Thank you for reading and I want to thank God for everything and thank all of you who continue to read :)

Please read Chapter 10 that was posted yesterday. Many readers did not get notification due to Wattpad glitch. Please read Chapter 10 posted yesterday or else you will be confused on what is happening in this chapter as Shivaay and Anika's confrontation on the contract happens in Chapter 10.

Mature Content: This chapter has reference to crude language appropriate for 18 years and older.

Sorry for any grammar mistakes, I will be editing tomorrow morning as I live in the U.S. and I am about to sleep soon due to my horrible back pain LOL :D.

Thank you for reading :). Edit: Hi everyone :) I hope you all are doing well :).

I just wanted to drop by and let you all know I have recently been writing a new book on Shivika called "Infinite Love" that has a total of eight chapters and get's updated frequently within a week at least three times where chapters are SHORT LOL.

The link to my new Shivika book is this: https://www.wattpad.com/852840586-infinite-love-trapped-in-love-arrange-marriage

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This book follows the emotional journey of Anika and Shivaay who have been separated by fate many times. First in childhood then when they were adults. After Shivaay married Anika's older sister Tia, he cannot seem to forget about Anika who he fell in love with a long time ago...Anika on the other hand only loved Shivaay but pushed him away....But the truth is both of them betrayed their loved ones and formed a secret relationship that awakens again in the present. This book is full of mystery and suspense, but is quite emotional. If you liked the earliest chapters of this book "Learning to Love Him Again" which were the falling in love phase then give "Infinite Love" a try which follows the emotional journey of Shivika falling in love again and healing each other...Beyond that there is a mysterious child in the book who is linked to their past...This book also has the heat and steamy romance, but also the emotions...I really tried to put a balance between darker and lighter shades in this book :).

Find out what happens when Shivaay and Anika are to be wed to others only to be united by their families in an arranged marriage....even though they both already share a relationship that is revealed in a twist in Chapter 8.

So do tune in if you want to see Shivika's separation phase that transitions to falling in love...a book that teaches the meaning of marriage.

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"Hi Shivaay..." The voice of seduction singing a spell out towards my lover as my heart hit a pause before raising my eyes and looking up slowly to see what woman is daring to take my territory and make it hers.

A hit of anger clentching on to me immediately with my horns blowing up on my head as the angel on my shoulder vanished replacing it with the devil who is my alter ego that I suppress many times and have for long. My feet slamming the ground loudly as I hit my hand loudly against the wall wanting to puncture it looking at the cursed vamp that now is attempting to wave a potion at my man...This woman is not good news. I can feel it in an instant this woman is here to create chaos seen in how she is licking her tongue while pulling on her cleavage trying to lure my man.

"What are you doing here?!" Shivaay's voice roaring loudly with his flesh changing a shade of molten midnight with red simmering out of his face as his veins began to bulge and throb violently at the corners of his neck. His nails digging into his fists that he began to form breathing deeply with his temper bubbling up to the surface hating the very presence of the woman in front.

Dragging my feet hard against the ground, I slammed them with anger finding envy coloring me green as I made my way behind Shivaay before leaning on the door and crossing my arms looking at the temptress in front of me.

My eyes wandering up to her red curly hair that shot fire ready to roll over anyone who came in her way as her green eyes held malignant ails. Her yellow top plunging on to her neckline revealing the plastic she carried in her breasts before placing her hand on her hourglass hips to which her white pants snugged tightly enhancing her thin curves that she carried barely at a size zero as here I stand at a size twelve.

Damn this woman is everything that I am not. My eyes lifting to her diamond pendant that she flaunted on her neck before putting on her sunglasses as if she is an award winning actress or model considering the suggestive and amazing figure she has.

My eyes wandering down to my curves as I found flubs of fat shaking their way out of my chiffon dress showing the unhealthy meat I carry on myself which may turn any man off except Shivaay.

"Who is this bitch?!" I yelled the statement immediately as my eyes popped out in shock that my brain has just let out its thoughts in such a rude and crude manner that definitely does not represent me.

Her jaw falling down as she began to breathe quickly with her hand hitting her chest in a dramatic fashion astonished that a high-class professional woman like her has just been insulted by a pitiful pauper like I.

Shivaay immediately turning towards me with a wicked smile touching his lips completely delighting over my statement liking the horns I have just grown on my head which are making me accept the ways of purgatory. Not once angered, in fact enjoying this shade of mine.

Suddenly his hand taking a grasp of my waist dragging me into his chest as he began to slap moist, aggressive kisses on my cheek as I began to wrangle in his grasp with my face turning red feeling demurred how he is showing me off to the woman in front of him who clearly and likely has a past with him.

She began to shake her head back and forth cringing slightly upon the sight of the both of us as Shivaay continued to let his lips run against the nape of my neck leaving large, rough kisses there making me slightly whimper.

Her eyes turning a deeper shade looking like a green-eyed ogre as she began to rave staring at Shivaay who dragged his hand around my breast before laying a narcotic kiss on my throat. He appeared to show off my breasts to her trying to imply that mine are real and big and hers' are just plastic which do not have any feeling in them...Awkward...A-W-K-W-A-R-D!!! My ego screaming at me as I choked slightly on the saliva crawling down my dry throat.

"Oh baby...say it once again...Call her a bitch...turn me on...Go be brave and talk smack...Turn me on now..." He whirred into my ear as I began to heat up with my trembling hands clasping into each other as I tried to plaster a freakish mean smile wanting to be brave and be Anika that I want to be...Do not be scared now. Shivaay is giving you confidence to be bold, so be it.

"Who is she?! Is she some of your toys again?! Do you know how much noise you both have been making for the past two hours?!" She shrieked in her high pitched voice only to sketch me me red in pure embarrassment hearing her complaint realizing she is referring the noise to our sex sounds that we unapologetically made and have been making ever since this airplane took off.

Anger pinching me slightly hearing her statement of toy as I furrowed my eyebrows taking a step towards her ready to lunge on her wanting to let her know I am not some random girl that he has picked up for a moment's time.

"Do not talk to me like that alright?! I am not a toy for your kind of information and look at yourself before making judgement on me. Girl...you calling me a toy does not make sense at all because I am not made of plastic like you! Have you seen the crap you are hanging on that rack of yours?!" I scratched my insult on her pointing directly at her chest as she shrieked with her fists raising up in the air. She began to slam her stilettos against the floor of the plane ready to take me on a fight any moment considering I have touched a sensitive topic or...object of hers'.

"Anika! Who are you right now?!" Shivaay exclaiming grabbing my arm turning me towards him as he erupted into laughter letting it bamboozle in the air allowing every other passenger sitting in economy beyond our room to hear. Their heads raising peaking out in interest through the open curtains that led to business class.

A small smile touching my lips liking how I have made him proud as he gave me a smile of appreciation wrapping his arm around me before laying a kiss on my forehead looking towards the woman in front of us who continued to steam and pollute the air around us.

"You are supporting her?! Over me Shivaay!" She screetched with her fingers touching her heart in shock as I raised my eyebrow at her finding a need to sleuth what her relationship is with my Shivaay. My hand grasping on to his shirt tightly as I looked at him who gave me a careless smile implying that her words hold no meaning.

"Um...why would I support you again? Are you not that bitch who spoke crap about me in the media and slandered my reputation? You are that bitch...You are not this woman in my arms who would never dare to do what you did...I will support her as she is my woman not you," He fisted into her inflated ego giving her a solid knock on the ground as I gave her a nefarious smile giving her a smug look that the man she is trying to take back is now only mine.

Her jaw clenching shut as she appeared to suffocate on his lines before looking at me with her eyes moving up and down trying to take in my details and see what do I have that she does not. A tensing grudge touching her as she entwined her hands together in resentment not liking how Shivaay is rubbing my arm before running it possessively down my waist.

"What is going on? Why are you all speaking so loudly?!" A perky voice appearing as I looked the other way seeing Priyanka making her way down the aisle stylishly like a model having her sleepy mask on her head miffed by the havoc we three are creating at the moment.

"Well you were convincing me to come and see Shivaay and look who he has in his room on this very plane?! Without any shame they were steaming it up in this room and I heard all of it every time I tried to come to meet your brother!" The wrench complained as if a catastrophe has broken upon all of us.

A sense of nervousness wrapping into me as I began to slightly shake afraid that Shivaay and I have been caught in the act of consummation and indeed if any other soul besides these two find out I am definitely going to be screwed. Mega screwed. I know at one point I am going to leave my family for Shivaay, but I do not want to leave them in such a dramatic manner. It is best to have a conversation with them and then leave...

Priyanka looking at her completely lost as she scratched her head trying to decode the vamp's words before looking at Shivaay and I who stood disheaveled in front of her. My hair sticking up slightly with the straps of my dress slipping off of my shoulders as I attempted to fix them. Shivaay looking like a complete mess as his stair stood up in wild waves with his bare chest completely exposed.

Shivaay holding his head up high not showing any sense of shame as I began to lower my gaze feeling slightly humiliated upon how we have two witnesses to our chaotic lovemaking session that we have regretlessly indulged in for the last three hours.

"Steaming it up? What do you mean by steaming it up Falguni?" Priyanka questioning her as my eyes widened with my ears bursting wanting to set themselves aflame hearing the name of the conjurer woman standing in front of me.

Oh no. Falguni? As in the Falguni Ahuja who was Shivaay's girlfriend and now ex...As in the Falguni who is that famous diamond merchant's daughter and is herself a professional taking over her father's business....As in this beautiful, stunning Falguni compared to whom I am nothing...As in that Falguni who created a media catastrophe and exposed Shivaay's cheating ways and the one who claims he has anger issues....Damn this is this woman. Oh great...I already had enough of annoying and irritating people in my life that she has to show up now.

Shivaay's hand tightening its grasp on my waist able to detect that I am familiar with Falguni and her accusations as I looked at him seeing him giving me a soft smile attempting to calm my thoughts that are now running anxiously in my mind over fear what havoc his ex-girlfriend may create.

Falguni rolling her eyes as she formed a circle in her hand and began to poke her finger into it as I slightly cringed in disgust seeing the lewd gesture.

"The deed you idiot Priyanka! Your brother was fucking her in an airplane!" She loudly whispered to her with her finger repeatedly poking into her encircled hand showing off the sexual symbols as Priyanka's mouth dropped before shooting her head towards the both of us looking at us repulsed.

"Ewww....ewww...TMI Falguni! That is too much information you have given me about my brother! Gosh the image ewwww!" Priyanka began to yelp in agony finding her eyes scarring with the horrendous image of Shivaay and I doing the sin as she began to rub her eyes roughly trying to soap them out and remove the thought.

Shivaay letting out a small laugh amused feeding his ego on in his bold act of heating up an airplane with me. I threw him a glare telling him to shut his mouth feeling ashamed how our dirty laundry is being touted in front of others with a slap of fear running through me considering Priyanka may just leak this information to Arti.

My hand tightening its grasp on Shivaay's hand pulling him closer trying to awaken his wild mind and let him know about my justified fear. "Do something...If my sister finds out, she will freak out and create issues Shivaay," I spoke worriedly to him as he looked back at me giving me a consoling smile before turning towards the woman in front of us.

His smile dropping as he placed on his mask with eyes holding a malicious aura with his apparition coming forth that always creates a chaotic havoc. His shoulders dropping with his hand clenching into mine appearing to hold a hint of his temper that now is swishing within him.

"What is the proof that we did the deed Falguni? And why do you care what we both were doing?!...We are done and over and to be honest I am glad we broke up. I found a better woman than you heck any woman I have been with. My Anika cannot be outcompeted by any woman and damn I am lucky to have her...Look at you and look at her. Look at your ugliness and look at her beauty...You do not even have heart which she does. She loves my daughter unlike you did...So now it will be better that you turn yourself around and leave my sight...Because I do not want you. Shivaay Singh Oberoi has found the ideal and that is my Anika..." He spoke loudly with pride not once wavering as he wrapped his hand tightly into mine looking at Priyanka and Falguni appearing to show me off and let them know that he has found the woman he always has searched for in me.

His lines igniting many flames on my beating heart telling it that indeed he is treasuring it and will never let me down no matter what...That no matter what woman appears in front of him he will now choose me and always me.

A smile touching my lips as Falguni gave me a loathing look with her ego bursting away while covering herself with rage not liking one bit that she has been insulted in such a low manner by Shivaay. Priyanka shaking her head repeatedly disagreeing with her brother's statement not liking one bit.

"Bhai first of all Arti invited Falguni as recently she has become friends with her, so no she is not desperate for you. And second of all how dare you insult Falguni for this Anika?! You barely know Anika and you are supporting her in front of Falguni who was your girlfriend for more than a year?!" She exclaimed needling jealousy into me as my feet curled up hearing that my Shivaay has been with this Falguni for more than year...The image of him making love to her hitting my eyes as I slightly shivered on the thought finding myself nauseous even thinking that Shivaay has done the deed with many.

Tears touching my eyes as I bit my quivering lip finding pins hitting my heartbeats thinking that the man that I have finally found has touched many women before me...Many of them. God...give me strength to accept this truth.

Shivaay's hand wrapping around my arm beginning to rub it gently as I looked at him beginning to embroil himself in a villainous shade with his pale skin now turning red on the verge of letting himself lose and unleashing his anger upon his sister. His fingers digging into my arm finding me as someone who can control his anger that makes him lose his senses.

"Oh shut up Priyanka! I do not need your opinion! Who are you? Huh! Do not even dare to insult my Anika ever! Look at you and look at her! None of you can be like my Anika and if I hear the slightest insult on her I swear I will be the Shivaay that you all have seen and detest the most! I swear I will be the worst that I can to you both!" He lashed out his threat at the both of them letting his voice jungle through as they immediately reached a sounded silence with their eyes lowering finding themselves slightly shaking appearing scared as they are aware of his violent temper one that I have not fully seen, but heard of.

My hands slightly trembling in fear looking at Shivaay whose eyes appeared to light red in fire with a haunting smile on his lips indicative that he is a man with many grey shades that forces him to embrace many atrocious critters.

"Meh...Meh! Meh!" A set of loud babbles erupting and breaking apart the silence as I looked up immediately seeing a small bundle of innocence making her way towards us with big bolstering tears running down her rosy pink cheeks.

Her tiny arms swinging out towards me as she continued to kick her feet against her nanny wanting to be released from her. My hands immediately reaching out with my womb clenching tight as I looked at the little bundle finding an unusual ail in it feeling a source of attachment to the infant.

