(SHORT STORY)

WARNING:

RATED SPG.
READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.
THIS STORY IS NOT SUITABLE FOR TEENS.

One o'clock in the morning, sounds of fireworks finally gone. Pero may mangilan-ngilang tugtog pa ako'ng naririnig. I'm alone in my house. My parents went to our house in Manila, they want to spent their holidays their, nakatira doon ang isang kapatid ko. Niyayaya nila ako sumama pero ayoko ko. Holidays their are so noisy.

I'm about to close my eyes but I remember someone. We own the first day of January, we're supposed to be a lover but fates never allow us to be together. They always put an obstacles between us but until now my feelings for him still intact, stuck and remains.

'Kumusta na kaya siya'.My mind says. I open my messenger. He's online. Naiisip niya rin kaya ako sa mga oras na ito? Is he still remember our sweet memories going to church, walking nearby, hangouts in malls, swimming overnight and unplanned dates. Is he still remember me? I'm curious.

"Happy New Year Zeed!." My finger typing unconscious.

"Happy New Year too, Maria Kristina." My receiver automatically replied as if it is program in his phone like a seller to entertain the buyer though their busy or away. Then I felt the old feelings that still in the corner of my heart. I don't know if I make it alive or just sleeping and resting a few decades ago. But talking with him was still the same. He is the same humorous person I have ever known.

"Required talaga na buong pangalan?." Reklamo ko. Sometimes I found sweets when he called me by my long name. Pero minsan naiinis rin ako.

"Nope. I just miss the old times." Pahapyaw niya.

"New year is such a cold isn't it?." He added. Then I remembered that special day of ours. Surely, naaalala niya rin.

"Indeed." I shortly replied because my heart was bursting into pieces. 'God, I miss him'. My mind shout and I feel like a teenager again. Young again. 'Umayos ka Kristina. He is your Ex not boyfriend.'

"Not busy huh, you're alone again. As always. Wanna hangouts with me?." Hindi man lang nagtanong kung bakit alone na naman, syempre I want him back. Pero bakit nagyaya siya agad. Hindi ako ready.

'I miss him but I'm calm; controlling my self'. My heart shout to say yes pero huwag muna because our situation was not the same anymore. I'm not updated to his life and he also did to me. Baka mayroon na  siya'ng girlfriend.

"Let's meet, KC." I suddenly breakdown when I read his message. Pangalawang offer niya.

"Why should we?." I acting like a normal because I don't want him to know that I'm freaking out in my bed hugging my pillow, jumping like a monkey and imagining him at my side again.

"There's a new Cafe a minutes away. Located at the beach near in town. Let's try it. Maybe we will be a judges in such way.

"Saturday. Seven o'clock at the crossing. I'll wait you there." He suggested. Sayang bakit hindi agad ngayon.

"No need. I bring my own wheels." I proudly says at hindi nagpahalata na sabik ako'ng makita at makasama siya muli.

"That was great.!." He said. So it means a yes? What a foolish decision. I want to back-out but I'm excited tho. My heart melting like a chocolate bar by the lit of sunlight. It's freaking hot.

Saturday night. Wearing my smiles and favorite dress. After long five years nakaramdam ulit ako ng excitement. He controlling my heart again.

"So? How are you? It's been a decade since I last saw you. You're still the same." Sabi niya at sabay abot sa akin ng tatlong pulang rosas. Walang pagbabago. He is still my Zeed. Sweets and romantic as ever.

"Probably you too." I replied with smile.

Inalalayan niya ako sa waist ko. He touch it as his mine. Then we're entering in Small Cafe with a beautiful scenery of glimmering silver ocean a few steps from Cafe Shops. There's a queueing cottages beside it. During night that Shops became a mini resto bar. They sell hard liquor, beer and wine.

"I think I'm not in the mood to sip coffee tonight. I'll go for beer. How about you?." He said in hesitant.

"Wooh this is you again, Zeed. Changing the plan on time. Fine. Let's go for beer." I agreed dahil napaka-alinsangan ng gabi. Or sadyang nilalagnat lang kami pareho? Like the old time, kapag magkatabi kami ay may bigla na lang spark na nagaganap.

