Astrid

He helped me off the ground but I couldn't look at him even though my eyes wanted to wander back to his gaze. He saved my life. We stood in silence; he gaze fixed upon me I felt. "Maybe we should start to walk back?" I suggested "Yea...yea maybe we should," he answered awkwardly. As we were walking back my strides were thicker than his, I didn't know whether or not I was doing this on purpose to get away from him or it was just me being me. "Hey slow down would ya," he called out, I hesitated but I slowed down anyway so he could catch up with me.

We both walked back to the village together without saying a word to each other. It felt awkward. "Thank you...for what you did back there," I whispered. "I couldn't watch you get hurt," my head perked up at the words which just escaped his lips. I looked up at him "What did you say?" he ran his fingers through his shaky auburn hair and repeated "I couldn't watch you get hurt," I gave a slight laugh and carried on walking "Well you had no problem before watching me get hurt what's changed?" he suddenly caught up with me and held my arm gently "That wasn't me."

I looked up into those sparkling emerald eyes and noticed that they were true. They didn't have a darkness I once saw, the spark was ignited again, but for some reason I felt as if I was looking at a complete stranger, though my heart was telling a different story. "Heather and the others told me everything, and I know that there isn't anything that I can do to change what happened and I don't exactly know where that leaves us." My head turned away from him. "Spell or no spell Hiccup, it was still you and I thought that you were stronger than that and right now, I feel like I'm looking at a complete stranger, we used have something, and that something was heading home to me the day you wrote that letter but that something was dying inside me day by day and I don't know what can bring it back."

He sighed and lowered his head. "I'm sorry," I whispered and walked up to my house. "Astrid wait!" I heard him calling my name as I slammed my door shut. Inside of me, it felt like my heart was dying even though there was nothing left for it to die for. The pang of guilt or lose or the pain I felt the day he left me behind. I held onto my chest and leant on the back of the door. I felt his presence at my door. He lightly knocked "Astrid, sorry will never make up for all the mistakes I've caused, but everything in that letter was true and that never died out...but I'm so sorry I couldn't have told you sooner..." with every word I felt my body fall down the back of the door.

The feeling inside me getting increasingly stronger, second by second. "I just hope one day you can forgive me..." he voice trailed off as did his presence. I couldn't move. It felt as if my body was frozen. I hadn't felt like this in ages but it always seemed to be because of him. I thought I couldn't love him anymore, but I will always love him no matter how hard it hurts and no matter how hard I can hate him sometimes. I pushed myself up from the ground and headed towards my room. I lifted the floor board off the ground and took out my little chest. I opened it up and took out the letter he wrote to me so long ago.

Dear Astrid,

I'm sorry for what has happened I wouldn't have left if I didn't have good reason to. I just hope that you understand this. In case you were wondering I'm fine, I and Toothless are okay. It's the best feeling out here, being free I have never felt better, no one telling me what to do and where to be, I can do what I want and no one can stop me. This is the life I have wanted Astrid for a while and never had chance to live it. I will come back Astrid know that because I can't leave you because......well.....okay here it comes.....

I never had the chance to say this to you.....maybe because I was a nervous wreck......or maybe because I never had the guts to tell you......or maybe because I don't think you feel the same back.......or maybe even all of the above. But Astrid I'm going to say it know even if this isn't to your face.

But I love you and I'm sorry that I have crushed your heart by doing what I have done......in time maybe you can forgive me....

I love you

Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III

The very first time he ever said that he loved me, I took out all the other letters until they soon stopped to the day that they said they were coming home but disappeared. The tears escaped my eyes as I lay in my room surrounded by the letters that used to hold my heart in place.