"Chaaya! What is wrong sweetie? Why are you crying?" I cooed at her wrapping my hands around her and pulling her out of Athiya's grasp.

Chaaya's tiny arms wrapping around my neck immediately with her lips latching on to my bosom instinctively as if sensing a motherly presence within me. My lips burying against her cheek as I began to kiss her tears away. She continued to wail before beginning to hit Shivaay's arm with her tiny hands trying to grab his attention.

Shivaay continuing to chew his lip in furiously staring down at Falguni and Priyanka wanting them to leave not liking sight of any of them. "It is best you both leave now and do not even dare to come in front of my eyes for the rest of this trip and even the wedding. Falguni I swear I do not even want you near Anika and my daughter and me during this trip...So get out. Go now," He threatened snapping his finger in the air and pointing towards them to go away. Falguni continuing to throw me an enraged look while Priyanka appeared to be livid over Shivaay's behavior.

"Let's go Priyanka. We should not indulge in conversation with such low level people," Falguni snapping her head up with the taunt grabbing Priyanka's arm and dragging her away as Shivaay let out a grunt ready to lunge at her before Chaaya suddenly began to hit him hard on his arm trying to get his attention.

Chaaya continuing to hit his arm as I tried to grab them trying to stop her, but failing as she furrowed her eyebrows with tears running out of her eyes looking at her father angrily.

"Chaaya meri jaan stop please," I whispered to her as she shook her head as if she understood me continuing to hit her father.

Shivaay sighing as he tried to air out his anger before immediately looking at his daughter in her tearful eyes slightly softening.

"Now what is with you? Why do you always hit me when I get angry? I am your Papa and this is how you treat me," He spoke in a low voice at her trying to scold her, but melting to her tears as he began to faintly smile.

A giggle touching my lips hearing Shivaay before pressing a kiss on Chaaya's forehead awarding her for her will to pull her father out of his temper. The fact that this little infant has the power to control her father's raving beast is indeed commendable and unveils how she carries her father's love right around her tiny little fingers.

My eyes wandering to Athiya who appeared tired and sleepless clearly having become de-energized from caring for the babbling infant.

"Athiya you can take a break now and you deserve one. Chaaya can be a little handful I know," I spoke to her consolingly as Shivaay's head shot up towards me giving me a disagreeing look as he began to shake his head not liking my gesture.

"Anika...We have hired Athiya to take care of Ira. So, hand her over to her," Shivaay ordering me as he clenched his teeth knowing that I am ruining his plans.

This man is so desperate. How much more love making does he want? We have an half and hour to land and I think it is best we pause our acts that clearly the entire plane is hearing.

Athiya sighing in irritation giving her boss the look as I continued to smile rocking a crying Chaaya back and forth.

"Athiya do not listen to Shivaay alright? Take a break because you need one and I can see it. We will take care of her. Did you already change her diaper?" I spoke as Shivaay began to mumble angrily behind me walking into the room while I let out a giggle knowing I have won the argument.

"Yes I just changed her, but she is crying too much. I think she is hungry, but is not feeding well. Here I have her bag and maybe you can try?" Athiya noting as she handed me off the bag as I nodded and thanked her.

"Thank you for taking care of Chaaya and please go and get rest now because you deserve it," I replied as I walked into the room closing the door shut before looking at Shivaay who sat like a grouched clown on the lounge chair with his laptop hating that his daughter is interrupting our personal time.

Chaaya continuing to cry as I kissed her forehead gently looking at her hazel eyes that held big bright tears that continued to flow. Rocking her back and forth, I grabbed a seat on the bed before placing her in my lap giving her a smile.

"Awww....Chaaya please do not cry now pumpkin. Look I am here now. We will have lots of fun together! But, before we do that...you have to eat now..." I cheered at her as I opened the bag taking out her bottle only for her continuing to fuss hitting her tiny hands on my bosom.

Shivaay sighing loudly making it apparent that he is not liking the infant's cries that are disturbing him from his work that he is doing on his laptop. Lifting my eyes up, I shot him a look as he looked at the both of us shaking his head hating every bit of how he is not in control.

"You know when I said Chaaya urf Ira should be with her nanny...I meant it. I did not give you permission to argue with me and disobey me," He spoke crossing his arms and looking at me while I pursed my lips tightly together remembering that my act is nothing compared to the deeds he has committed.

Raising Chaaya up, I laid her on my shoulder beginning to pat her back gently trying to help her calm down.

"Acha ji? What is wrong if I am trying to mother Chaaya and care for her? She is an infant who needs our attention. We cannot just let her be at her nanny's arms all the time. Also, do not try to divert my mind alright? Your freaking ex-girlfriend has showed up on the trip and you are acting as if nothing happened. You just do not want to talk about the fact that your ex is on this trip! Our trip where we both are supposed to get closer has been interrupted by that plastic Barbie doll!" I yelped in anger finding myself seething remembering how that Falguni eyed him and referred to me as his toy who is disposable while she may not. That Falguni is daring to come in my path towards achieving Shivaay and pursuing a relationship with him...I will not allow such. I will do everything to ensure Shivaay is mine.

Shivaay jumping up immediately pacing himself towards me with his temper rising hating how I have dared to argue back with him and go against him. Opening his mouth, he is about to speak, but only for me to interrupt.

"Oh please! Do not dare to raise your voice at me! First of all lower your tone alright? I do not like anyone speaking in that tone with me and second of all why should I obey you? You do not own me. In fact no one does. I am not like the other women you have been with for your kind information...those women you have lapped around with salivating over them!" I spat at him as Chaaya appearing to soothen lifting up her head and peering at the both of us catching on that something boiling around her that requires her full attention.

He began to snort his anger taking deeper breaths as he clenched his jaw back and forth continuing to glare at me hating that I am retaliating and insulting him with subtle taunts.

"Lapping and salivating?! Are you referring to me as a dog?!" He yelled into my ear shaking the drums up as I slammed my hand on the bed loudly ready to take him down only to stop with a sudden giggle ringing through the both of us.

Our eyes shooting down at the small bundle of joy beginning to giggle as she began to clap liking our argument appearing entertained by it. A small smile touching me as I loosened my anger before looking at Shivaay who hit a small pause from his temper.

"See even my Chaaya knows that her Papa is a dog and has poor choice in women! All of them are pure bimbos...You should be lucky you got me! Believe me...I was a virgin and never ever was with a man except that brute until I got you...Be glad that you found me who actually is a real woman," I clapped back at him as he side eyed me hating the taunt though knowing that I am indeed speaking the truth.

Shaking his head, he clasped his head into his hands becoming frustrated that he is losing an argument likely for the first time considering how domineering he is.

"Anika...look. I know I have made poor choices and I did not even know Falguni was coming until she showed up. Believe me I detest her and I regret my decision of even dating her. But what you are saying right now by insulting me is not right! My daughter is right here!" He attempted to give a failed argument as I sighed with some guilt knowing I have indeed crossed the line in insulting him.

I do not what has gotten into me, but ever since I have seen that Falguni and how she gave that seductive look to my Shivaay...I just am finding myself becoming tempered and slightly jealous knowing that woman has had such a long relationship with Shivaay while I have been with him for a few days...I do not want to be disposable and replaced by her.

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Holding Chaaya tightly against my bosom, I bit into my tears before gathering strength and letting my thoughts out knowing it is best to clarify my feelings rather than face more damage.

"Well what else do you want me to say?! I mean this is supposed to be our trip and now your ex has showed up thanks to my sister because apparently they are friends that I did not know of!...What if she tries to get up on you? I mean you both were together for so long...And then she was looking at you in that stupid way that women look at when eyeing a man...Look, Shivaay I will not tolerate it if you give any means of attention to that woman while being with me. I will not. I have seen enough in life and if you have some interest in her then just tell me right now because I do not want to get involved with you if you have your heart somewhere else-"

Shivaay's hand suddenly grabbing my arm turning me towards him with a brutal, hard force as he revealed his tumbling anger beginning to blow it in an intense mullet of fire at me. Tears holding his eyes finding his lips quivering enough to spark confusion within me as I looked at him not able to catch the trigger of his tears.

"How dare you question the place I hold for you in my heart?! How can you just say that I am interested in that vicious, venomous woman when I have such a beautiful, compassionate woman in front of me which is you! How can you think I will give you up for that Falguni?!...You are the one I have been looking for all this while and now when I have you...you are questioning me and my intentions. Anika...you are the one I want and I need! You are the one that my daughter needs!...Sure you do not listen to me and never heed to my requests like now when I said Ira should not be here, but with her nanny...but that does not mean I will automatically out you! Why will I hurt a woman like you...a woman with whom I am planning this future?...I never planned with anyone else...I thought of it, but no woman has come close to this ideal future I have like you...so please do not even dare to bring that Falguni between us...She is nothing to me. Nothing. You are my everything...Do you understand baby? You are my everything," His voice slightly cracking with tears consuming his voice making it tremble showing that somewhere in that venal reflection of his eyes...this ugly Anika is being pieced together into a glass of rubies laced with passion in that shallow heart of his which wants to now submerge into my purities.

Our eyes meeting each other and holding a still silence. His eyes screaming to me that he indeed only wants me to be stitched to his soul not only for a moment's time, but a forever. A plea lifting itself out of him and hitting my heart igniting its gems that dare to only light up when they find a companion...a soulmate...and this time it is Shivaay. A shy smile touching my lips finding his lines healing my envy and gartering with hope that he now only is mine.

"I do not know what to say except that this is all new to me Shivaay. To hear someone say that you are their everything is what I never have heard ever in my life until now...from you. I am sorry I was rude, but seeing her and seeing myself...I just started making the comparisons on how much better you might have had it with Falguni considering how gorgeous she is. I just got scared for a moment that you might...leave. But to hear from you that you only want me makes me relieved that I will not lose a guy like you...a rare one that only a few lucky ones get," I confessed beginning to heat up a shade of red as I lowered my eyes feeling mortified that I have just unraveled myself to him.

Shivaay's smile widening hearing me as his hands tightened their grasp on my arms beginning to pull me closer while Chaaya looked at the both of us keenly back and forth catching on that romance clearly is in the air between her new mommy and dad. A small giggle erupting form her as Shivaay brushed his chin against her head before beginning to lean down towards my lips. Feeling hot, I looked away hiding my face in Chaaya's shoulder knowing it is not appropriate to share a kiss in front of the infant.

"Shivaay she is looking at us..." I whispered as he let out a laugh pulling me closer with his lips pressing against my cheek where he began to leave plump, brisk kisses shamelessly letting them drift down my neck inciting giggles from me. His hands wrapping around my waist pulling me into his chest continuing his playful trail of kisses down my shoulders before trying to move them to my neck. Turning my head towards him, I held a smile before leaving a soft, tender kiss on the corner of his mouth letting my lips dip and drabble on to his cheek to leave simple, slow kisses. Suddenly, Chaaya tapping her fingers against Shivaay's cheek interrupting my kiss.

"Oh you third wheel...of course you want attention too," Shivaay muttering in jealousy to her and throwing her a foolish glare as she began to giggle looking back at me with her big hazel eyes that pleaded for a kiss.

"Of course you silly...you are more important," I cooed at her wrapping my hand around her head before beginning to lay quick, heartfelt kisses on her cheeks inciting a rumble of loud giggles from her. Her fingers hitting my heart in excitement liking the love she is being showered upon as Shivaay let out a chuckle before wrapping his arms around the both of us leaving his set of doting kisses on Chaaya's head.

Shivaay's eyes meeting mine as we exchanged smiles with each other continuing to look at our reflections that we both have encased in each other now wanting to keep it forever and paint it with out own shades while making our own life...our own home...find in our Chaaya who wil be the shadow to our wounds and allow us to heal.

Lowering my gaze, I looked at the infant who continued to giggle with her lips latching on to my breast immediately making me howl loudly feeling pain erupt. Shivaay's hands immediately wrapping around Chaaya trying to pull her away as she kept her mouth latched on to my bosom.

"What is she doing?! She never latches on to anyone!" Shivaay starting to freak out as he immediately sat next to me wrapped his hands around Chaaya trying to loosen her grasp. A soft tearful smile touched my eyes feeling the pain dimming down. My womb raising itself up running to my heart and beginning to light sparks of innocent love...a pure love carried for a life that is barely opening its eyes to cruelty having only be touched by divine fate....Life in the form of this baby who is daring to ignite my true being...my hopes...my motherhood.

My hands wrapping around her head as I tried to comfort her while Shivaay tried to struggle with her mouth wanting to release it from me knowing that she is biting on to me.

"Anika I am sorry...Ira is not like this I promise. I do not know why she is latching," Shivaay's voice softening appearing to have forgotten that we were arguing just moments before.

A frail smile touching my lips with tears running down my cheeks as I ran my hands down over Shivaay's only for him to look up at me. "No worries Shivaay...She is an infant and God...she is precious...S-she see's me as a mother...her mother...I-I never t-thought...I would be holding a b-baby one day in my arms who would l-latch on to me...and God I wish I could nurse her,but c-cannot b-because I am barren...b-but this angel t-truly is a gift...s-seeding motherhood in a barren like me-"

"Anika! Don't you dare call yourself such a demeaning term!" Shivaay scolding me with his arm wrapping around me instantly as I began to whimper laying my lips against his heart finding Chaaya's latch loosening from my bosom figuring that she cannot be nursed.

My heart skipping beats as I wrapped my hands tightly around Chaaya holding her close feeling that is I let go then she might just never come back. Indeed, she is a gift that fate is now somehow giving to me telling me that this is the way I will be borne as a mother...That motherhood does not come from carrying a child and giving life to it, but in the form of nurturing a life and wrapping it in a fabric of love just like I want to for my Chaaya.

"You are not a barren Anika...Never ever say that about yourself. You are not defined by this ability to bear children. You are such a beautiful woman and that is why I...I want you and have chosen you for me and Ira. And I am sorry for yelling at you, but I like to be listened to and damn it you are a rebel...and despite I hating rebellious people, I somehow am getting turned on by you when you do this..." He gritted in a guilty pleasure confession as I let out a giggle through my tears hearing that somehow he likes my loud mouth and how I am trying to ground him back and burn his ego to the ground.

To hear that this man is accepting of my flaws not seeing them as one and not once judging me as a cursed woman like others truly makes me believe that he has a kind heart unlike everyone else who fakes to be the ideal individuals, but fail to overcome such vile conservative beliefs.

