CLUMSY .

this is what i've always been . For them , i seldom make right things. Instead, I commit nonsense things. 

because i am unusual. 

" Girls , here she comes, si Manang Sienna ." si Sarah Cardama . kilalang babae sa campus -- maganda , model , palaayos -- lahat na nasa kanya . she's the apple of the eye of the boys in the campus.

" yeah right " then laughing reigns . at AKO ang reason kung bakit masaya ang mga estudyante .

I AM SO DIFFERENT COMPARED TO THEM.

I am immature, naive, prefers to be alone, a nerdy student who wears eye glasses with big lens. i don't even have the so called groupies. i didn't shop . i didn't wear make ups. 

in short , i am an out-of-the-ordinary girl. i am rare and freakish.

i am always the main topic of the tittle-tattles. I am used to it. Ikaw ba naman ang maging main topic everyday ng tawanan not only sa room namin but sa whole campus.

OH! I haven't introduced myself yet. my name is Sienna Janine Martinez, 15 years old and is a fourth year student. I belong to the top ten and one thing is outstanding to me .

I NEVER CRIED IN FRONT OF MY TEASERS.

i want them to see that after all the underestimation i get from them, I am still stong enough to handle those kind of stuffs.

pupunta ako ngayon sa library. Dala dala ko ang 5 books and dictionary sa backpack ko plus may hawak pa akong reader's digest at journalism book sa kamay ko.

"haggard" yan lage ang compliment nila sa akin .sanay na ako , totoo naman eh. I suddenly stopped to wipe the fluid running down my eyes. umiiyak ako , di dahil sa pagod , pero dahil sa nasasaktan na ako. 

All that i hear are negative compliments about me. i am never good enough , T__T

Pero as i've said, di ako umiiyak sa harapan ng madameng tao. and yung mahaba kong bangs ang nagtatago ng mga luha ko. they are the one that covers my dreary, grief-striken face.

i am about to take my seat when ...

"BLAAAGGG" nalaglag ang mga dala ko , or rather, nilaglag ang mga dala ko . or rather nilaglag ang mga ito.

they burst into laughter. as always . this is my role . 

their means of BLISSFULNESS.

 i just ignored them and picked up my things. i went to the shelf where my favorite book was placed.

it was an issue of the reader's digest, where an inspirational story captivates my wit. An article there suggests to don't lose hope. istead , follow your dreams. that's what i am concepted of. keep pushinf through and treat my rivals as the factor of my success.

I am determined to overshadow hindrances for my happiness.