I'll never admit these feelings
They cause my stomach to become sick
My friends have them too
And I tell them it's natural
Though with me, it isn't
It's nothing foreign to me
They've become as secretive as my favorite music
Claiming I listen to rock, rap and metal
Except when I'm alone it's different
I'd rather be caught dead than tell anyone
Just like these feelings, don't show any weaknesses
Can't let them hear the music from my phone
Can't let them see me hiding in the bathroom
Never show any vulnerabilities
If there's one break in the formation
It all starts crumbling down
I want to let my forces through the walls of my fortress but
Everything might go wrong
There might be things that come out that shouldn't
I would rather be dead than open the gates
With the possibility of it caving in
By the work of outside forces I thought I could trust