I look around each room carefully.

"I think I like this one!" I tell Cadenza.
She smiles and says,
"Great choice!! I'll go tell mum and dad!" She exclaims.

I giggle a little and walk around my room.

I plop into my bed cuddling a big (Favorite animal/ F/a) stuffy.

I smile to myself knowing that I'm finally safe.
I may not be fixed.
I may not be normal.
But at least I can start over.

I drift asleep, letting the light engulf me.
This time, I am happy.
Or.. happier.

I can rest easily now..

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When I wake up it's darker.
I hear a knock at my door conviniently right after I open my eyes.

"who is it..?" I say grogily.

"Its me, erm.. Laurence. I wanted to let you know dinner is ready! Come down whenever your ready. We will wait for you." He says happily.

"thanks. I'll be there in a minute." I reply.

I hop up out of bed, and fix my clothes and hair.

I open my door and skip down the grand staircase.

"I feel like a princess..." I whisper to myself.

As I wonder through the huge hallways I finally make it to the dining room.
I sit down in a seat, scoot in, and place a napkin on my legs.

Everyone seems so happy.

"So, Y/n dear, what do you think of the house?" my new mom asks curiously.

"Oh it's beautiful! I feel like a princess when I'm here!" I excitedly explain unhesitantly.
"That's great to know!" She replys.

I eat my food, and savor every bit of delicious food.
I haven't eaten such delicious food in all my life!

I thank them for the food.
During the dinner we all talked and laughed and had fun the whole time.
I

feel so welcomed here.
Like I belong.

finally enough, after what's happened to me with Laurence and all,
I can't believe I'm enjoying this family so much.
I never thought I could be happy again.

After we all settle down from a stupid joke Laurence was telling us I look down and I see my cuts in my wrist.

Imediatly my smiles faltures but I quickly replace it with another.
looking at them reminds me if who I really am.
no.
stop it.
This is who I really am.

We clean up our dinner and I help with the dishes.
Cadi's and laurence's mom told me not to worry about it but I helped and then wondered back up into my room.

Once I entered my room I softly shut the door, locked it, and put my back to the door in one swift motion.

I slowly slid down the door with my face in my hands.
I ruin everything.
Why?
I was having so much fun and seeing one thing made me so much more upset than I need to be.

I walked over to one of my two bags I had and unzipped the small compartment.
I pulled out another small bag.
One from my past.
The bag of razors.

I had my own bathroom in my new room so I walked in there and sat in the tub to make sure I don't make a mess.
I take the razor and hold it up to my arms.

My hand is shaking wildly as I remember the past.
Everything that I've been through.
I do one quick slice on my arm.
I watch the blood pour out as my breathing calms.
2...
calms.
3....
calms.
4......
calms.
5..........
calms.
6..............
calms.

I keep going.
I can't stop.
Each arm.
I keep going.

I stop with my arms and I look at them.
I admire and watch as all the blood spills out of me.
I watch the breathless sight and catch my breath.
I clean off my arms with water from the tub and I cover them in bandages.