I'm... A mess XD

Why am I friends with certain people?- OH WAIT
YEAH, IDK

Don't cry, you don't want anyone to see. You don't want to cry because then you won't be able to stop.

I almost burts out wailing in Computer Class because our teacher is the greatest // not sarcasm. She lets us eat and she's rlly chill and her daughter is adorable!! The teacher is basically like us, except more wiser and cooler// and she stopped our lesson to talk about something someone brought up that bothered her.

It was bullying

And No I'm not getting bullied, it was just. This girl started talking about her parents and it reminded me of my Dads, biological and just... The one who was there for me, but doesn't love us anymore.

My friend grabbed me and asked if I was okay....I got a candy cane, yay.

NOW IM FREAKING OUT BECAUSE I MIGHT LOSE AN IMPORTANT FRIEND,
THE FRIEND WHO IS SUICIDAL,
BECAUSE OF THE NET NEUTRALITY SITUATION

IM SAD AND DYING INSIDE
BECAUSE I CANT LOSE HIM

I told him if he goes then I go.
Which I know I won't be able to know if he's gone. And that messes with me. What if he's gone one day and I don't know?? I can't just live on, guessing he's alive!! And I know how he is...

I'm scared now

He made me promise to not leave, and I told him to promise me first.

FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC, HA HA HA-

But yeah... Yeah...
He could lie and leave but I would realize it after a while. So yeah.... I guess that promise will be kept

But he also promised to not harm, as I did.

HUHGJSKDJ

I KINDA HAVE A DATE TOMORROW
BUT I DON'T WANT IT TO BE A DATE
SO IT'S NOOOT

:3