Finding consolation from him, I kept a smile looking at Chaaya who laid in my lap staring at the both of us holding an adorable smile revealing that somewhere she might have been acting as a drama queen to bring us closer...That her act of latching was to just end our argument...Her fingers hitting my bosom once again trying to ask for milk as I sighed taking the bottle and tilting it into her mouth while Shivaay lifted her head up assisting me.

Our eyes meeting each other as we exchanged our love for Chaaya knowing that somewhere she is a thread who is closely interlinked between the both of us...finding her parents perhaps in the two of us wanting us to the be the one to nourish her and protect her in our nests.

"Sorry Anika...I should not have talked to you in such a rude manner. It is just I like to make decisions that are best for us and Ira. Ira should be with her nanny, so we could spend time together," He spoke tightening his lips trying to hold back on his temper as he sighed looking at Chaaya who looked up at her father giving him a pestering smile liking she has ruined her father's plans. I let out a small giggle looking at her antics as I pressed the bottle into her mouth continuing to path her tummy.

Raising his eyebrow, he looked at me confused unable to grapple upon that I am taking his serious tone so lightly. Well to be honest, his definition of time alone is having sex while my definition is different and he has to know that.

Giving him a smile, I looked into his eyes before grabbing his hand and wrapping it in mine. His eyes lifting as he looked at me awaiting my reply to his statement.

"Look Shivaay your definition of spending time alone means we both should be doing the deed of making love and for me that is not it. If you really want me to sign a contract that will bind us together with a possibility of forever then that means we have to build upon this unique relationship. We need to understand each other which we do, but I feel we need to know more about one another and have actual conversations while spending time together. I want our Chaaya to be part of this. I want to get to know her and honestly I love spending time with Chaaya...I really want to be here for her and you too should be here for your daughter and care for her as well. Take this trip as an introduction to what we three may be from now on onwards...I am in this with my whole heart, but I also expect you to dedicate yourself to not only me, but Chaaya as well, so you know what it will be like to be in this unique familial slash whatever nameless relationship it is in which we three are going to be involved in..." My lines gently running to him as I kept my calm and slowly explained my thought process to him wanting him to be more sensible and realize that from now on Chaaya and I are going to be his responsibility and he cannot continue to just be immature and indulging in acts of pleasure while neglecting the unusual relationship we all are forming.

Keeping the silence rolling, he lowered his gaze looking at Chaaya intently as she babbled and giggled letting go of the bottle beginning to clap her hands appearing to day dream in her usual silliness. A small smile touching his lips as he looked at her for the first time showing a bit of paternal love in his eyes not seen before.

Shivaay is her father on paper, but he needs to learn how to be a father that I have realized now. He needs that attachment and he has it, but he just needs to embrace fatherhood and mature in this matter. And I will do everything for this innocent life to get her father's love because she deserves it and has a right upon it.

His eyes meeting mine as he kept his smile continuing to ponder over my words trying to figure if he is willing to show some level of compromise and forgo his sexual drive for a moment and think beyond it for the sake of our future together.

"On this trip we will behave as the couple we want to be once we get back to the U.S. and I will try my best to get Ira involved. We can try to spend more time together the way you want to so we can acquaint with each other's likes and dislikes, but all I am saying is that once our relationship begins in the states it likely will have some differences. I do not do dating and any of this couple's crap. Most of the contract will stay intact including that this relationship is solely pleasure based where emotional needs are also met if desired...But do not expect that we will go beyond that...Do not even think of this Anika. I am being honest, I am not the relationship guy because I have given up on that idea considering everything that has happened in my past. I hope you keep this mind," His voice cold and sharp held with a bold businesslike tone enough to cut any hopes that I may be seeding of progressing this relationship beyond that sexual needs we both have.

Tear appearing to take hold of my eyes as I felt my heart drop a beat as it began to sink and drown the seeds of fantasies that it is wanting to root within me...a fantasy of him and I...being more than what we want to be...a possibility of me embracing him and treasuring him in my heart beyond eternity where he and I make love not for selfishness, but selfless...

Stop it Anika. Stop. What are you thinking right now? How can you even think of him and you as...as that couple...that ideal couple who is madly in love...vows to each other...and then raises and builds a family together? How can you even dare to think such knowing you are not capable of it and neither is her...That there is a high possibility of being broken and having my heart set to fire again with its ashes continuing to melt and simmer down within me for years...just like it did for that Ayaan.

No Anika...Shivaay is right that on this trip we will spend time to only know each other, but keep our relationship purely need based nothing more. Yes I will not go cross this boundary. I cannot. I cannot allow myself to take that path of charred coal that will only burn me and likely send me to the grave only leaving my flesh on this land and full decomposing my soul. Love does that to you and I cannot allow love to torment me like that again.

"Bah...bah...lah...bah bah lah..." The babble beginning to repeat as I felt a set of tiny fingers taking a grasp of my heart while hitting my bosom wanting me to protect her in it. A tear falling down my cheek as I forced a smile looking at Chaaya who gave me a charming smile cutting into the shards of my tears and tapping love on to me.

Raising her up, I placed her on my heart as she latched on to my breast again wanting to imprint a piece of herself on my heart to claim it as hers' and not anyone else's...Her fingers dragging across my heart wanting to grasp it somewhere finding her mother in me wanting me to embrace her and give her love. Tears holding me as my womb began to open its barren ground and accept this naïve soul who does not see me as a curse, but as her protector...That she too wants to be a part of me and tie a knot of her soul to mine forever claiming me as her mother that she has chosen herself without anyone forcing.

"Why is she doing that? She should not be latching on to you!" Shivaay appearing slightly horrified seeing her latched with his eyes widening out like a goat's not able to accept the image. I removed my tears letting out a small laugh trying to ignore out previous conversation, as I tried to slip my finger into Chaaya's mouth so she could stop her latch.

"Well it is not horrific to you when you do it?" I teased at him giving him a playful smile. His cheeks immediately turning red appearing to blush as he began to fidget with his fingers trying to clear his throat.

"Oh my God, are you blushing?" I sing songed to him slightly shocked that even savages can blush...a man like him who tries to be emotionally distant is feeling mortified remembering our tryst is indeed quite astonishing.

Throwing me a glare, he pretended to show anger trying to cover up his embarrassment as I began to laugh placing Chaaya on my shoulder who also started to giggle as if she understood why her father has gotten embarrassed.

"Oh be quiet you two! I am not blushing alright?! Ira...you be quiet!" He attempted to denounce the both of us while we both continued to laugh as I continued to bounce Chaaya who found herself cheering up and letting go of her fussiness.

"By the way she is Chaaya! Not Ira alright? Call her by her first name!" I commanded to him as I slapped his arm rebuking him as he slightly fumed not wanting to agree with me continuing to shake his head.

"No I like calling her Ira and that is it! You call her Ira not Chaaya. Ira is a much better name!" He argued back not wanting to budge from using her middle name appearing to like it more than her first name although her first name is definitely much better than the middle one.

"No! We are calling her Chaaya from now on and that is final! I like that name and I have decided to call her such! Next time I hear you say Ira watch what I will do!" I menaced at him grabbing a pillow and lightly hitting his back with it as he shrieked loudly jumping up from the bed not able to bear the small slap.

"Ouch! That hurts!...And no! I will call her Ira!" He declared not backing down as Chaaya began to laugh loudly jumping up and down on my lap liking our argument finding us as two cartoons for her pleasant diversion.

"What silly argument are you indulging in?! Call her by her first name! End of discussion!" I clapped my hands in front of his face as he jerked back caught off guard with a tinge of fear lighting up in his eyes somewhere thinking I might just slap his face off.

A smirk touching my lips as I looked at Chaaya staring into her joyful eyes that were now full of glee. "Chaaya...my cutie Chaaya! You like your name...tell me you like you name..." I spoke in a babyish tone grabbing her hands and moving them up and down as her smile widened letting out a loud scream liking the sound of her name wanting to claim as hers'.

He letting out a rumble as he lowered himself looking at Chaaya wanting to impose his own rule over the infant. "Ira...Tell me you like being called Ira...Ira...Ira..." He continued to repeat slowly showing a beguiling smile to her wanting her to side him since he is her father after all.

Chaaya tilting her head with her smile vanishing hearing her nickname making a disgusting look before suddenly sticking out her tongue at him. He slightly gasping with his mouth forming a large circle appalled at seeing her gesture and in complete disbelief that she is denouncing the name that everyone calls her by.

Laughter erupting from me as I began to twirl Chaaya in my arms drowning her with gentle, merried kisses awarding her for siding me and giving me victory. She continued to laugh cherishing my kisses and wanting more of them as I began to do a small dance continuing to raise Chaaya up and down in my arms.

"Of course you are mine Chaaya! Of course you will only listen to me not this clown right?...My Chaaya is so smart and she knows what is best for her...and my Chaaya looooves me...only me..." I showed off giving Shivaay a mocking smile who stood in front of me slithering like a venmous snake hating how it has been defeated in his own game of manipulation due to of course his own daughter who caught it.

"Oh come on! Maybe that was just her instinct! Right Ira?" Shivaay intervening looking at his daughter who again stuck out her tongue to him making a dirty look hating the nickname once again.

"Haha! Awww...poor Papa. No one is listening to him...my jaan is only listening to me... Chaaya, you are my girl right not his right?" I sung to her as she turned towards me beginning to nod as if understanding me beginning to babble loudly mixed with giggling shrieks.

He began to blow up in his ego, hating how his own daughter is turning him down, while continuing to run himself red and taking shallower breaths with his veins throbbing.

I let out badgering laugh at him tasting my win over this argument with him as I hit his shoulder with mine giving him a wink.

"Now go sit on your lounge chair! We are about to land soon and we still have to discuss that bimboed contract of yours'! Come on sit! Come on!" I directed to him pointing towards the chair as he rolled his eyes continuing to swivel in raging color of dragon red not liking one bit that I am dominating him.

"Are you ordering me?!" He exclaimed taking a step towards me trying to show a false sense of superiority revealing me his blue colored eyes that are sketching distemper ready to throw a tantrum like a child.

Holding my ground, I revealed a ridiculing smile while tapping my foot loudly on the ground continuing to look him eye to eye.

"Yes I am ordering you. Now go sit or tonight you are not getting it if you know what I mean," I gestured pointing towards myself giving him my warning as his eyes widened somewhat scared that I am going to hold back on sex tonight if he does not listen to me.

"What?! Are you serious? You are trying to use the deed as a way to control me? Anika...really now?" He showed a crooked, maddening smile appearing to like my warning as he rolled his tongue on his lips wettening looking at me up and down checking me out clearly somewhere turned on by my commanding nature.

"Don't turn me on now..." He confirmed my doubt taking a step closer towards me holding a mischevious smile as I lowered my gave immediately biting my lip blushing slightly not liking the intensity of his eyes that continued to run all over me.

"Just shut up will you and sit on this chair!" I attempted to embrace authority over him as I sat back on my own seat placing a babbling Chaaya on my lap who found key interest in the straps of my dress beginning to drool over them.

Crossing my leg over the other, I held my head high looking directly at him trying to hold the crown of esteem and carrying marbles of confidence within me aware that this is a key moment of revising those foolish rules on that contract and imposing my own will that I have a right to.

He stood looking down at me pondering over many schemes in his mind in ways he could convince me to follow his rules with minimum compromise reflecting in that perverse smile of his. Taking steps slowly he made his way towards the seat next to me in certainity that he shall win over the editing of the rules and convince me to follow them, but he does not know who he dealing with. I am not the same Anika who always has obeyed others forgoing her own happiness...I will now do everything according to my wishes and not his or anyone else's.

"So you want to go over the contract now even though you said you want to reach compromise after the trip to Goa finishes off?" He held an irk in his voice that dropped low in a demonic form with his eyes changing shades showing portions of vexation in it mixed with serpentine intentions.

Giving him a poised smile, I slid his laptop closer to the table in front of us opening it for him to see while continuing to bounce Chaaya in my lap as she slightly whined wanting my full attention not wanting anyone else to have it including her father.

"Yes it is best to know what I disagree with and we both can find compromise on it after learning more about each other on this trip," I slyed at him giving him an empowering smile telling him to go on and make the move by opening that darned contract and going over it again for the both of us one at a time.

Biting his lip, he shook his head wrapping his hand into mine looking at me with disappointment not wanting to even discuss the contract.

"Baby please do not ruin the mood now. We just had the best...I am not lying...the best tryst ever. For me the absolute best a total bomb compared to all the women I have been with. So can we just not discuss this right now?" He held urgence in his voice giving me a pleading look as my smile widened seeing his eyes showing dread over that contract knowing it is a key thorn between the both of us at the point bringing light to our differences.

Well to be his best is indeed a confidence booster. To be a virgin and outpace all the women he has been with does make me certainly believe that he has found his almost close to ideal in me and that is enough for I to reign him in and put him under my control.

Snatching my hand from his, I grinned and pulled the laptop closer towards us before leaning in closer towards him and beating him out.

"Well too bad Shivaay. You are the one who has brought this contract between us and now we must discuss upon it and figure a nice way out that will satisfy the both of us. Now shall we go over this contract please?" I held a delibertate tone giving him a smirk before laying my back against the seat as Chaaya crawled on to my stomach beginning to burst small bubbles on it. A giggle escaping from me as I patted her back letting her know I am right here as she continued to be on a scavenger hunt finding herself lost in the bright pink colors of my dress.

Letting out an outlandish growl, he slammed himself against his own seat giving me a grotesque look hating how I am ruining the moment for him and in no way in the mood of settling middle ground on the type of relationship we shall share. Hitting his hand loudly on the laptop keys he zoomed in on the contract as I peered over looking at the rules once again.

My temper slightly running a course as I looked at the rules finding some tightness and suffocation wrap around me able to feel the cuffs of the rules wrapping around me and tying me on a leash. Some rules appearing justified while others just plain downright criminal that entirely and wholly should be eliminated.

His eyes meeting mine as I bit my teeth into my lips holding on to my mouth about to spew many ugly words at him to question his intentions and why he desires such a dominant position in our relationship.

"Spill out now. You are clearly upset and I know that. But, as we have discussed we will compromise alright? Just tell me what you do not like and then we can see we can do or adjust to," He held seriousness in his voice not once wincing and acting as if we both are striking one of his business deals and not sealing a relationship.

If only he can understand what we are doing...How serious this relationship might just turn out to be even though it is a "fling" slash "forever" whatever it is...even I do not know what we are. But, what I do know is that both have a genuine desire and want to be together because somewhere we find ourselves in better light and more moral when we are together than anyone else. And if he is willing to at least listen to me now is a good step in the right direction and slowly I will make him come around and understand our relationship more...For now it is best to not argue with him because I do not want to and he does not either. For once we both are coming to peace and it is best to listen and be mature than indulge in a pitiful fight.

