I stood in the airy dark mist. Gloom surrounded me. I held my head down. Ashamed. As I shall be I stood tall, not letting anyone see me break. Even though no one was there. 'I'm deeply sorry, I can't be with you anymore my love.' Hair covering half my face, dressed in black, I would not dare to let my fiance see me cry, I will not, I must stay strong... for us.

My heart-acheing trip to the hospital has come to its end. Unfortunately We have transitioned to a private grave yard. My figure was the only one there in the dark. The isolated glowing white moon and sky cried also, sharing my tears with them. I couldn't stop, no because I love that person so much and I lost my chance to be married to my fiance. And now, my lover would always stay in my broken heart, always forever.

The dead oak trees circled me from afar so did a grand golden gate in the centre. Not far away from myself laid a tombstone, engraved with my significant other's name. "I lo-ove y-you" I croaked my throat dry from crying earlier realising my partner is now presented dead in front my own two eyes. My heart, body and soul screamed, I can't do this anymore. I collapsed onto my knees and sobbed. Sadness was evident all over my face, I quickly covered my eyes with my palms not wanting to upset my everything. I cried, screamed some more. I didn't care about my throat or the weather, I didn't care. We could of had a future... get married and have kids and love each other until the day we die.

That did not happen. That person is gone. My baby is gone. That means my life is gone as well. The true happiness I ever had with that person is now vanished, vast away and locked. More tears dripped down my face and onto my lap. If only I could have one more day with the person I love, exchanged secrets to, cried, laugh, danced, played, kissed and made love with... Would just come back to me.

But that can't happen this is reality, he can't come back...my Natsu can't come back. I have to stay strong cause Natsu is not coming back. My heart stung when I said that.

Yes, Natsu is
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Dead

I should of been the one in the coffin. Why, Why? Because he saved me! He offered to give his heart to me. To see me alive. He... is truly my hero. But how could I let this happen! If only I could of stayed strong. I hate myself, I want to die.

Save myself the guilt I carry and end me already. Ease my life and make it complete so I could be with Natsu. Kill me. Kill me now! Then I felt my energy drain out of me, my entire body felt weaker. There, I lay asleep on my straving stomache facing my loved onè. Natsu Dragneel rest in peace, I love you.