Jimin POV

I screwed up again…

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Me and Suga started leaving the store with all the clothes that we had just bought and we noticed that it was already getting really late.

“I think it’s already time for us to get back to the dorm…” Suga said and I nodded in response, as grabbed all the bags with the clothes to start leaving. But, when we started making our way to the dorm, I heard...

“Why…? Jimin…?”

...A voice coming from behind me and I turned around to see where was it coming from. And then… I saw…

“...Tae…”

...Looking at me with a desperate and painful expression, as he couldn't believe that I was right in front of him and was feeling a terrible and hurtful sadness in seeing me at the same time..

No… No! Stop looking at me with those pitiful eyes… I should be the only one with them… I’m the one who got rejected so cruelly and was left all alone after... So, why, Tae…? Just be the cold person that you were in the last time that we talked… Or else I will only feel even more hurt inside… And I don't want that...

“Hey, is everything okay?” Suga asked as he noticed that I wasn't listening to what he was saying before and that I was starting to shake slightly. “Yes…” I nodded nervously and held his hand to walk away from there. “Let’s go.” I said and started dragging him to the dorms, while he just let himself go with the flow and walked behind me me without making any other questions.

And, before leaving the shopping, I glanced one more time to Tae, that just stood right there, froze, watching me leaving with his mouth half opened, as he wanted to say something but the words were stuck in his throat, and with his eyes almost tearing up...

...What the hell was I doing…? Why was I walking away from the person that I loved…? Walking away from the person that I most wanted to be by my side…? I didn’t even know anymore… Everything was so wrong... My mind was totally a mess… And I couldn't fix anymore without him...

…

...Tae…

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“Suga, stop drinking!” I yelled at him, but he kept drinking all the bottles with alcohol that were there in the kitchen. “Look, you are already drunk!” I said as he started having hiccups and his face heated up.

“ I don't care! I like to drink at weekends at night, so I will just keep drinking how much I want!” He said stubbornly and he drank the rest from the last bottle, until he noticed, with a sad expression, that there it hadn’t anything anymore to drink, and just laid his head in the table weakly.

“Ok, now you drank everything and don’t have any more alcohol. Are you already satisfied or what?” I said at him, giving him disproving and angry stares. But the I saw him lifting up his head, to look straight at me, and with a smirk growing slowly in his face… That weren’t good news…

“Oh, I think that I need something different to be truly satisfied~” He stood up and started walking towards me, with a really big evil grin. I tried to run to my bedroom, actually to anywhere I could lock myself in it, to not let Suga get me. But after he caught me by the way and threw me on the living room’s couch, topping me after.

“Where do you think you are going, my little cute toy~? We didn’t even start playing yet~ The fun is just starting~”

Fuck… I guess that I don’t have anywhere to run away now…

Suga POV

I stayed a while looking and examining him, to know where I should start, and my attention was caught by his pink and puffy lips. And, as I noticed that Jimin was not giving fighting back for now, I started giving him a passionate kiss right away, but still hesitating a first, as I didn’t know if he would respond me back in a good way or even show any of his emotions during the kiss. But, as he started me back and moving his lips in harmony with mine, while he wrapped his arms around my neck, I felt relieved and it didn't took too long for me to deepen the kiss even more.

I poked his lower lip, asking for entrance, and, even having hesitated, he ended up giving it. I touched every corner, until I arrived to his tongue, starting a fight for dominance. And, as I won it easily (and kinda sadly and disappointedly), I started sucking his tongue, receiving soft moans from him.

...

...But something was wrong… His moans weren’t music to my ears as I was expecting… They were somehow sad and painful to hear… But I tried to just ignore that sensation and continue with what I was doing…

I broke the kiss, as we were in need for air, and I started taking his shirt off, revealing his smooth skin, his beautiful chest and defined abs. I stared perversely at him, making Jimin embarrassed on purpose, and I started touching his body after.

“I already kissed and left you a hickey here.” I touched with tip of my fingers in his collarbone. “This time, I want to try and explore new places~” I played with voice and he blushed slightly, looking really cute. I gave him a simple smile that turned to a smirk right away, as I started kissing his chest and moved down to to his hips, taking off his pants at the same time as I started biting and leaving hickeys in that zone.

"Be sure to moan, ok?" I told him and took off his black boxers right away, revealing everything from his body and making him be totally exposed to me, and I placed my hand in his member, starting to massage it and, after, taking it whole with my hand.

“Ahhhh~” He moaned sexly, but still hesitantly, as I started moving my hand up and down. But this… Instead of getting me turned on… Was only making me angry and really upset. This was just… Wrong…

...He wasn't really corresponding me… Our breaths weren't in harmony, connected or even mixed in only one... Our bodies looked like they were in two different, separated realities, too far away from each other… He was so close to me, but, at the same time, so far away... I wasn't receiving any of his love back... Yeah... Even him being right here, right in my arms and in my embrace… Even having his body for only myself… I couldn't reach him and truly touch him… He wasn't really here… He wasn't feeling pleasure or even love towards me... He was only faking this… Faking everything… This was a lie...

...He wasn't mine...

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I can’t… I... I had enough of this! I won't take this for any longer! I won't let this happen again! I will make sure that he will be only mine!

And then I stop moving my hand and took it off, to look straight at him and to shout out angrily at him...

“I hate this!"

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New chapter. \(*-*)/ This fanfic is finally close to reach to his end. TTuTT I don't even know if I should be happy or not. TTuTT

And I have 4 tests this week. TT-TT Nooooooooooooooo! TT-TT Save me! (/T-T)/

I hope you enjoyed. ^-^

Bye ~(*-*~)

- Danielar