This may seem like this is gonna be about all of my OC's but NAH! That isn't quite my angle here. XD

Instead, I just would like to quickly discuss how, in my opinion, an OC is a good OC. In brief summary, I like to think that a good OC is one that the creator can relate to in a physical or emotional way, more so the latter. Not saying that creating some OC that isn't relatable to you isn't bad, but rather the best way to make an OC that shares some sort of connection to you. It makes the character feel more alive and real in my eyes. Hence why... looking at all my OC's you could actually piece together things about me. Things about my personality and quirks..

But the main thing I focus around them is their flaws, secrets and.. their inner demons. Yeah see I'm a deep person. Not saying that others aren't, but my life has revolved a lot around how I deeply I've looked at myself.. seeing as I struggle to look deeply at the world around me I try to look at myself for answers sometimes. It's made me think a lot about how the human being works.. but psychological things aside. The reason I say this is because many of the deeper themes of my OC's have represented struggles within myself.. this is kind of like me opening up for the first time about my heartache. It's just time I disregard the smiles I put on my face and be serious for a second. Let me just tell you a bit about myself... through my OC's.

Firstly, Tara; a humble emo girl who makes a life by hiding in the shadows but regardlessly saving the city by fighting off evil. Many of my personal traits were put into her. Her kind, caring nature to animals (Well, in her case Pokémon.) as well as her humble attitude to others. With that humbleness, however, comes self-esteem issues. This is arguably my biggest struggle.. well that or something else I will have to describe later. Anyways, both her and I struggle with the thought of seeing anything positive about ourselves. Beauty and self- worth are what we seem to believe are minimal.. it's partially why she covers her face with heavy emo makeup. She not only has to hide her identity, but her "ugliness"..

Next is Cooper; he's a nerd from a high school with monsters and superheroes among him, including himself, from an AU of Undertale. I'd like to describe him as my.. "nerdy" side. He likes video games and anything to do with comic book superheroes. Aka basically Marvel. Though he's also a sweetheart and hates to see his friends suffer in any way. But along with this, he's socially insecure. He has seldom friends, and often gets so absorbed with the fantasies around him that he forgets to embrace what occurs in the real world.. very similar to how I come here to hide away from anything I fear or hate about the little world around me.

A newer OC of mine was created with an intent to represent another big struggle in my life.. and that's Spice Heart, an Earth Pony from a MLP story roleplay. Sue me for being a Pegasister, anyone. I DARE YOU.

Ok geez yeah.. that sounds a lot like something Spice would say, as she's easily sensitive to criticism and is vengeful of anyone who discriminates her. But unfortunately the bullying just keeps coming back to her, all because she can't seem to let go off any of it. Some of the things.. verbal and emotional bullying I received, makes me overly excited and aggressive still to this day.

A final nail in the coffin here is... Asher. Oh boy, Asher. She's one of my most complex characters. Anyways, Asher is a black panther Mobian from the Sonic universe. Honestly being able to relate and better yet have the similar feelings of a former criminal and violent maniac makes me seem like I'm some demon. Well... it's hard to describe, but the pain and torment that Asher had to go through felt a lot like the loneliness I experienced often. Granted, I wasn't just a toddler when my parents left me on the streets and then turned into a thief and convicted criminal. Far from it. But it's rather that guilt and embarrassment from the bad things I've felt I've done.. most of which could be considered minor issues to "normal" people is what I understand. Not only that, but she struggles often even after MANY years among a makeshift family to get along with them, clinging to a few Mobians that she feels are the most important to her. Even with a completely... sane family, as normal isn't what I'd describe it, I have my times among them, and my friend group, to feel right among them. Though worst of all... the corruption that Asher experienced under the influence of the Chaos Emerald.. is something I fear as my inner demon. We feel that terrible presence even among the kindest and sweetest people, and I can feel it in my soul. Often times it's dug down deep in the heart of my soul.. and other times it is partially reared its ugly head out and influenced my words and even my actions.. it's the nastiest feeling when I come to the realization that whatever I just said or did wasn't done out of a good intention... but by the actions of my hidden devil. That is something I can say with a heavy heart is also one of my biggest overall struggles...

But now one thing before this conversation ends.

There was an article I read the other day while researching randomly.. it was about what the author called from a Native American woman; the wolf of love and wolf of hate. She had said to this author as to how she became such a wise elder: "In my heart, there are two wolves; a wolf of love and a wolf of hate. It all depends on which one I feed each day."

The rest of the article goes into depth of the meaning of this and how beautiful yet real it is. Just reading the expression alone made me develop my own weird meaning of it... and it's rather one more logical than spiritual. If you were to have two wolves.. or dogs perhaps since those are actually legal as pets, and one you had to choose to feed each day and let the other starve, how would you feed them? Feeding the wolf of love will make it more loving and bark out happily, but then the wolf of hate will snap and growl at you, maybe even try and steal the wolf of love's food. Feeding the wolf of hate will soothe its angry tendencies, but not feeding the wolf of love will result in it feeling betrayed, and it'll whimper and cry... until the next day comes.

That's all I have for now. Until then.. well. I'll be around.