"Well first of all I cannot do work. As I have confessed I am lazy Shivaay and the only thing I am willing to do and will like to do is raise Chaaya and care for her. But,besides that these silly rules you have of me taking care of your needs and your daily schedule is not what I want to do and have interest in doing. More than that, I find it odd that you are controlling my grooming and my weekly schedule along with whom I shall socialize with. I do not like these portions of your rules and that is something I have issues with...I want some leeway in this or I want you to also be accountable to these same rules meaning what rules apply to me shall also apply to you," I remarked trying to be sober although confessing my unsophisticated lifestyle that consists of sitting on the couch and gaining weight by watching TV or reading my history books all day long.

Shivaay's pokerface falling apart with his lips twitching up as he suddenly let out a small laugh with his hands running through his hair shaking his head appearing completely baffled by my statement. Grimacing, I looked at him trying to decode what I have said that is making him laugh.

"Wow Anika. Wow. Hats off to you! Out of all the rules, the ones you find the most disappointing are these ones! I thought you would be creating pure drama over the ones considering the bedroom, but no! You are just complaining about basic daily crap surrounding the household like food, clothes, and social circles! Hahaha! Here I was worried you be freaking out over the rules that are most important! Oh God...you surprise me every time!" He began to banter erupting in a series of loud laughter as Chaaya joined him as well beginning to laugh looking up at me appearing to poke at me just like her father.

"Hey whose team are you on Chaaya?" I spoke in frustration as I raised her up on my shoulder as she continued to laugh at me. Her eyes moving to her father as she continued to revel in my mockery while her father continued his roast over me.

"I thought you would be like...Shivaay...why do you want to lead the bedroom? Or...be like Shivaay...I do not like experiments and I want to keep things simple in bed...Or I thought you would complain that you do not want the both of us to everyday-"

A loud gasp erupting from me with my hand slapping against his mouth squeezing it shut as he continued to mumble on my palm while I shot daggers at him telling him to be quiet. Chaaya tilting her head in curiosity somewhere trying to catch on to our human language and understand exactly what supposedly her daddy and her new mommy are discussing.

"Shut up! You daughter is here you idiot!" I glowered at him with my hands wrapping around Chaaya's ears trying to prevent her from hearing her father making a complete fool of himself and revealing his shameful deeds.

Chaaya raising her eyes at me clueless not understand why her mommy is covering her ears and not allowing her to hear word. I slightly smiled trying to keep her at ease as she continued to tilt her head looking at me and then Shivaay.

Shivaay letting out a laugh as he leaned over towards the both of us continuing to regale over my stupidity that I have turned out to be the typical woman worried about the home rather than the bedroom.

Okay fine. I am slightly loony alright. I am damn worried about raising a household and quite nervous in raising Chaaya, but that is alright...every woman who raises a child struggles, but I am scared than ever to be running a household because I simply have no interest to...I do not like to order people around or cook or clean...I am lazy and there is no other way to explain myself. Now the bedroom is a different story. I actually somewhat like those rules...Am I little anxious of how exactly restraints and other objects will be used on me?...Maybe...Am I excited to have adventures with him? Yes. A girl has dreams...alright? Some like simplicity in love making while others like insanity...I am the insanity type. I confessed that when he was taking my virginity and I will confess it again. "Fifty Shades of Grey" has given me many fantasies that I have a right to express...It is my right and my choice to decide what I want not anyone else's.

"So baby likes what I have planned for the bedroom then...So naïve, inexperienced Anika wants to be exposed to the next level and likes the idea of pleasure almost everyday huh?" He whispered into my ear inciting a chill from me as I slightly flinched feeling the heat of his mouth lingering on my neck.

Flushing red, I lowered my eyes holding a shy smile as I heard the announcement that the plane shall land soon in fifteen minutes. My hands holding still on Chaaya's ears as she laid her head against my heart peacefully not once complaining that I am preventing her from hearing anything.

"Why? Did you think I would deny these very adventures that actually makes this contract somewhat exciting and so our lives?" I whispered back to him continuing to look down as Shivaay let out a laugh before leaning in and brushing his lips lightly against my cheek giving me a swift, potent kiss.

Looking towards him, I caught a genuine smile as he ran his hand through my waves cherishing my features. "What else do you not like?...Tell me now," He spoke in a low tone as I slightly smiled liking that he is softening and now completely listening to me.

"Well...I want my independence Shivaay...I do not like how you will track my call records and want me to ask permission from you for socializing...I mean I do not really socialize, but to have it on contract seems odd to m," I kept a somber tone looking at him in the eyes as he recoiled his lips back appearing to tense up on my statement with his eyes reflecting that somewhere he is not able to figure my reason for complaint.

"What is wrong with keeping track of what you do if you do not have anything to hide?...I value honesty and loyalty in a relationship and if you are honest and loyal then what is wrong with knowing where you are, what you are doing, and whom you are with?...If you are committing to me then I want your full attention and focus to be on me..." His voice changing and reflecting a chord of danger with the blue colors of his eyes drenching with red indicating an unusual possession with a smirk touching his lips.

My heart running a beat as I felt a haunting press on to it seeing his soul running secrecy upon it indicating that he is expecting loyalty from me and if he does not get it then he will run pure havoc not only upon himself, but I.

"O-of course I am loyal to you and I am honest person Shivaay...but are you not supposed to be trusting of me? Trust is a key to building a relationship and...we need to build trust Shivaay...I mean t-that is important to secure our relationship. How would you feel if I ask for your call records and control who you socialize with? Have you thought about that?" I questioned raising my eyebrow and turning the table back on him wanting him to be put in my shoes and for once think the psychotic demand he is wanting from me.

My temper slightly simmering itself as I grasped my hands together around Chaaya trying to remind myself that it is best to not argue with her father in front of her not wanting to affect her.

It is wrong for him to track me in such a manner because I have a right and will to my life. It does not make sense why he would such....No normal person would track someone or control their ability to talk with others.

Shivaay clenching his jaw with his hand forming a fist as he twisted his head slightly trying to pull back on his frustration and reign in his demeanor not wanting his vicious side to take over him and completely control him. His eyes shifting straight looking into the dark room trying to scavenge a method of manipulation.

"I am giving you everything Anika. Everything you always have wanted and still do. You can blow off my money as much as you want...You will get all the luxuries in forms of designer clothing to access to lavish parties to almost every material form that will enhance your beauty. I will give you pleasure...I will satisfy your needs...I will give you a home. I will give you a chance to raise a child...I am giving you so much and in return you cannot allow me to even ensure that you are safe and secure by associating with the right people..." His voice trembling with laced poisoned anger indicative that he is fearing that he might just be losing control over me.

Manipulation clearly screaming itself through his language trying to toy with my mind and remind me of my materialistic desires that I shamelessly hold without any regrets...how somewhere I desire this life of luxury and pleasure with him where we can only live in fantasies and not have to face the dired and grappling reality I have been living in for years...I do long to show to others how I am above them for once...To be bullied and harassed for years has pushed me on the edge of desiring material value as a way to show my worth to those who harmed me.

But still...I cannot sell off my independence for my desires. I do not know if I have it in me to allow him to control every piece of my life because I want to breathe...I cannot allow him ownership of such. But then if I do not agree...I will lose out on that power and reputation that he can offer me...The safety he can give in form of himself...The pleasure he can offer...The companionship...The illusion of being a family with him and Chaaya...

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"Shivaay...why do you desire me to be this way?...Why do you want me to be this ideal homemaker? Why this expectation from me?...Why can we not just live a life together where we can breathe and be ourselves, but find our home in each other?" My voice breaking slightly as I buried my lips into Chaaya's shoulder giving her a small kiss as she whimpered. Trying to hide my tears, I kept staring at her seeing her eyes half closing as she moved them towards me giving me a small smile.

Hitting a pause, he drifted his eyes towards me appearing to unveil his reason that stood in the reflection of his soul, but not wanting to disclose it yet finding unease with it. Many mysteries trying to surface within him as he kept his silence trying to not let them slip knowing it is not the time to. My question causing him to wonder as he sighed letting his hand run over mine.

"There are certain reasons that are best told in better light at a better time. All I can say is that I expect loyalty and honesty...and at times I like control. It is what allows me to breathe, but if you want to challenge this rule then fine. I will think about it during this trip on what I can do..." He held an eerie chill in voice as he kept a blank stare finding himself dazing into his secrets beginning to remember they might just be the cause for his urgent desire to exert control over me finding some peculiar sense of satisfaction in it.

"I am honest and loyal Shivaay...And these are the traits that hurt me the most. I was betrayed Shivaay due to my foolishness...I believed my partner would be as loyal and honest that I was, but he broke that...and I broke down and became my worst. I know how it feels to have your heart ripped and slashed when someone betrays you...and I would not wish on anyone especially you. You have my virginity Shivaay...I gave up such an important piece of me to you because I trust you and to have you treat me in such a great manner with such respect when you took my virginity and even until now...I can vow my loyalty and honesty, but I want the same from you. I d-do n-not want to suffer the same fate like b-before...I am scared of losing a man like you..." Letting my voice fall apart I allowed tears to stream down my cheeks as I began to cry remembering the betrayal that was laid on me and how after such a long time I have allowed another man to dare to touch my heart and peek into its wounds...How I have finally have met a man due to fate who for once is showing me such level of passion and kindness that I never have gotten.

Suddenly a pair of arms wrapping around me as I buried my lips into his heart knowing it is him. His lips collapsing against my neck as we pressed Chaaya between our beating hearts trying to remind ourselves that we both are sitting here and daring to discuss the boundaries of our relationship because of her...that somewhere we want to secure our relationship because she is now getting involved likely. His hands running through my hair as I felt Chaaya's tiny fingers hit my tears wanting to make them hers. I continued to weep against his chest letting my fears unravel to him and expose to him what he is beginning to mean to me...how somewhere he leaving a mark on my heart.

"Baby don't cry please. I am so sorry...How can I neglect this fact and just run my mill over you? How can I forget what the bastard did to you?...But I promise I will never do such to you Anika. I promise that I will never break you trust no matter what. For you to allow me to take your virginity holds such symbolic meaning to me...I know the importance it holds and I am sorry for daring to hurt you by imposing such rules, but baby I have reasons and I am not ready to talk about them, but...baby I promise that I will do my best to adjust to you and I promise to vow this equal loyalty to you...I promise," He continued whispering into my ear as I slightly trembled allowing his lines to wrap around my heart and dare to make it trust another man once again like it did before...

Genuity singing out of him felt in the tears that appeared to choke him as well putting him into complete conflict over his selfish desire to dominant and his need to treasure my innocence that I have given up to him. But, to hear his promise to not hurt me does convince me that he will not...His voice is not shaking once and he is looking into my eyes singing his dedication to me and my heart can tell he is not lying...This heart has been fooled before and can tell when it is lied to and I now know that he not lying to me.

Slightly smiling, I kept still against Shivaay's chest as he grasped on to my tears taking them in as his. Chaaya moving her head between us observing the both of us keenly trying to understand why we are crying. Shivaay letting out a chuckle wrapping his hand on Chaaya's head before kissing her forehead as I held on to her.

"Chaaya wants to have fun on this trip...and so do I..." I mumbled trying to lighten the conversation not in the mood to do emotional drama and further destroy our already weak relationship...In this moment, I need to only focus on strengthening my bond with Shivaay...If I am able to do this on this trip then that is the only way he will likely compromise on this contract. He is a stubborn man and one who has never heard a refusal to his decisions until now and so I must manipulate him out of this and get a contract that treats the both of us as equals.

Shivaay laughing as he kissed my temple before looking down at me as I made a pout only to show Chaaya to her. Chaaya looking back at me and observing my details keenly before following the same gesture and showing a pout to her father as well. His eyes widening looking at the both of us feeling a little creeped out by our same expressions as he cringed.

"Can we enjoy this trip, but also focus on the both of us? I feel like we can use this trip to make us stronger and try to figure a way to modify the contract that will best suit us. There are many rules I want to contest against. So, print me a copy of this contract and I will personally run edits throughout our trip to figure what works and does not work for us while on this trip," I spoke carefully lending out the idea not wanting to incite his temper once again and indulge in an argument.

His eyes showing a lightbulb as he nodded thinking deeply about my lines and trying to find a way to avoid a potential argument. "How about we have a meeting at the end of the trip where we can discuss our grievances and you can create a version of your contract then you can show it to me and then we can merge our rules and laws together into one official contract. This is the best way to avoid our tiffs and enjoy this trip...because I have many ideas of places we can go to and what we can do..." He ended his austere thought with flirtation as I rolled my eyes holding back my excitement though having it rush through me knowing I have somewhat won our argument by not agreeing to his stupid rules and also winning my right to draw out a contract.

I succeeded. I slept with him to show him what he will lose out on if I leave him due to the contract...then I tied him up to show him that I am not some helpless Anika who does not speak her mind, but one who can go borderline insane to make a point...and that I can be serious as well and mature when needed thus convincing him to give me my right to decide.

Oh Shivaay...If you think on this trip, I will agree to sign your rules off then you are wrong. I will make my own rules and ensure you abide by them...This trip will be of you and I strengthening our bond together and my mission is to fully tame you on this trip...I will do everything to ensure that only I am in your heart and in your senses day and night.

"Now...can we use the objects of pleasure on this trip to introduce you?" The profane question dragging me out of my thoughts as I heaved in shock looking towards him throwing him a dirty look as he let out a snicker collapsing against his seat and putting on his belt knowing we are to land soon.

"Have same shame nah? Your daughter is right here and you are making such useless discussions! This is not good for her to hear," I smacked back at him continuing to hold Chaaya's ears who yawned sleepily burying her face in my stomach not finding any interest in our conversation.

Shivaay's eyes moving down to Chaaya as he sighed running his hand through her hair before looking at me with a cherished smile.

"And that is how I know you will be the perfect mother to my Chaaya..." He spoke in mystery as I raised my eyebrow at him in confusion not able to detect why he see's me as the model mother... His hand wrap[ing into mine as he moed closer towards me.

"You said Chaaya?" I whispered as Shivaay kept a faint smile before clasping his palm on my cheek beginning to lean in.

"Your wish is my command...Chaaya I guess is the name that has won since even this little one showed her agreement to it," He noted defeatedly as I let out a giggle seeing him slightly pout and look at her daughter in disappointment. I rubbed the infant's back as she began to nap on top of my womb finding comfort in it and appearing to accept the spot in it.

