with gathering stuff. and yeah i did got the chance. even though we were together in middle school, i never dared to talk to her even once. i would just stalk her from distance and be happy. i never thought today will ever come. i found her alone while she was throwing garbage so i followed her too.)

"Hey, yuuki,you are really working hard."
"Oh,no,just throwing garbage,you have worked as much as i do,everyone did their best."
"Ah..yeah."
After throwing garbage,we took our bags and about to head to home.
"Hey,yuuki wait,i need to talk to you about something."
She turned and looked at me.i was freezed. my head was heavy.i started shivering.
"I wanted to tell you something."
"Yeah.say what is it?"
"Well,you see,...ahh...i wanted to say that..you see....i like you. please go out with me."

I don't know how i said it. i did just said it.my heartbeats were high. my legs started shaking. i was waiting for her to say something but she was just staring.

She laughed,
"You really know how to make jokes,huh?"
"No i wasn't..."
Before i say anything,i saw looks on face changed
"Hey,you gotta be kidding.you want me to go out with someone like you. a creep who used to lost in his own thoughts,not much good looking, not good in anything particular,give me a break. i don't wanna damage my reputation."
"What..."
"See yah. It's late. i've got to go."

I was baffled. i expected her to say no but what she says completely broke me. she could've said just no but she didn't.

(is that how it supposed to happen?)

My first crush, the person i admire for 5 years, which i thought to get close to everyday, just vanished from my life within few minutes. everything i decided to tell her, about how i used to admire her, how her smile makes my heart skips a beat, how her bold decisions and leadership used to impress me , how i spent countless nights just thinking about her, all his dreams just broken down within few minutes.

I headed to home with my broken heart. while walking many things were running through his mind,
"Well, i won't say, whatever she said was a lie, i was never much of better choice. i was average in studies, never excelled in sports, i didn't even joined any clubs in my middle school. i had limited friends.
While she was always good at studies and sports. she was always a hot subject among boys to talk, she was even our class representative. everyone liked her, so it's not like she was telling anything wrong. she was just too straight forward."

My heart was broken. i reached home. it was already night.
"I'm home."
"Welcome."
Hikari greeted.
"so how was your farewell party?
Did you have fun?"

That was the Last question i wanted to hear. i just went to my room saying i was tired.i got into bed. i didn't even had dinner. As soon as i reached in my room,i closed the door. All emotions i was holding up until yet burst out in tears. i just went to bed. That night was the longest night i ever had. i wasn't able to help myself. everytime i closed my eyes, Her cold face while she turned him down would pop up in front me. one sided love is an illusion, a dream. you can live in it without knowing anyone. but once this dream comes near reality, it might hurt you in worst way, gives you a deep scar which you don't know when will heal. you can just try to help yourself to survive through it. it was painful.
After that night, i was depressed for a long time. even my mother and sister noticed it so we went on vacations after that for a little while. it was great. it really helped me to forget everything. the pain i was suffering from have lessened. after some time, i pulled myself together. it was hard but i somehow managed it. so this is what happened?

(Now,i am about to enter my high school life.i was changed more or less.

i don't wanna remeber my past. i wanna start a new. so i really think i should change a bit. After what i hear from yuuki, i don't wanna be same as i was in middle school. so i have decided that i will do my best.
( at least i thought so)