Sometimes I publish depressing things hoping you notice

Just to see if you care, even the slightest bit at all.

see, I scroll and scroll too see if you have seen my rants.

I refresh the page multiple times because I wish I could just get a notification from you

but you're busy with her

You have other friends

and I guess I was just passing thing to you.

I really wish you would ask me if I was okay. Not just something out of pity.

I wish you could just ask me like I used to do with you.

"Are you okay?"

That would help. A lot.

I know people care, but I wish you cared.

Everyday I remember the amazing conversations we had, late night talks where I would sneak my phone just to talk to you.

but those days are in the past, sadly.

I honestly give up.

I gave up but it still fucking hurts.

I know it always will.

I wish you the best, for you, and whoever you end up being with.

Because whoever the special person is, is lucky as hell.

I'll probably look if you have seen this. That's how pathetic I am