"Now can we stop our bantering or whatever this is. I just like it when we are laughing and having fun, so can we stop all of this and just enjoy this trip? Postpone this discussion of rules until end of the trip alright...?" He pleaded lightly as I smiled liking his thought and accepting it knowing that indeed we should postpone this potential chaotic argument that likely will happen at one point considering somewhere we both are stubborn.

"Fine let's end this discussion, but I think we should get to know each other starting from now," I noted with a pleasant smile giving him my innocent eyes knowing that it is enough to convince him to do the "usual" couple things.

Shivaay biting his lips appearing slightly repulsed from doing something else besides sinning in love making as a couple. Letting out a groan, he clasped his palms on his face while I giggled wrapping my hand into his hand and pulling it off of his face.

"Please...I want to know more about you...Can we just talk Shivaay?" I held a small plea to him giving him a gentle smile trying to let him know that he is in a safe space with me and our conversation will never leave this room or escape from me.

His eyes looking keenly into mine as he began to entwine his fingers into my hand trying to feel my heartbeats and see if they genuinely hold his name or are just holding his ashes not wanting to accept his demons, but only his beautiful flesh. Holding my smile, I leaned over closely to him as he pursed his lips tightly together putting on his sadistic mask letting pokers fall over it not wanting to reveal his true being....fear lurking in his red sculpted eyes indicating that he is in a brawl within himself over whether he should trust me or not...Even though he is almost closest to his true self when with me, somewhere he is holding back afraid that I might just run away.

I should take the first step and lead him into this realm where we both can embrace each other and relive our pains and our miseries only to comfort each other and heal each other.

"Let's learn about me first. We will start the funny basics and then try to explore deeper I guess?" I chimed letting out a nervous giggle looking at Shivaay who continued to give me a blank stare with freaky gremlins taking shape on him inciting a sense of unease within me not able to comprehend if he is on the edge of falling into his demons or wanting to soar and for once allow someone to look into him.

Holding a sleeping Chaaya, I leaned down grabbing my small shoulder bag and taking out a mini notebook with a pen wanting to make notes on Shivaay and figure out how he is. Shivaay looking at me curiously as I gave him a smile.

"You have a notebook in your purse? Why?" He questioned looking baffled as if I am holding an ancient object from the past and seeing it as infamy against the modern technological society we live in.

Letting out a laugh, I opened the berry pink colored notebook letting my fingers run over my words that I have written over the course of time...some pages having my personal confessions to others holding my ideas and thoughts that suddenly boil up in my mind without any cause to it.

"I like to write actually. It is kind of a secret I guess as no one knows except you now...Writing helps me to enter my own escapes away from my own reality...allowing me to dream that one day I will have the life that my own characters have or the ones written in my poems," I let out an embittered laugh with tears touching my eyes knowing the aches that dive and embroil themselves on these pages...my aches that I have written in my worst.

Bipolar disorder surprisingly is a blessing in disguise...Despite the depressive episodes that hits for a few weeks...it is the manic episodes that bring me on the high of creativity pushing me into a realm of wild ideas that have no sense... to layers of poetry entwined with shades of love to anger... and then somber ideas that key into my emotions and force me to write letters from my own tears...This notebook encases my entire heart...The letters and words have escaped from my very beats and fallen into black ink on these pages. My life runs and sings in these pages and that is my truth.

Shivaay's hand squeezing mine as I looked up at him seeing his eyes holding a hint of light somewhere able to feel the life of the stories and poems I hold in this notebook...finding himself connecting to my suffering knowing I am writing it in this notebook.

"So you write?...I only read, but...You also like poetry?" He questioned with a small smile as my smile widened knowing that I have flared the first break in his barriers finding myself slipping into him knowing that his essence starts from poetry.

"I mean I write poetry, but I do not know about reading. I am pretty random in my poems...I just grab my pen and starting writing without even thinking...My thoughts go on many frenzied and unwinded paths. At time even I do not know where my story or my poem is going..." I let out a giggle at my silliness inciting a laugh from Shivaay who hit his head back against the chair amused by my foolish confession. Chaaya letting out a loud yawn against my womb as I smiled pulling her up slightly continuing to pat her back knowing that is enough to put her to sleep.

"So you keep writing until you want to end it...until you put in your everything...your sweat and hard work...and give in your all. Then you end it because you know you have given your full self into it..." His lines catching my secret as I looked at him stunned realizing how he grasped on to my thoughts without me even telling them to him.

"And unfortunately nobody knows how much you put yourself into your writing..." He smirked revealing the last of my truths as I let out a laugh with Chaaya only to whimper finding herself awakened by our laughter.

Shivaay beginning to laugh with me as I placed Chaaya on my bosom though continuing to hold my elation over how much he spoken my sad, blunt truth of life. He is absolutely right about every single thing even though I have not even made one confession. This man truly has magic in reading women that I can tell you...or he is just too good at reading I.

"So you write and I read. That is a good combination I believe. You can write your poems for me and I will read them...It will be a nice way to express our true emotions towards each other...whether the best ones or the worsts ones like anger, sadness, and happiness...and even..." He paused on his last line as my eyes lifted towards him with my cheeks turning red knowing what he was about to say, but stopped himself from...Love is the word he was about to say.

Love. The illusionary word that apparently is an entity itself, but one that him and I both do not believe in. A feeling that apparently wraps around two souls making them one and tying them in a bond that even they can never get rid of...A blessing that the divine gives only to a few not everyone...Love the ultimate healing source that after many eons, the divine has nurtured and given to some as a gift...Only some not people like Shivaay and I.

Awkward silence hitting us as Shivaay cleared his throat before running his hand on Chaaya's back looking at her with a frail smile observing that the infant is now long gone in dream land.

"So um...when is Chaaya's birthday? I guess I can learn about her since you do not want to talk about yourself," I remarked letting out a laugh as he grinned continuing to look at Chaaya finding his entire world in her...as if she has saved him.

"She was born on August the tenth at a nice weight of ten ounces right in the afternoon...the irony of the numbers if hilarious! She was a big baby and my God when my brother handed her to me, I could not even hold her...She was just so heavy. Beyond that, she did not cry once...holding a smile. They say that smile is supposedly due to gas bubbles, so she likely has had acid issues since birth..." He began to laugh as I giggled looking at Chaaya now able to understand her chubbiness that likely she has carried all her life right from her birth. To know she did not cry is definitely smoothening knowing that she has always been a quiet baby...I often wonder why.

"Well she is then a Leo just like me! My birthday is on August fifth," I confessed as I looked at Chaaya before kissing her forehead finding joy that our connection is likely due to our Lioness zodiac signs.

"Oh that explains a lot then," He snubbed giving me a smirk as my eyes popped out with my jaw dropping knowing that clearly he is giving me an insult.

"Excuse me what?!" My hand slapping his chest as he chuckled looking out the airplane window sharing a joke with himself.

"Well Leos are known to be drama queens and unnecessarily overemotional and overdramatic. You fit the bill and so does Chaaya that I can see considering how she is around you...Both of you are talking a lot these days and showing attitude issues," Shivaay slyed as I began to glare at him ready to through him out this airplane as he continued to ridicule me with his laughter.

"Oh really?! When is your birthday alpha male? I truly want to know what weirdos and idiots are born from your zodiac sign who are so desperate all the time?!" I snided as he erupted into laughter not once minding my comment, but instead relishing in our mini argument.

"March 27th and you already know my age so we will keep the year out of this," He confessed feeling a little embarrassed from his age as I bit into my laughter knowing the big age gap we both carry of fifteen years...Surprsingly this man is quite into sex despite being 35. He is five years from 40 and yet he is totally smoking hot with many steaming thoughts.

"Oh! Aries! That really explains your stubborn attitude...Now wonder you never give up on your idiotic ideas...And then of course we have the temper issues, and the fact why you are so much into...the arts of lovemaking. No wonder we both argue and yet never let go...Aries and Leos are that couple who always fights yet ends with fire...Steaming out their anger through unusual channels..." I chided giving him a wicked, seductive smile as he raised his eyebrows liking my explanation before looking back towards me giving me a lustful smile lavishing over our compatability knowing that even the stars are aligned for us.

"I think it is said that Leos always bow to an Aries...they are the lenient ones. So that means you will always listen to me...I shall dominant," He snarled with pride as I grunted before slapping his hand hard igniting a howl from him feeling the pain while I giggled liking that he has gotten a reality check from me....Bowing my ass. This idiot can only dominant in bed because I want him to or else I can switch gears on that as well...I shall rule not him.

"No darling, a lion always rules...keep that in your mind," I snagged with a smirk as he bit into a smile appearing to get turned on my aggression rather then be maddened by my will to dominant.

"Catty...I like that. It kind of turns me on to see equal competition on the ground...and in the bedroom..." He hissed grabbing my arm and slapping a sloppy, wet kiss on my cheek inciting an impish smile from me. His hand rubbing my neck vigrously clearly wanting to seduce me as I twisted and turned in my chair trying to keep the distance catching on that this insane man loves to play it rough any time.

"Anyways...can we be on topic please?...Tell me where you went to school for or I don't know something about your...childhood?" I questioned turning the tables on him wanting him to speak more about his life.

Turning quiet, his smile slightly vanishing as he became pensive with his shades turning red as his eyes became crumpled finding themselves drawing many charcoals upon it not wanting to reveal thorns that inflict him from his past. His hands digging into the handles of the seat as he clenched his jaw with his temper slightly hitting him that he attempted to submerge.

"I moved around quite a bit...boarding done in different schools then I went to University of Pennsylvania for my B.A. in Economics and then Harvard for my MBA. So, my childhood is not really there I guess...always studying and...yeah..." His voice slightly breaking as he appeared to hold tears once again in his eyes that revealed many secrets he is somewhere holding in...secrets that are rooted from this very childhood of which he does not want to speak of.

Sitting in awkwardness, we heard another announcement of landing soon as I stared at Shivaay who continued to release and grip on to his hands tightly in a repetitive motion. Trying to smile, he attempted to keep cool looking back at me.

"Tell me about yourself...I want to know what a young Anika was like before she met a handsome Shivaay like I?" He flirted the idea as I weakly smiled holding my notebook in my hand knowing that it keeps all my secrets right from my childhood in it. My pen scrambling against the paper as I wrote small notes on there on Shivaay and Chaaya's birthdays and where he went to school.

"Well my childhood was boring I guess...I grew up in one boring place called the Bay Area and I have lived there my entire life...and now I am bored of living in the same suburban place and I want an escape from there. I went to public school not private like you of course...and public schooling is horrible...just a horrible experience...inadequate funding, poor teachers, and students do not even get me started on that...I grew up...was bullied and then I went off to University of California and studied Cell Biology and History and that was it...Nothing else. Very boring to be honest...I was that quiet kid who rarely talked and was lost in her own world which can be a reason why I never made friends..." I muttered in embarrassment from my lackluster upbringing as I turned slightly red knowing that I am the most boring person ever.

Shivaay letting out a laugh as he smiled pecking my cheek trying to comfort me in my dreary state knowing that I absolutely hated my childhood. "It was horrible Shivaay. God I hated my childhood. So many annoying personas in form of these stupid girls. Annoying me and teasing me all the time...Only one thing I liked was playing with my dolls and making up mini stories on them...and then I started writing...I sang as well in choir, but that was horrible...All the girls bullied me in that and then I evenutally quit," I muttered as Shivaay's jaw dropped hearing my secret talent as he jumped up looking at me completely unconvinced by my confession.

"You sang?!...What?!...Anika sing for me! Come on!" He began to urge me as I closed my eyes beginning to curse myself on why I made this dumb confession. His hand tugging on my arm wanting me to sing while I shook my head relentlessly not wanting to.

"No tell me about your hobbies now!" I snapped back wanting to end the conversation as he side eyed me wanting me to speak more and sing, but clearly I am not in the mood for it.

Chaaya letting out a small cry as I wrapped my hand around her head immediately trying to call her as she appeared to awaken from her nap. Shivaay beginning to pat her back with me as well not wanting her to get up from her sleep so soon.

"I read poetry from Edgar Allan Poe and Whitman to her to put her to sleep at times when she is not listening to anyone. Put her to sleep immediately...now that could be due to boredom or she likes them, I don't know," Shivaay cringed slightly making me giggle as I looked at the tiny infant who is being forced to listen to classic English literature as a means to fall asleep. Oh God...the parenting this man must be giving her definitely is making me quite curious.

"Well I think you should definitely try Robert Frost and Emily Dickinson...I heard listening to this poetry just magically turns a child into a genius...Our Chaaya will be a prodigy then," I joked in ill humor as he threw me a glare becoming aware that I am making fun of him.

"Hey I have dreams for my Chaaya. She must excel to be the best after all she will be the heir to my empire. I must ensure that her development begins now considering how essential it is for her," He argued as I rolled my eyes looking at the infant realizing the torment of studying she must bear on her tiny little shoulders due to this crazy dad.

"Relax Tiger mom! I hate helicopter parents like you! Let her live alright?...And I bet you I will let our Chaaya live her life...Not on my watch will I allow her to be tortured by books," I snapped back at him sticking out my tongue as he began to press his head clearly getting a headache from me, but not left with any energy to argue back with me.

Sighing he stared ahead appearing to let go of my comment finding himself pondering over a deeper thought that has sprung out of our discussion. His hand continuing to grasp on to mine as he found himself turning back time and falling into stinged memories from the past.

"Well I have to ensure she is brought up well. I promised her parents to care for her you know?...I mean to know that her parents are watching us from above with expectations and hopes and dreams about their daughter just...scares me. Rudra was my younger brother and we did not have the best relationship...but when he w-was d-dying...h-he thought of me as his daughter f-father. He c-could have chosen Om or anyone else, but he chose me...and I do not know why, but God...I just am scared that what if I disappoint him and his wife by not raising Chaaya right...To know that when my brother faced death, he saw me as the guardian of his daughter scares me...It scares me that maybe he made a wrong decision on impulse by choosing me as Chaaya's protector. I just want the best for Chaaya...and I feel that if I do not give her the best then I will lose her just like I lost my brother who I did not even talk to for years until I saw him dying..." His voice falling apart with tears now running down his cheeks enough to tear my heart apart finding his tears dropping upon it and pulling its veins apart with thorns slicing through it once again.

He is just like anyone else...Human. To hear that he has fears of failing...indicates how he is weaving love all over his burning heart daring to love his daughter...His love speaking in his tears indicating that he pretends to not hold such a passionate emotion, but clearly has his soul full of it...for is deceased brother...and his daughter. He is not weak, but brave to hold such fears showing how much he wants the best for others...how kind and considerate he is...how selfless he is despite pretending to put on a mask of selfishness.