He order two bottle of beer with salted legumes. Then settled our self at the last table in the corner where we have a great ocean view. After a humorous and funny conversation. We empty almost dozen of beer so I feel dizzy. I shouldn't drive my wheels while sobering but it feels so good talking to someone you know. Feels de jávù.

"Feeling tired. You want to rest in a few minutes? We can rent a cottage over there." He pointing afar na para bang nagsusuggest na doon kami mag-usap ng walang nakakarinig. Wala akong nagawa kundi ang mag-agree na lang sa kanya. I can't resist what he wants. Kahit noon pa man. Siya lqgi ang nasusunod dahil siya ang marunong maghandle ng relasyon.

"Rest inside. I'll wait for you here and be your guard." That cottage he rent for us has a small room for privacy. Many tourists and travelers stop in that area so they can use it to sleep or change their clothes. So I slowy climbing two stair to go up in a little room then I close the door. My mind circling like I'm about to vomit. My eyes closed. I want to rest but I'm worried a man outside or just worried na hilahin siya ng iba.

"Zeed, Are you okay?." I ask him because I heard a loud thunderstorm. What the heck! It's going to rain. Just like the old times we stuck in abandoned building like this because of heavy rain. That's our sweetest young memories back then.

"It's cold but I'm okay. Don't worry about me. Just rest there to sober up." He only cared about me again, ako nga nasa loob ng room ay nilalamig eh. Siya pa kaya na kanina pa nanginginig.

"Go inside." I suggest in mumbling. Hindi siya nagreact, ayaw niya siguro, gusto niya ako iwasan. Natahimik siyang ilang segundo. But suddenly I heard a creak of bamboo door. Then heard him murmured dahil nauntog siya sa pintuan because of a sudden black-out. I thought he just sitting down in the chair at the side of the bed but he is crawling in my bed to reach me.

He touches my face then he pulled me to make me sit. Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit na para bang ayaw niya na akong pakawalan. He caressing my back.

"You know what. I miss you so much babe." He whispered near in my ears, kilig naman ako syempre pero ayoko na sagutin ang sinabi niya dahil obvious naman na miss ko rin siya. Me in this kind of place wa proof that I really wanted to see him.

"This is wrong Zeed." I said in trembling. May kakaiba na kase ako'ng nararamdaman.

"I know then pwedi bang ipagpatuloy natin ang kasalanan na ito.." He suggested or pleading. Sounds not a question either. Nanghihina ako dahil inaaway ako ng nararamdaman ko. My body was saying I let him do what he desires but my mind against it.

"Let's make a mistake. I want to make a sin with you." He whispered while his lips near to my ears. My clear mind slowly blaring out so I can't hear him anymore. I just hear the loud rumblings of my heart. I'm longing for him. I'm longing for his touch. I'm panting at that moments then I move myself away from him but he hold my arms and kiss me. I can't move. I really can't move. My lips was numb and cramping.

"Just once. This once." He whispered. My hand hold his shoulder snaking to his neck and unconsciously lock it through his nape. I'm kissing him back. Really. I'm doing it unprepared. But I know unplanned was the best moment. "This once." I repeated.

"Thank you. Thank you..." He sighing while kissing me hard. "I miss you so much babe.." He whispered again. He knows how to make me weak. He really knows me well. Unti-unti niya na akong pinahiga hanggang sa nasa ibabaw ko na siya. I can't imagine my night without him at this kind of feelings. He always make me crazy when he touch me. He suddenly move aside, untangle his clothes; next to mine. I don't have a strength to pull my pants because I'm weakling. So he did it. Umiikot pa rin ang paningin ko but my mind was clear. I can tell every details about this night.

"This is such a wonderful night." He said while making my mounds wet. He slowly inserting his finger while kissing me torridly na para bang sabik na sabik siya sa akin. "Oh my God. You're still the same." I whispered while moaning. Nababaliw ako sa ginagawa niya. He push and pull his fingers to the center of my universe. I feel ecstatic right now. He is really good. He is really good like before when we're wild and young. But definitely not free.

