Idk how I feel rn
I think I've been hit with soo much shit, I'm just laughing at it all

It's soo funny yet soo
Heartbreaking

I hate myself but it's funny because it's actually true
Like

Whoop
Ha, knew that I wasn't shit and that I can't fix or change anything and everything
Life is always a huge joke
Whooop

Lol how tf do I explain this to my friends? XD

Hey guys, I'm even more heartbroken because the guy who I am in completely head over heels I'll do anything and everything for you, in love

Is gay

Fucking gay XD
🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
G A Y

And I could've been told this earlier
I also could've not been the first and only person you decided to tell
Especially after I just fucking told you I liked you "kinda" and then acted like it wasn't a huge deal after the fact

Im "kinda" mad
But extremely hurt

Why is this happening? XD
It's such bullshit

I thought about it before I started diving in and started loving
but look at me
N o w

Yay

I'm sooo happy and totally okay

And I'm an idiot for still talking to him and just learning more when I can just stop everything and just chill in the darkness

But

Idek

Dude, he didn't even want kids
I'm shook
Not even like a cute little girl

AHHH, THE GENERICS ON THAT CHILD!!
THE DOMINATE CHIN TRAIT!!
AHHH

that hurts

And shit
I think two days ago he was calling me cute

He even gave me a nickname

Shithead potato ;v;

I know this weird because I'm weaving in and out of feelings and jokes but I'm really hurt

it's soo stupid
Lol, I'm soo stupid XD

I wrote this at 12:00am it's 12:27am rn

See, I wanna go to sleep but I don't wanna wake up

That's sounds like death doesn't it?
I just want more sleep time and darkness

That sounded edgy

dammit
And I still care
I care soo much yet I'm being thrown to the side

I can't get mad though
But its only him

I can't get mad at God because I don't know him
He hasn't contacted me ever
Like hit me up sometimes dude 🤘

I'm soo fucking miserable RN XD

Thank you again wattapd for being my outlet for when I can't talk to that asshole
And thanks for also being a public diary that anyone could find and read

It's 12:42am now
Hhmmmmmmm