I'm brusing,

I'm broken,

Gone so long now without hope and,

And I just... Just dont wanna cry no more.

I'm flaking,

I'm breaking,

Slowly disintegrating,

And, its getting so hard to hold myself together now...

Been so long since I started faking I can't even stop cause I don't know how...

But... But I just don't wanna cry no more...

Don't wanna break apart and lose control...

My mind, it likes to point out all my flaws, hightlight insecurity,

Like the fact I don't wanna cry but I don't know what to try...

Too scared of pain to cut,

Too afraid to die,

Love my loved ones too much to even fuckin' try.

Hah.

Suck a fuckin' coward, kinda boy who gets weepy over flowers.

Of course I'm sick of cryin', I do it all the time.

Whats the point in denyin', the fault's probably mine... And still, and still I...

I don't wanna cry no more no,

Don't wanna hide behind a door as I fall apart,

I don't wanna scream and shout into a pillow, silent as I burn my lungs out,

Tears that get forgotten as the melatonin runs dry,

Riding the exhaustion for the high.

insomnia leaves me too tired to be depressed, thats what I guessed,

Hah, was I wrong? They find the new odds kinda fun,

Between them and anxiety I usually sleep away the sun...

But at least when I'm asleep, I can't weep.

Oh at least in a dream or a fantasy,

I get to escape away from me...

No... I don't wanna cry no more

No I'm...

I'm brusing,

I'm broken,

Gone so long now without hope and,

And I just... Just dont wanna cry no more.

I'm flaking,

I'm breaking,

Slowly disintegrating,

And, its getting so hard to hold myself together...

I guess I've never known no better...

So tell me a pretty lie, let me make myself seem interesting...

Then I'm betting... You just might stick around...

This silent laughter of mines just masking the broken sound.