"Call me babe whenever you praising me." Zeed ordered but I keep silent dahil hindi ko alam kung ano ang isasagot ko sa sinabi niya.

"I stalking your life in social media. Then I realized I want to taste you again. I want to taste you badly like the last time. Can I do it tonight?." Nanghihina ako sa sinasabi niya, parang nakasakay ako sa roller-coaster na humihilab ang tiyan, feels like the first time he told me na gusto niya ako tikman.

"You're in a middle of it. Why asking me? Do it properly and memorably because after this incident I will not allow you to near me again. I isolating myself away from you because you are dangerous as hell." Oh my G! Maria Kristina is it a warning or complement?

"Are you praising me or complaining?." Sabi na nga ba eh kahit siya ay curious sa sinabi ko dahil kahit ang sarili ko ay hindi ko alam ko'ng alin sa dalawang iyon ang tama.

"Did I call you babe?. Hindi naman diba? So it means I'm complaining." Para ako'ng nag explain sa bata.

"But it sounds praised. And if that is the deal. So I think I should stop right there." He froze at kunwari lalayo na siya sa pwesto ko. Alam ko naman na kunwari niya lang pero takot ako na baka totohanin niya.

"Just do it! Don't hang me here.!" I shouting him because the rains was so loud outside.

"Hindi ko kakayanin na hindi lumapit saiyo. Hindi. Hindi ko talaga kaya eh. Iispin ko pa lang para na ako'ng mababaliw." He stated, then I smiled. Sounds insane over me.

"Finish it or else I'll throw you outside naked!." My head hearts. Inaaway ko siya while his fingers inserted in my wet part. Hindi lang naman siya ang mababaliw eh. Kahit ako rin. I feel like crying in heaven now.

"I want to taste you every night. This night is not enough. So I must stop right now to be able to touch you again." Para na akong mawala sa katinuan dahil sa sinasabi niya. Tinatanggihan niya ba ako? What the f! did he thinking? That I finish it myself alone?

"Do it please." I'm choking myself. I'm pleading. Dumudugo na rin ang labi ko because I'm biting it hardly to not moan while we having conversation. He still moving his fingers through it kaya napapaigtad ako. I feel the wet inside. Wala siyang tigil kahit inaaway ko siya. Nahihibang na ako. I don't know if I closed my thighs or widely open it. I'm growling like a kitten. Hindi ko rin kakayanin kapag hindi niya ito itinuloy. Then suddenly the lights were on. I saw him also biting his lips while making me insane. It's seems he is not really interested to end this quickie thing. Kunwari pa siya eh. Pareho lang naman kami ng nararamdaman.

"Okay. I must do it alone." Natawa siya sa sinabi ko. Hindi niya naman kakayanin na makita akong ganoon. But I tried kung talagang hihinto siya.

"I'll do it pero hindi ko tatapusin." He smiled talking while looking at me foolishly,  walang pagbabago talaga. Siya pa rin ang Zeed ko, nagmatured lang.

"What are you talking.?." I asked intensely.

"To be continued. Parang mga novels lang. Pag hindi tapos diba kailangan ng update at karugtong." He explained in a shallow way. Seriously he is not funny.

"Hindi ako natutuwa. Do it now or hindi mo na ako makikita kahit kailan." I scared him pero mukhang ako ang dehado sa sinabi ko.

"Okay." Pagkasambit niya no'n ay agad niyang inalis ang maswerteng mga daliri niya sa gitna ng hita ko na kanina pa madulas at agad siya na pumwesto sa gitna ko while holding his shaft, ready for inserting in my life again, he is ready to open the heavens gate again. His another hand touching my lips but not really my lips. He make me shut-up because he inserting his big dream to mine. Kung wala ang kamay niya na nakalagay sa bibig ko siguradong sisigaw ako. It's been a long time, siya ulit. I'll wait for him patiently.

"You're. You are not the same anymore. And you've. Oohhh. You've almost choking me babe.." I sighed heavily while feeling it inside parang bigla akong naging kontento sa buhay. That emptiness I feel everyday and every night was suddenly gone.

