Often you end up doing something

You claimed that you'd never do;

For me, one such thing has been,

Forgetting all about you.

Something so evil is bound to come back,

And haunt me forever -

Selfishly breaking my promise,

I was trying to be clever.

Abandoning reality, I told myself many lies,

About you, me, and us -

Fooling myself, I believed it'd help me

To solve my life's mess.

Not a shred of truth was to be found

In the darkness engulfing my soul;

I let go of the one person,

Who was capable of making me whole.

I have paid the price,

But I wonder if it's enough,

Karma or perhaps it's fate,

Laughing in the face of my bluff.

Somewhere down the road,

I'll end up remembering you again;

I fear that I won't be able to

Deal with the ensuing horror, the pain!

I broke my promise, letting you go

From my heart and memories too -

The idiot that I am, thinking it'll be over,

Just like that, but all along you knew.

My only hope, in the end,

Is that you'll be more forgiving than me,

Undeserving that I am, the truth within a lie,

Only you might be able to see.