When I was younger, I've alway saw the ppl and teachers who were trying to help me as hostels. Thinking they were trying to control me, and mak me into something I wasn't, and because of that mistaken view I lashed out and cussed distress to thoes around me because of it.

And it gets harder and harder to th each passing day to beat with the mistakes I wish I never made each day. And with that my self confidence worsens a lot, if I had just focused and listened to the ppl around me I could of had a secure and bright future. But no I don't know what I'm going to do with me life now, I'm spoiled, quick to anger and selfish.

And that doesn't bring me happiness. And I want to be better but it hard now, and it gets harder and harder, I'm not sure what to do anymore, and I don't want to burden my mom anymore then I already have.

And I can't live with myself because of all that. What should I do?.