His lips tender feel slowly breaking my wall.

That very wall I held strong, but his tenderness told me not to fight no more.

But then it hit me.

In my shock state, my almost broken state.

I push at his chest hard and he stumbled a little. I took this chance to exit myself running away from the scene.

But why was I running

Isn't it clear

I'm Matt, the Maddie in me was lost at the moment.

It's scary to know who he really kissed back there. I touched my lips softly, the tingling feeling was still present.

I'm a broken girl

Or am I a boy.

♤♤♤

Over the next few days I tried to ignore the Sergeant but that dosen't mean he is ignoring me as I have caught him looking at my so many times that I have losted count.

He always followed me, well that's what I think, hear me out I was heading to train with the others when he pulled me behind a building.

At most times he'll just hold me or whisper things like 'I miss your taste' or casual saying 'why are you doing this to me'

I would blush and then push him off don't get me wrong he's a heart throb any women would want him as much as me, but I'm agitated about myself and I don't want that.

He deserves someone a lot better, I'm not gonna confuse myself and not gonna be in pain if he ever whispered 'I love you Matt'

I don't know if I'll break down or just go hide in a hole.

My thoughts got interrupted by the tray hitting the table, I almost forgot I was eating breakfast.

"Matt you okay your spacing out a lot recently." I acknowledge the voice with a nod and I mumble 'I'm fine'.

Connor sat beside me he had that worried look on his face, he's been out of the infirmary for two days now. He's getting better doctors still trying to find what could have caused his short coma.

He's been more friendlier to me after the guys told him that I started a fight for him, he's respected me but I think after all we went through he hold some respect for me even more.

I honored that cause I wouldn't stand by and saw the people who have been with me through all the trails of this training I have the right to saw they were my family.

After running from home or should I say hell, I haven't thought I'll be happier even alive at this point.

"Guys guess what." Dale ran to us catching all our attention.

"The commander is allowing us a day free." This caused all the men to cheer also me I needed a break even from the Sergeant.

Most days haven't been like this it would be less excited but filled with the tension of training.

Have I mentioned it's almost time for graduation we had a whole month left and honestly I'm feeling anxious.

"Hey matt want to head out to the town with us." Jackson shouted from across the room, he didn't wait for my response before he walked out going to find the others.

I stood up from the bed, pulling on the same clothes I stole from the store but I had to be careful about the others seeing me.

I meet up with the group, and surprise surprise.

The Sergeant stood with the group in his casual dressing. A black t-shirt that hugged his muscules and dark blue jeans. I lost track of what I was doing before reaching the group, he smirked at me catching staring at him.

How embarrassing.

"Hey guys the Sergeant wanted to join us." Jackson said cheerily seriously tho he has a whole different vision of happy pills.

The guys said there greetings before heading to the small bus that we usually take. I was the last to enter marching my to the back only to have someone grab my hand pulling me down towards them.

"Sit next to me." The Sergeant said lowly luckily no one saw what happened.

I mentally hit him in the back of his head. I would have said if you had ask I would but I doubt that part.

Chattering filled the bus even some started singing of course I joined in but when his hand touched my leg I jumped a little.

He was staring at me and not hiding the fact too.

"That's rude stop." I mouthed to him trying to move his hand.

"Make me." He mouthed back with a cunning smirk on his lips.

You should have seen my excitement when the bus came to a stop.

I got off, the others went there separate ways in pairs and I was left alone with Mr, Grey here.

He walked behind me I wasn't really going anywhere I just wanted to walk in the park near the mall.

He didn't say anything strangely, but I do sneak glances as him he only looked around the surroundings.

He got a lot of glances from some old ladies and some girls joggers. Strangely he didn't acknowledge them.

I stopped suddenly not liking this at all, I don't like being nervous.

"Okay Sergeant boy what are you playing at." I said, guess he didn't that, suddenly he stopped his step almost bumping into me.

"Just following you." He said innocently.

It irritated me but also its fairly ok with me.

"Yes I see that but where do you want to go." I know I shouldn't have ask the devilish smirk appeared on his lips actually his grey eyes brightened.

How did we end up here.

And how did I agree to this.

Oh I don't know maybe it's because your hungry.

I sighed.

Here we are sitting in a small cafe just across from the park.

The bumble gum pop waitress stop in her tracks as soon as she saw Damion I know I may look like a man but somehow I'm jealous of her.

Her tight fitted shirt pushed her boobs up and that short shirt not hiding much for imagination.

She sneakily pushed her breasts up more and than it was already.

"What may I get you today." Is that her trying to be sexy her voice sounded lightly forced. I almost laugh at the reaction she gave when Damion shoot an annoyed glare at her.

"Yes I'll have the cheese cake and cafe Latte please." I spoke up trying to clear this tension.

"A-and you sir." She shakey said might have piss her pants while she's at it.

"An espresso." His voice holding seriousness.

She walked off the poor girl stumbling in her step.

He didn't seem to care his eyes focusing on his phone, I find enjoyment in looking out the window watching different people walk by.

"H-here you are s-sir." The waitress came back placing our order down. She didn't stay she quickly walks away to the next table.

I slowly dig into the cheese cake enjoying the flavor, I try to contain my moan of savour.

But I guess I failed.

He may not have said anything but he stopped his action for a millisecond.

He sipped on his coffee silently enjoying the view in front of him

Me.

I felt so nervous having him look at me like that dose stuff to me. Not only dose my heart race, my cheeks can't help but heat up.

And i guess he's enjoying the torture he gives.

If anyone saw us they'll think we were a gay couple those prevy minds wouldn't think cleaner.

His phone ding with a notification, I'm a sucker of not having a phone but what can I do I didn't grow up like other.

"We need to go." He said putting his phone in his pocket and throwing money on the table.

I followed behind him running through my thoughts, I guess I wasn't focusing was going.

As we exit the cafe I bump into someone.

I look up surprise saying a quick sorry but before I could walk a away.

the person held my hand.

"You seem Oddly familiar, do I know you." The voice said and believe me when I focus more on who it was.

I wish I wasn't here.