I swear to god, sometimes I just really hate people and hate myself for having friend like the ones I'm about to talk about right now.

So one of my best guy friends that's been my friend since the beginning of school keeps talking about how he's going to get drunk or kill himself. It pisses me off because he says it and acts like it's a fucking joke.

Are you serious?! You don't joke about shit like that! It's not funny! Some people actually do this shit! I know some people, and I don't mean on here!

I know he had a shit life but you can't joke around with that shit.

Oh and one more thing that pisses me off that I know he did. It that long ago is SMOKED! WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL! I swear I'm going to have to slap some sense into that boy!

Also, my other guy friend. Well, he isn't my friend anymore but I could really careless, is also being just a complete dick.

So for almost a month now he's been calling me Ally. Yes I know it's not that bad but I'll tell you exactly why I don't have him calling me that.

There are few people in this world, besides my family, who are aloud to call me by that name. Those people are the people that have called my Ally since Kindergarten because that's who I went by. That guy I was talking about earlier at the beginning didn't even know how to spell my real name till a a few months ago! My name is not that hard to spell. There are just many different ways to spell it.

Anyways, I've been telling him this whole time not to call me it because I do not want him to. He keeps fucking doing it and it's really been pissing me off.

I had this group chat that my friend made me make a few weeks ago and he was in it.

So last night we were all talking and he was just throwing shit me and it was pissing me off! I was getting so mad that I almost got to the point that I was going to cry!

So I was waiting to go into my 4th hour (or period or block or whatever else you guys call it) and he was talking to some of my friends.

He PURPOSELY stood next to me and said, and I fucking quote, "We aren't friends".

That didn't hurt me any because I've lost so many fucking people in the last 5 years, it's not even funny. It doesn't affect me anymore. I literally looked at him and said okay, I really don't care.

I really honestly don't care. I'm not going to be treated like shit and be friends with somebody who is always going to make me feel like it.

That's not going to happen anymore. I'm don't with all the stupid bullshit like this.