"I'll never thought he'll grow like that." I whispered to him while his staring at me. Hindi pa siya gumagalaw because he also feel me inside. Wet and warm.

"That?. Wrong grammar. He'll grow like 'this' because he is a part of you right now. He is near. He is sticking to yours. So, you may use 'this' babe.."Seriously. He became an english teacher suddenly.

"Fine. This." I said.

"Good." Then he move slowly like a turtle kaya masyado ko ramdam ang malaking pangarap niya. He slowly pushing his into mine, he is dancing slowly while rummaging my lips, then after a second he move so fast with 120 speed per seconds. I'm growling and crying and praising him like my religious.

"More. I want something more." Then he reckon me in another position. My favorite. My feet in his shoulder while he's kneeled.

"Bakit hindi nagbago. Ang sarap mo pa rin Maria Kristina." He is teasing me yet praising me.

"Ohhh.! F*ck, Zeed. Calm down babe! You'll ruin this cottage. People outside might notice and believe there's an earthquake inside."I'm panting saying it while out of breath.

"Sarap marinig ang boses mo. Lalo na kapag tinatawag mo akong babe." Humahangos na sabi ni Zeed.

"Because you're so good and f*cking really amazing while making love with me." I heavily sighed again. He is good. He is an expert.

"It adds tingling inside me. Babe. Making love. I miss it. Finally I heard it again. So, maybe we still love each other. What do you think?." Hala! Hindi ko na alam kong anong mga sinasabi ko. Sinabi ko ba iyon? Yes. I told him clearly that thing.

"I said. It was so good having s*x with you." I change it na nagpalawak pa ng mga ngiti niya. Hinayupak na ito. Nag-eenjoy masyado.

"Enough babe. Kahit ano pang sabihin mo sa'yo pa rin nagki-crave ang puson ko. I mean puso ko. Ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ni 'this' sa tuwing nag-iisa ako. Because I'm still yours. I'm still crazily in love with you.. Baby." Mapupungay ang mga mata na sabi niya sa akin with matching kagat-labi pa.

"You are fool." I smiled.

"Fool for you. Always. Since then. Oh f*ck I'm coming babe. Don't move please. I'm near." Sh*t! He still handsome saying it. He still cute like a puppy while saying and blinking and biting his lips while saying his coming. His disheveled hair was so perfect right now so I grab it and pulled his head to my neck para kumuha ng lakas. I also coming. For the fourth time. I know he aware of it because he is a good player.

"Don't come. Not now. Endure it a little because I want to savor every second tonight." Kinikilig ko'ng sabi habang nakatitig sa mapupungay pa rin na mga mata niya.

"Okay. Extend ko para bukas babe. Nakakahiya naman sa'yo baka mabitin ka." Hahaha sabi na nga ba e alam niya. He is making me smile again.

"Fine. Bilisan mo." And he did. Nanginginig na ako sa mabilis na paggalaw niya sa ibabaw ko, kahit ang mga paa ko ay naninigas na. He is so angry. It seems that he really miss me for real. Mabilis, sobrang bilis. Labas-pasok ang kanya na halos hindi ko na alam kung saan ako kakapit. Sigurado may mga kalmot siya sa likod at lagas ang ilang hibla ng buhok niya.  Nasasabunutan ko siya sa sobrang sarap na pinaparamdam niya sa akin. Then he slowly push and pull until our both volcano vomits a hot creamy Lava.

"Nakakainis. We always the same in bed like before babe. We always craving for each other. Still hungry and longing." He said habang isinubsob ang mukha sa leeg ko.

"We're meant. We're perfect together. Bakit ba tayo naghiwalay pa.." I question him and my self indeed pero alamnamin pareho kung anong sagot doon.

"Because you kissed a wrong guy during prom." Sabi niya sa akin.

"Ikaw rin naman. You slept in bed with a wrong girl." At paalala ko rin sa kanya.

End

Authors Note:

PaCritic naman d'yan kahit pinagpapawisan. Thank you for reading this baby. I love you all.

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