My hand immediately clasping against his cheek beginning to taking his tears into my palms as he kept still with his eyes lowering to Chaaya who laid in peace against my womb. Biting his quivering lips, he slightly hiccupped struggling to take his breaths as I leaned over laying hard, yet passionate kisses taking his tears in. His hand wrapping around my wrist as he buried his lips in my palm laying a solemn, frail kiss acknowledging my affection letting me know he wants more.

"Shivaay you are doing an excellent job as Chaaya's father. You are an amazing and courageous man do you know that? No one in this day accepts an innocent life as his child and takes them in like you did...To be a single father takes a lot of tenacity and bravery. To raise a newborn is extremely tough and you are doing great so far. Your brother and sister-in-law are likely so proud in how you are raising their daughter. My heart knows how happy they must be to see you growing up and nurturing their daughter with so much love. And to be honest...I am now with you...We will get through this and raise Chaaya together. I promise I will always be here with you for Chaaya...if you want me to. If you want me to I promise, I will give Chaaya the mother's love she deserves," My desire gleening through my voice as I began to kiss his temple tenderly giving him my strength wanting him to end his tears and find pride in his ability to be such a great father.

Yes. I want to be Chaaya's mother...Yes. I know Shivaay and my relationship is odd...weird..and nameless, but we are both wanting to create our own life together and Chaaya is definitely involved in this considering she is his daughter. I mean how is it even possible that if Shivaay and I both desire to form this relationship that will last for years likely until death and not have Chaaya involved?...Chaaya feels as a part of me now...When I hold her, I just feel that she me...that she is that daughter I likely would have had and she just is perfect. No child has ever incited such a feeling...such a pure, rich feeling of wanting to be a mother until her. She makes me feel loved...wanted...and saved.

Shivaay's eyes widening hearing my desire with tears limping their way out of his eyes as suddenly light hit his blue hues showing a burst rapture filled with alleviation and calmness that he has not able to reach ever since he has become the guardian for Chaaya. His heart clearly pumping many beats seen in his flesh turning red as a large tearful smile touched his lips with his hand immediately wrapping around my cheeks.

His lips crashing on to mine pulling me into a soft, passionate kiss as I responded with equal force reassuring him of my desire. Running a slow rhythm, he paced his lips against mine beginning to lay brisk, affectionate kisses continuing to engrave his joy upon my lips finding himself ravishing over the future we three will share.

"Yes Anika!...Yes!...I want that...I want you to be her mother...Of course I want to...Thank you...thank you..." He repeated breathlessly against my lips as my smile widened with tears touching my eyes as I heard his acceptance of me. My womb leeping in joy finding it lavishing over this good news that it too shall not be barren anymore, but now be seeded with the presence of an innocent, precious baby.

His lips running up to my temple as he kissed it tenderly before meeting my eyes where his wide smile reached his blue hues showing his extreme happiness over this decision that we both are sharing.

"You will be the perfect mother to Chaaya...My heart knows that Anika. I doubted before, but right now as I see you nurturing her and putting her above everyone else shows me the gem of a heart and compassionate soul you carry. The values, the character, and the innocence you have...is enough for my Chaaya to be the strong and amazing woman I want her to be...just like you. Thank you Anika..." He whispered as I began to tear up finding myself speechless hearing his confidence in my ability to be a mother despite knowing that I am a barren...To hear him accepting me as his daughter's guardian without any hesitation makes me believe that there is truly a God who is out there and wanting me to be happy and in peace...wanting to give me everything that I always have dreamed of.

"We will land now. Please put on your seatbelts," The pilot announcing interrupting our moment as Shivaay continued to take my tears into his hands and kiss my cheeks joyfully.

His hands brushing against my waist carefully as he clasped the belt together knowing we are now going to land. My heart beating without a rhythm in fear from landing as I wrapped my hand tightly around Chaaya with the other in Shivaay's as he continued to peer at me observing my panic...And so to distract me, he wrapped his hand around my cheek only to pull me into a kiss.

A smile touching our lips, as he ran his lips lightly against mine before taking a hold of them softly. Our lips dancing their own tunes as they slowly opened tasting each other's honey and gin flavors as he lengthened the kiss allowing him to steadily explore the curves and edges of my inner folds. Kissing him back tentatively, I let my lips frolic against his making the kiss sensual allowing my tongue to fleet into his.

The wheels hitting the ground as I heard a small cry erupt against my womb. My lips immediately lifting away as I looked at Chaaya appearing to awaken from her one minute powernap only to reveal buoyant smile.

"Oh great...I swear my heart is telling me that Chaaya is going to be the third wheel on this trip and ruin my plans," He groaned before leaning down and kissing Chaaya's forehead trying to convince her to not do such, but knowing she will.

Letting out a laugh, I looked at Chaaya who widened her toothy smile looking at her father and appearing to acknowledge that he is absolutely correct that she will destroy his naughty intentions. Shivaay sighing in annoyance as he kept a smile looking at his daughter somewhere melting to her despite knowing the little monster she can be.

"Well, I myself am looking forward to spend time with Chaaya on this trip more than you...Because my Chaaya is so cute and adorable that I will only spend time with her..She is fun to play with and does not complain or whine like some people...She is definitely not like her father who is a complete bore," I tattled raising Chaaya up and beginning to kiss her chubby cheeks against as she smiled wrapping her arms around me appreciating my compliments for her.

"What?! Really now?! I am a bore! Why do you keep saying that?!" He began to shout defensively as the plane hit a halt. Opening his belt, he got up immediately continuing to whimper like a child as he grabbed his laptop bag and Chaaya's bag as well.

I continued to giggle rocking Chaaya in my arms as I grabbed my purse opening the door to exit the plane. Shivaay continuing to mutter to himself as I sighed leaning against the door looking at him knowing I have angered him once again by hitting his ego.

"I poured orange juice and ate chocolate off of you!" He screamed as my jaw dropped with my heart skipping a beat as I immediately looked out to see if any passenger had heard that only to see an empty aisle. My hand grabbing Shivaay's immediately as he continued to groan in misery not wanting my attention.

Sighing, I wrapped my hand on the back of his head only to take a hold of his lips as my other hand buried Chaaya in my neck. The kiss abrasive as I quickly ran my lips against his bruising them quickly continuing to force my tongue in as he responded pushing his lips fervently back taking a wet, ravishing kiss. His hands wrapping around my neck as he continued to run big sloppy kisses against my lips wanting to mold our tastes together into one.

"That's enough...big guy. I think this kiss will be enough to keep your whining and jealousy from my Chaaya on the down low," I noted letting go of his lips as I patted his shoulder only to see him reveal a boyish smile liking the surprise kiss as if it is first.

"You are crazy do you know that?" He chided as I rolled my eyes knowing that somewhere he uncanningly correct that I am a little crazy.

"Well I took my meds today at least," I mumbled in my mouth as I fixed my purse.

"What?" Shivaay immediately speaking as my eyes widened realizing my brain has let my thought escape as I weakly smiled looking at him about to say something, but only to hear a small cry.

Chaaya peeking her head out of my neck looking at us innocently with sleep caught in her eyes clearly have not been a witness to our kiss. "Bah...bah...Hehehe..." She snickered looking at her father teasing him that I am only hers for now and he must wait in line behind her.

Smiling I kissed her temple before grabbing Shivaay's hand and making our way out of the room. Shivaay sighing looking at Chaaya who continued to lay on my shoulder tugging on my dress and forcing the cloth into her mouth.

"I am not jealous of Chaaya, but God I wish I get this special attention from you like you give to her," Shivaay muttering as I giggled leaning over and kissing his cheek tenderly trying to remedy his sore wounds.

"It's okay...I will try my best to give you the best attention you deserve...once everyone goes to sleep and only you and I are the only ones awake," I whispered seductively into his ears as he turned on a wicked smile looking towards me liking my idea while I raised my eyebrows up and down at him gesturing him my dirty idea.

The flight attendant peering at the room behind us as Shivaay looked back giving her an apologetic smile. "Our apologies about the room," He spoke as I blushed red remembering the chaos we both had created in it.

The flight attendant giving a cringey smile as she held her anger frustrated with the messy room we were leaving. "It is alright. This is definitely not new. Every couple thus enjoys these private rooms to have their...fun. Something about the room just turns them on...and then they go crazy! Craaaaazy!" She exclaimed waving her hands in the air as her eyes bulged out plastering a creepy smile as I winced looking at Shivaay slightly freaked out who gave me the same expression.

"Let's just go babe," I noted urgently grabbing his hand and making our way out of the plane as Chaaya's nanny and his guards followed their way behind us.

Shivaay letting out a chuckle as I laughed exiting our way out while Chaaya continued her small baby talk not once stopping trying to converse with the both of us. Showing our passports, we quietly made our way through checking in and then proceeding to baggage claims.

"That was weird...That flight attendant is probably horrified to know what mess she has to clean up," He noted as I giggled waiting with him to see when our luggage will come out on the trolly as the guards made their way towards them.

"Well...we did go insane. I do not know why we are like that...First your room in the haveli then the plane...We are crazy like she said," I added my comment as Chaaya hit my cheek grabbing it and forcing it towards her wanting my attention.

"Nah! Nah! Nah!" She screamed into my face as I let out a laugh seeing her furrow her eyebrows appearing to bash me for not listening to her conversation. Smiling, I kissed her tiny fingers as I looked at her.

"You want me to listen to you huh?...Tell me what do you want to say?" I crooned as her smile widened knowing that I am now only focusing on her.

Her hands clasping together as she began to talk in foreign words making unusual gestures as she looked above pointing at the ceiling of the airport before giving me a serious look and then continuing to talk. My heart continuing to bloat finding her cuteness on overdrive unable to digest how she was looking like a mini version of Shivaay trying to hold a business-like low tone while talking.

"Shivaay look! She is looking just like you!" I exclaimed in excitement grabbing Shivaay's arm as he helped the guards settle the luggage on our trolly.

Shivaay lifting his eyes up towards Chaaya who continued to hold a serious expression and babble as if she was conducting a meeting. He grinned as he made his way towards Chaaya observing her closely as she turned her head and now began to lecture her father in a foreign tone that only babies speak in.

"Look at her Shivaay...aww...she has the same lips as you and even the hair. Look at how she is speaking in that same scary tone you use on everyone else...she is just your reflection," I snitched before kissing her cheek while she continued to hold a conversation.

He showed a beaming smile giving Chaaya a kiss on her head liking how she is reflecting him in her demeanor. "That is so peculiar. She is looking like me isn't she?...Well at least she has something of me," He spoke with pride as I giggled elbowing him while he smiled rubbing Chaaya's head while she continued to talk to the both of us.

"Her smile is eeringly like yours' Anika...and that is odd," He noted as I looked at Chaaya who began to smile and indeed that one dimple on her cheek looked exactly like mine...in fact...that lopsided smile is the one I always used to have as a baby myself.

"Hmmm...that is odd. She is of course ours', but her parents were your brother and sister-in-law...It is peculiar how she holds our traits," I noted staring at Chaaya closely as we began to walk our way out of the airport while Shivaay let out a laugh wrapping his arm around us leading us to a set of SUV's waiting for us.

Chaaya continuing to smile as I took in her features finding a mix of Shivaay all over her as she held her big bold hazel eyes similar to his with waves of her toppled on her head...but that smile and the tone of her skin uncanningly like mine as I ran my hand through her back observing her silence remembering how my parents always told me I had been a quiet child.

Well it feel nice to see reflections of us in Chaaya and even though she is not born from us...she does have pieces of both Shivaay and my heart that I can absolutely agree upon. She has her footprints on our souls and she somewhere has unknowingly weaved herself to us accepting the both of us as her protectors reflected in her innocent smile or chiming babbles.

"Okay come let's get in you two drama queens and let's go to the hotel as it is quite close by anyways," Shivaay ridiculing the both of us as I stuck my tongue out to him angrily hating his comment. My eyes moving down to Chaaya who immediately stuck out her tongue as well looking at me and copying my gesture.

"What the?! My daughter is copying you! Stop teaching her such nonsense!" He chided as I let out a giggle before grabbing a seat on the trolly holding rest of the luggage not feeling the need to walk anymore.

The guards opening the trunk of the SUV as I sighed tapping my foot with impatience not wanting to stand any longer. My eyes wandering to the trolly that is holding our luggage as I smiled hitting my own lightbulb before sitting down on the top of the suitcases placing Chaaya on my lap who began to clap wanting a ride.

"Anika what are you doing?! Get off the trolly!" Shivaay reprimanding me as I giggled holding Chaaya in my lap who began to dance and screaming at Shivaay to give us a ride on the trolly.

"Shivaay...I am tired. I do not want to walk anymore!" I deplored giving him heart eyes as he smacked his hand on his head in frustration on verge of losing his impatience with me and Chaaya as we continue to annoy him with our antics that challenge his control.

"Really Anika? You are tired?...What work did you do today that got you so tired may I ask?" He approached towards me grabbing the handle of the trolly before looking at me.

Slightly blushing, I rang mischief in my mind before looking back to ensure the guards are not listening to our conversation. "Well I did not do work, but was worked upon by a man...He soaked up all my energy during the flight," I whispered naughtingly to him as his ears turned red finding himself flustered by my comment catching on what I exactly am meaning...our tryst in the plane.

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Revealing a teasing smile, he let out a chuckle grabbing the trolly's handle as he began to spin Chaaya and I on it. Shrieks erupting from both of us as Shivaay began to twirl the trolly in circles while I held Chaaya closely to my heart. The wind colliding against our faces as I began to laugh in joy flipping my hair back and forth while Chaaya joined my laughter throwing her head up in the air.

"Shivaay! Stop!" I screamed erupting in giggles as Chaaya continued to scream with joy loving the new ride. Shivaay beginning to laugh loudly liking the play as he continued to spin us round and round on the trolly before dragging us towards the SUV.

"Chaaya is having fun isn't she?! Papa is now playing with you right?!" I exclaimed beginning to tickle her as Shivaay continued to laugh rolling us back and forth on the trolly before spinning us back again in a circle.

Chaaya shrieking burying her face in my neck as I giggled grabbing Shivaay's hand pulling him towards the both of us before laying a kiss on his arm. "Look Chaaya is so happy! Have you ever seen her like this?!" Feeling giddy, I held Chaaya up showing her bumbling smile as she exposed it to Shivaay.

