They think that they can change who and what I am. They never are satisfied with the things I accomplish , when I try to show them something, I hear in their voice that their faking the happy tone, I know their embarrassed that I like anime, and whatever i think they'll like that I also like, they won't even give it a chance. I'm not allowed anything anime. Because it's "just a cartoon"  Or "its not good for the brain" and even if it's game merchandise, ( fnaf , assassins creed, etc.) they just won't allow it.  When I'm stressed out. They say "you have nothing to be stressed about" when I really do......I'm stressed out because I have to take care of my handicapped grandma, Parkinson's disease, and not being able to do much. I worry that even though I'm really strong, one day I won't be able to help. And I try my best, but when my mom said that soon she has to get a care taker . It makes me feel like what I'm doing isn't enough. But they don't know this. They don't need to know how I feel every time I try to make them proud, they just don't. So I put on a smile and act like nothing's wrong, even though I'm faking it.

Journey ( Loki)