His smile widening seeing Chaaya grinning widely as he took her from my arms embracing her tightly. Her eyes meeting his as she continued to smile enough to soften him up as his eyes held a set of tears finding himself slightly emotional seeing his daughter in happiness. "No...I have never seen her like this...She rarely ever smiled or even laughed...She rarely even talks Anika...Ever since she has been born, she never has behaved like a child until now...Thank you for making her smile," His lines crashing on my heart as I felt a tear touch my eye finding my lips quivering hearing the life that Chaaya has lived so far finding my womb dropping ashes on itself with a pange erupting in it finding it unbearable to know that she has not seen life just like her father...that she too has never experienced happiness until now...she has never seen the different shades life until likely now.

Shivaay handing off Chaaya to Athiya to help her get settled in the SUV. Lifting my gaze towards him, I noticed him giving me a small smile with his eyes lighting up in delight as he lunged towards the trolly beginning to spin it around in circles as I erupted in giggled holding onto the suitcase trying to balance myself.

"Shivaay! Stop! Now! I am not tired...anymore!" I pleaded continuing to laugh as he continued to roll me in circles before spinning me towards him and immediately grabbing my cheeks pulling me into a kiss.

Our lips taking holding of each other immediately as he began to run his mouth fleetingly against mine not able to contain his elation over seeing a bubby Chaaya. The kiss simple yet passionate as he dug his lips into mine taking quick dives of my tongue before resurfacing and taking long, sizzling kisses as I replied back harder taking playful kisses. His hands dragging down my bare thighs running below my dress as I slightly moaned about to let go before he immediately picked me up in his arms bridal style.

"Shivaay! What are you doing?!" I yelped hitting my fist against his chest continuing to laugh as he swung me around again leaving out a chuckle before giving me an impish look.

"You are tired right? And you are already lazy, so now I am helping you!" He fiended swinging me up again in the air making me scream with my lips burying in his neck finding myself becoming mad with the amount of thrill lunging its way through me felt in my pounding heart where adrenaline is now rushing.

Dropping me low to the ground, he picked me up again as I shrieked in fear only to laugh against before grabbing his jaw laying a large, greedy kiss on his cheek wanting him to do more to me. His rowdy eyes meeting mine as he looked at me closely trying to catch on what I am implying to him while I winked at him.

"Anika...? What are you doing?!" The voice breaking Shivaay and my trance as I looked behind his shoulder to see Arti and Ayaan standing behind us.

A smirk touching my lips seeing Arti slightly fuming with envy painting her ugliness with green as she clenched her jaw tightly beginning to grunt hating how a man like Shivaay is holding me in his arms...how a rich man who is in a better position than her Ayaan is giving me romantic attention that likely even she never has experienced.

Shivaay letting go of me helping me down on the ground before sliding his hand around my waist and giving a possessive smile to Ayaan. Our eyes moving to Ayaan who appeared to fume with jealousy smoking out of his ears as he began to rage with his temper hitting his soul seen in him completely turning a gross shade of orange.

"What are you both doing? You both did not even wait for us," Arti speaking in a dramatic, annoying voice as she crossed her arms on the verge of losing her cool not liking one bit the closeness I am sharing with Shivaay.

Shivaay turning and taking my hand forcing me into the SUV. Feeling confused, I obliged and got in next to Chaaya before looking at him who took a stand in front of me barricading me from the creatures called Arti and Ayaan. Standing his ground, he crossed his arms now appearing enraged and taking a sip of heinousness indicative that he is now about to draw a boundary between them and us.

"Why should we wait for all of you? I mean we all know what hotel we are going to anyways. Second of all, I hope you both understand that I do not like to be questioned. One thing you both need to know is that I hate it when anyone points a finger at me and tries to question my decision or choices, so to have a nice trip here in Goa...it will be best for all of you to mind your own business and leave Anika and I alone," He clawed his demons at the two ogres who began to turn a hideous color of yellow abhorring his threat.

Arti throwing me a glare as Ayaan expressed a scorn not to me not liking how I am beginning to build up a relationship with Shivaay...somewhere overpowering them considering Shivaay is their boss and I am their boss's lover.

"If we have hurt you in any way then my apologies sir. We should not intervene in your private matter. It is best we enjoy this trip and spend time together as family and friends. Now if you do not mind, can we go with you both considering the hotel is only about five minutes away from here? Om, Gauri, and the rest are stuck at baggage claim and wanted us to go ahead," Ayaan showing composure as he plastered a fake smile trying to show cordiality while his eyes showing a sense of vengeance finding himself begrudged by Shivaay's presence not liking it.

Feeling befuddled, I looked at Arti and Ayaan who exchanged a mysterious looks with each other as if they both are holding a secret plan that they want to launch against Shivaay and I. I know maybe I am being delusional as my bipolar disorder does make me prone to it, but my gut is telling me that these two are not up to no good.

Shivaay showing some doubt as he looked back at me still holding a rigid demeanor not wanting to break from it to let Arti and Ayaan know the level of comfort we both are sharing. Putting on his sunglasses, he jumped in the seat next to me as he grabbed my hand placing it on his lab in plainview wanting Ayaan to see who held a set of tears in his eyes making my heart jump up feeling a little taken aback to see them unable to comprehend why he has them and if they are for me.

"Well get in then. What are you both waiting for?" Shivaay shooting back at them before huffing and leaning over to me giving a mean smile as I weakly smiled continuing to look at Ayaan who appeared to wipe his tears away before making his way with Arti who grabbed his hand pulling him away to her side.

He is crying...Ayaan is crying. My God...I have never seen him cry unless he is deeply hurt. Last time he cried was when his father passed and now he is crying...Why?...Is he feeling saddened to see me with Shivaay?...Biting my lip, I felt an unusual sense of guilt dropping down into me beginning to remember my relationship with Ayaan realizing the love we both carried before until everything fell apart...If only things never changed then I would be marrying Ayaan not my sister. If only he accept me as a barren, but he did not...However, is he somewhere beginning to realize what he has lost? Why else would he cry?...

"What's wrong? Are you alright?" Shivaay's voice shattering my thoughts as I gave him a frail smile before he leaned over laying a tender kiss on my cheek before wrapping his arm around me pulling me into his chest appearing to claim me with his eyes darting to Ayaan who took a seat in the front next to the driver while Arti sat behind the both of us continuing to mumble irate words. The SUV taking a sudden turn making its way out of the airport as we all sat in awkward silence.

Ayaan's eyes meeting mine as I felt my heart hitting another thump holding a pause finding those eyes for once not showing hatred, but softness drenched with kindness just like he did when he was mine.

Shivaay's fingers clenching on to my arm tightly as I flinched slightly feeling a sting in it before looking up at him. His lips held tightly together with his eyes holding an ounce of blood in which my reflection appeared. His soul unveiling itself a little bit showing compassion with his heart dropping finding itself being forced to appreciate me and treasure me.

A smile touching my lips as I looked at him shyly finding my heartbeats increasing and doubling their speed seeing his eyes lowering and admiring my features while I remembered our rendenzous that has begun since last night right when he took my virginity...The kindness and consideration he showed to me by ensuring I was at comfort...and the now he has proposed me to build this peculiar yet long lasting relationship with him allowing me to be a mother..

What am I thinking? Why should I care about Ayaan if I have found a better man with whom no one can compete with? God...I am so stupid for showing concern for Ayaan for even a moment.

Shivaay's eyes showing possession as he threw his bloody red eyes to Ayaan telling him to look away and not eye me. My smile widening liking his possessiveness as I rubbed his chest before pressing my lips against his neck softly.

A gasp escaping from behind me as I turned around looking at Arti who sat in a mud of spite finding herself drawing out ill thoughts towards me hating how I am in the arms of a new man who is a step up from her fiancé and my ex.

"I cannot believe this Anika...What will Ma and Papa say?" She whispered to me angrily as my smirk widened rolling my eyes not concerned about them. Pointing my middle finger at her, I flipped her off as Shivaay let out a devious laugh liking my reaction. Arti scorning hating my self confidence that I have miraciously developed overnight thanks to Shivaay.

Chaaya laughing next to me in her car seat as I smiled patting her belly continuing to incite tickles. Her tiny hands grabbing on to mine enough to pull my heartstrings as I let her play with my fingers.

"Well how was the flight for you both?" Arti questioning to us curiously as Shivaay and I exchanged a frisky look holding secretive smile remembering what we both have done throughout the flight.

"It was alright. We did nothing except sleep considering we are still jet lagged from the previous flight to Jaipur. How was your flight?" Shivaay questioning as he wrapped his hand in mine continuing to hold it.

"There was a lot of noise in the flight. I do not know if someone was fighting or what," Ayaan noting as I bit my lip into a laugh looking at Shivaay feeling mortified as his grin widened relishing over how my ex heard us having sex for four hours straight.

"I know it sounded like cats were fighting or something. Gosh, I think it was a couple who were fighting or doing the deed...Like really? I will be shocked if I find out a couple was having you know what in a plane. Who does that? How desperate can people be?" Arti speaking in ignorance not showing any hint that she thinks it may have been us.

How loud were we that everyone heard? What must they be thinking and gosh what if they suspect it is Shivaay and I? My hand slightly trembling as Shivaay squeezed it trying to keep my nerves under control as he continue to bite his tongue not wanting to laugh, but clearly in delight liking his ability to pleasure a woman.

"Stop it..." I gritted at him as he let out a small laugh looking out the window as he kissed my hand finding himself thankful to me for the adventure I dared to indulge in with him.

"So do you both have any plans for tonight?" Ayaan's voice breaking a note as Shivaay's eyes shot towards him instanteously shaking slightly with his temper hitting his ceiling not liking that Ayaan is wanting to indulge in a conversation with us.

"Why? What is it to you?" Shivaay snapping in a cold voice as I let out a giggle finding myself impressed by his blunt behavior towards Ayaan knowing that somewhere Ayaan deserves this demeaning treatment considering the immoral and wretched human being he is.

Ayaan clenching his jaw finding him exasperated by Shivaay's tone as he looked ahead not wanting to even look back. "Arti and I and everyone else have planned to go to the nightclub tonight. It is in the resort itself and will be a nice way to relax and spend time with each other. We are thinking about getting together about three hours from now, so you all can rest before coming," He held a dull tone as he explained the plans for tonight.

Shivaay looking at him pensively before drawing back at me as I found myself at conflict on the invitation not knowing whether to accept it or deny it. I mean I should go to the nightclub considering I do not want to be seen as a coward who is still bemoaning about having her engagement broken, but then I am not a social person...I never went to a club before and I do not know how I will fit in considering the lost soul and social awkward person I am.

"Ayaan! Who are you inviting?! Shivaay sir definitely will come, but Anika! Geez, she never leaves the home after seven and you are expecting her to go clubbing! Yaar she is so boring and hates get togethers!" Arti taunting me as she began to mockingly laugh while I lowered my eyes looking at Chaaya trying to divert my attention.

Chaaya continuing to smile appearing slightly sleepy as the car rumbled on the road before making a turn through down the single lane going to the resort. My hand continuing to pat her belly knowing that might just put her to dreams.

Suddenly Shivaay snapping his head towards the back looking at Arti straight into her eyes read to leech her and throw her out the window into the ocean if meant to shut her rattling mouth. My hand grasping on to his arm catching on that he is about to spew fire on her.

"Oh shut up! How dare you make fun of Anika?! She is your older sister, so mind your tongue alright? And she is not a bore and she definitely can let loose and have fun! In fact, I will prove this to you tonight when I bring her to the club with me! You all will be shocked to see that my Anika can be life of the party!" Shivaay the loud mouth now speaking as my jaw dropped hearing his gutsy challenge to my sister with my nails digging into his arm wanting him to take back his comments.

What is he saying? How can he just say I will be life of the party? Heck, I cannot even give a public speech in front of thirty people and failed in public speaking in college...and this Einstein wants me to let loose, have fun, and apparently be center of attention....Oh God. The nerve of this man.

Arti letting out a loud laugh hearing his comments as the SUV twisted and turned through the large pathway going to the resort almost reaching a halt to the main entrance right underneath the palm trees that wrapped around the acres of the resort.

Guards opening our doors as Arti continued to laugh slapping her hand hard against my shoulder. "Did you hear that Anika?! Your Shivaay is saying that you will be life of the party! God, what lies have you told him?! No wonder he is with you because you just lieeeed!" She snarked at me kicking herself out of the SUV while I began to melt in embarrassment hating her teasing, but know she has a right to laugh considering I am so awkward and cringy...

Shivaay now infuriated as he jumped out of the SUV ready to take on Arti without any regrets. I shook my head unbuckling Chaaya from her car seat and taking her up in my arms while allowing her nanny to follow behind us with her things.

"Why are you laughing?! Anika has not lied about anything and to be honest, I can guarantee that she is a fun person to be with and she will prove it tonight at the club!" He continued to argue in my defense as I felt humiliated noticing Arti continuing to chuckle as Ayaan took her side holding a proudy look knowing that I definitely will not show up.

Memories from the past streaming in my eyes as I began to remember how often Arti and Ayaan would spend time together at social gatherings when he was engaged to me. Often, Arti would find excuses to take Ayaan with her where likely the cheating started considering all our social circle was mutual...well I mean technically Arti and Ayaan's social circle was mutual and I was just part of it as Ayaan's fiancé...I remember I would stay back at home not wanting to go out and worried what the world may think of me...considering how I look and I am. It is just plain self esteem issues I have. I am always worried what others think of me in terms of my dressing, my figure, my features, and my personality...I am always afraid and that always prevents me from being my true self. The only person around whom I have really started showing my true personality to Shivaay because he gives me that boost of esteem that I never got from anyone.

Here Shivaay is defending me and trying to put me in better light and I am standing quietly like a loser not standing up for myself.

Do not be dumb Anika. Go on and give it back to your sister. Shivaay is right that you should let loose and prove yourself to everyone that you are not a humdrum, but a lively and vivacious 23 year old...What are you waiting for? Live your life! This is your life! Stop giving a damn what anyone thinks or says! They have no life besides talking shit and envying others...even to a point of copying them...Go on and be yourself! Be the free woman you are! Pronto! My alter ego on my shoulder speaking to me and enough to blow courage into me.

Placing my hand on sleeping Chaaya's ears, not wanting her to hear her new mother speaking in a very profane tone, I took a step forward to Arti giving her smug look. "Hey bitch! Why don't you shut that big fat mouth of yours'! Aren't you that woman who used these gatherings to lure Ayaan in?! At least I did not have the guts to do that because I have values and class. Now, you watch...I will show up tonight at that club and prove to you that I am not that boring, dull Anika, but one that can bring fire to a party and gathering! Now take this tiny butt of yours' and leave my sight!" My ego rampaging out at her spilling out the profanity and ready to take her down in any game or any challenge wanting to show her that I am in power not her...She needs to be grounded and as her older sister I will teach her a lesson and make her realize how much she has wronged me.

Arti reaching a lull with her mouth shaping a size of an oval as she appeared to be startled by my abusive words that dared to bring her sin to light and defy her judgement of me. Ayaan equally astounded trying to ensure I am the same Anika he threw out of his life like trash and did not once rebel against him.

My hand grabbing on to Shivaay's as I looked at him catching him smiling at with pride lavishing over my outburst. I slightly smiled before beginning to drag him towards the entrance as Arti began to shout behind us.

"How dare you call out my class?! What are you doing?!" She screamed after me as I reached a halt turning back towards her as Shivaay appeared to be angered wanting to speak, but I stopping him wanting to make this my fight.

"Oh acha? My class huh?...Let me show you your class!" I yelled as I held on to Chaaya tightly before blowing my spit in the air right towards her.

She shrieked taking a step back missing my spit barely as I let out a laugh and took off my purse only to slap it against her arm making her howl loudly. Ayaan completely stunned with his arm wrapping around Arti protectively.

"Ouch! How dare you hit me?!" She whined rubbing her arm that began to turn red from the blunt force of my purse.

"This is your class! You are not even worth being spit on! I am ashamed to even tell anyone that you are my sister because you do not even deserve to be called one considering what you did!" I began to yell as Chaaya started to whimper awakening from her deep sleep while Shivaay wrapped his arms around me trying to hold me back realizing that I am breaking down and am on the verge of my insanity...my literal insanity.

Arti ready to go at me as Ayaan grabbed on to her arm pulling her back not wanting to worsen the situation. "Oh you go away you crazy! You are CRAZY and everyone knows that! Now go and get dressed up and meet me at the club! I will show you who Arti Malhotra is!" Arti threatening me.

"Don't you dare call me crazy! Look at yourself first! I will see you at the club and believe me I will prove to you who Anika is! You just watch!" Screams running out of me as Chaaya began to cry loudly while I lunged to Arti and threw spit in her direction missing her once again.

"Anika! Come on let's go inside!" Shivaay taking a strong grasp of my arm beginning to drag me as tears of anger began to fall down my cheeks continuing to hold on to Chaaya.

"What is going on here?!" A perky voice erupting behind us as I turned only to see the green colored, ugly vamp arising from the gallows and making her way towards me. Her head held high showing her snubbing my presence...Falguni. The great Falguni of course would show up right at this time.

Gauri and Priyanka making their way behind Falguni as they looked at me considerable creeped out considering my hair is wildly flying up in the air as I am bloating myself in rich shades of angry red.

"This bitch has gone crazy! Remember I told you on the plane about her craziness?!" Arti spewed the insult at me as Shivaay immediately let go of my hand lunging towards Arti now fuming with anger about to rage. My hand grabbing on to his tightly trying to hold him back as his guards intervened stopping him.

"How dare you speak about my Anika in such a manner?! She is not crazy do you understand?! I will not hear your false accusations!" He screamed as Ayaan pushed Arti away to the side before taking large steps towards him appearing to gather his own temper that has been clearly boiling for a while.

Ayaan's eyes moving towards me immediately as he gave me a disgusting look with tears still holding him. Fear touching me able to read his eyes that showed a threat...the threat of unveiling my secret to Shivaay that I have not yet told him. My hand wrapping around a screaming Chaaya as I began to remember last year...when I lost myself and created my own havoc due to my insanity...How I let my mind embrace insanity...Oh no. No. Shivaay cannot find out about this in such a manner...What if he takes away my Chaaya because of mental health? No. No.NO!

"Sir before you get upset with Arti...it is best you listen to the truth! You do not know everything that happened! You do not know-" Ayaan beginning to argue as Shivaay raised his hand up in the air initiating him to stop.

"Oh please! I know everything that happened Ayaan and it is best you and your Arti keep your mouth shut! Keep your fucking mouths shut and don't fucking dare come near Anika! She does need any of you and if you all fucking dare to harm her then you will face me! I will be here to protect her! Understood?!" Shivaay beginning to rave with his voice echoing loudly through everyone with waves of shock hitting them finding themselves steamed by purgatory itself.

Ayaan appearing astonished by Shivaay's threat as he stumbled back slightly not able to reply fidning himself powerless in front of him knowing that this very man owns him and his job...That this man is just not someone with whom I...his ex-fiancee...is sleeping with, but also who is his boss.

My hand tightening on Shivaay as I tried to pull him back with a small smile touching my lips hearing his support for me...My fear running away instantly knowing that this man may just stand by me when he hears the sin I committed last year. Chaaya now wailing loudly against my neck as I tried to bounce her wanting to calm her down as I still felt my temper boil up seeing Arti who continued to look at me with dire resentment.

"Hey! Don't use this crass language on us! This tramp is completely loony! You do not even know the things she has done Shivaay! What kind of choice have you made?! How can you choose her?! Like what does she have?! This bitch is insane and mighty crazy who will drive you to the gutters! And stop getting your daughter involved!" Falguni suddenly erupting dashing towards Shivaay with her wild red hair flaring in envy as she began to spew her grounded hatred towards me.

Vile rage suddenly giving me a hit and whipping against me to incite me...My soul beginning to scream loudly to take vengeance and shut that woman up who is daring to take the one man...that one person I have at the moment to save myself. That this woman is daring to snatch away my new dream...my hope...my saving.

Suddenly I dipped down grabbing my shoe and before I knew it, I let it fly in the air towards Falguni. Shivaay immediately kicking himself away as the shoes flew past him towards Flaguni who screamed loudly. Priyanka pulling Falguni away with the shoe barely missing her.

Shivaay's jaw dropping as he looked towards me appalled by my behavior looking at me up and down as I stood my ground now purely enraged. My body continuing to shake violently as I held on to a crying Chaaya before swinging my purse in the air towards Falguni. Shivaay's hands immediately grabbing my waist as I began to scream with my feet kicking up in the air.

"Anika stop! Shit! Stop it! Calm down!" Shivaay ordering me as I continued to scream trying to lunge at Falguni who began to curse back at me.

"Shut up you piece of crap! Don't you dare take Shivaay away from me! I am warning you! I will bring your worst! Right now I just threw my shoe at you, but I can do worse! Who are you?! If you think you have money then you can get anything! Well you cannot! You have met Anika Malhotra and this bitch will not let you live if you dare to take away something she owns! You worthless shit! Look at yourself first! There is nothing to look and dote upon! Your soul is so ugly! I know you are trying to take my Shivaay...but I will not allow you to! Stay away from my man!" I began to warn at her as she began to pounce her feet towards me before Gauri grabbed her pushing her away from me.

Shivaay suddenly erupting in laughter hearing my insults towards Falguni loving every bit of it as he wrapped his arm around me trying to pull me away from the others. His lips taking a hold of my cheeks trying to kiss away my anger while I continued to smoke with toxic bitterness wanting to claw that tramp out.

"Anika what has gotten into you?! Stop behaving in such a manner! You are not like this!" Gauri reprimanding me trying to pull me out of fury, but utterly failing as I began to tremble with tears continuing to fall down my cheeks finding a sense of weakness reaching me and memories of my heartbreak swinging in front of me...reminding me of the family I have been part of...how my parents did not once care about me and signed Arti off with Ayaan...how Ayaan and Arti fooled me...and then how now I finally am finding my happiness and this Falguni shows up to ruin it.

"What has gotten in me?! Gauri you tell me! How would you feel if someone broke your trust and took away your fucking dreams like this Arti did to me?! And now this tramp Falguni showed out of nowhere when I finally am happy with someone new in my life!" I continued to weep loudly as Shivaay wrapped his arms around me and Chaaya trying to comfort the both of us. His arm supporting Chaaya who is wailing just like me somewhere able to feel the agony that swifts within me.

Gauri's gaze lowering finding herself unable to defend her statement realizing that I am right and that she also would behave the same way just like I am. Silence hitting everyone as they continued to look at Shivaay and I observing his arms tightly holding on to me as I continued to weep against his chest ready to face my fall and barely holding on for his sake and Chaaya's sake.

"Anika let's go now...They do not deserve our attention...and I am only yours' alright? I am no one else's, but yours'," Shivaay declaring loudly as he looked back towards Falguni and the rest. His voice echoing loudly and drumming into all of them inciting a sudden fire into all of them and drawing a boundary between them and us...Without any shame, he held pride in voice letting everyone know that I am now claimed by him and he is by me.

My eyes lifting up meeting us as he gave me an assuring smile before kissing my temple. A weak smile touching my lips hearing his words finding relief that he is not even daring to think of Falguni, but only keeping me in his heart....A sense of confidence latching on to me as I looked back towards Falguni and the rest realizing they all now officially know that Shivaay and I are in a relationship...and that he is mine...and I am his.

Falguni reaching a standstill as her eyes held a set of tears finding herself unable to accept that Shivaay is degrading her presence and embracing me...accepting me and taking me in as his partner not her. Ayaan becoming pale as if death itself is dancing in front of him seen in how the last chord of our relationship may now just be snapped and this time by me...This time I have cut the chord because now I know that I have been crying tears over the wrong man all this time...that destiny had someone else who is much better in store for me and that is my Shivaay.

Arti letting out a sinister laugh as she shook her head looking at me in Shivaay's arms finding herself consumed with mania seen in the veins of her neck popping out only to burst blood on to her eyes that filled themselves with pure fire.

"Wow! What are you Anika?! Seriously?! You seduced our father's boss! I mean...you have no shame! Not an ounce?!...He is so much older than you! More than that, you don't feel any regret in romancing him in such a public manner?!" Arti screaming as I roared immediately grabbing my second shoe and throwing it towards her.

The shoe flying and flipping itself before smacking Arti right in her head. A loud howl erupting from her as Ayaan grabbed her to stop her from falling.

Shivaay beginning to grunt immediately turning about to go after her as I grabbed his arm pulling him back knowing matters will now only get worst.

"Leave it, I already smacked her," I ordered him as he let out a smirk looking at me liking my action and somehow admiring it.

"How dare you hit me you hex?!" Arti yelling at me as I let my tears roll by feeling the last stitches on my wounds ripping themselves apart and now exposing the injuries that my own sister caused to me by taking away the one man that I dared to love...Ayaan.

"Because you earned it! This is your class! Don't try to shame me alright?! Look at yourself first and remind yourself what you did to me! Now just go away alright?! I will see you at the club tonight and prove to you that I can be life of the party!" I threatened her as Shivaay began to push me back knowing my anger is again blowing itself out and urging me to harm Arti once again.

"Oh try to win the dance competition tonight and then we will see! There is a couple's competition at the club! I dare you to win that!" Arti throwing her challenge at me as my thoughts halted for a moment with a some fear impinging on to me reminding me the horrible dancer I am.

"Say yes! Take the challenge Anika!" Shivaay ordering me as he leaned against my ear. His eyes showing a certain sense of confidence as if he can lead us to a win in this competition...His voice giving me some strength and inciting my spirits.

My eyes darting to Arti seeing her giving me a badgering smile knowing the poor dancer I am...feeding her already inflated ego that she can beat me to this as she is a professional and I barely can move my feet at a song. Damn it.

No Anika. Everyone is going to laugh at you if you back out. The way you just have portrayed yourself as brave and fierce now requires you to take this challenge without any fear.

"Fine bitch, I will win tonight! I will prove to you that I am better than you!" I called out spitting towards her before Arti took a step forward wanting to drag her nails on me. Shivaay sighing wrapping his arm around my waist beginning to drag me towards the entrance of the resort.

"I did not pay your hotel room bill you tramp! Go and pay it with the little money you have!" Arti calling after me letting out a vainful laugh as I turned towards her flipping her off with my middle finger.

"Let's go!" Shivaay commanding me taking my hand and forcing me up the large steps to the resort and into the main entrance.

My bare feet slipping slightly against the floor as I began to cry while Chaaya screamed loudly wailing in tears finding herself in fear from all the chaos that ensured around her Wrapping my hands tightly around her, I buried my lips in her shoulder feeling ashamed that I am the cause of her tears due to my outrage that I just have displayed towards my sister and everyone else.

God...that was so embarrassing. I cannot believe I just did that. What has gotten into me? I did take my medication today, so why did my mood swing so much and so fast. I did not even once think I am holding Chaaya before bursting out my anger and raging in front of her.

What is worst is that I cannot believe my own sister would dare to disrespect me in such an awful manner before everyone else. Is it wrong to be in a relationship? What crime have I done by being with Shivaay? She did worst by starting an affair with my then fiancé Ayaan...She has done worst and here apparently I have fallen low by steaming it up with Shivaay since he is their boss....Who the fuck cares? And that Falguni....God, she has wrong intentions and now somehow she has found out about what happened last year reflected in her words...God, what am I going to do once Shivaay finds out? What will I do?...How should I tell him before someone else does?

"Anika what just got into you? Are you alright? That was a different level of anger," Shivaay talking in a low voice wrapping her arm around me as I began to kiss Chaaya's tears away feeling like a foul monster.

"I am so sorry meri jaan. I am so sorry Chaaya...Please forgive me," I blubbered to her as she continued to cry latching on to me tightly not wanting to let go unaware that I am the cause of her tears.

Shivaay taking a deep breath trying to maintain his cool in this situation as he looked at the both of us who continued to cry. His hand rubbing my back as he pulled the both of us into a hug wrapping his arms around us. His lips lowering on to my temple where he began to lay brisk, healing kisses trying to drink my anger away.

My eyes closing shut finding the warmth of his arms smoothening with my anger giving up on its life and serenity climbing up to me wanting to put me back to my true nature. It feels right to be in his arms right and it feels as if I have my entire life right in this moment in the form of him and Chaaya....enough to give me peace and pull me out of my insanity...my cruel, vicious insanity that has taken control of me since the past year...an insanity that hides within me, but has slaugthered ever piece of me...forcing on a troubling, horrific mood that makes me lose my senses and myself.

Continuing to tremble, I ran my hand through Chaaya's hair finding her also calming down in the both of our arms knowing she is safe. Solace wrapping around us while he held me letting me know that he is here for me.

"Relax Anika...just relax. I understand it must be painful to go through all of this and see Arti with Ayaan. I get it. I understand that you still have grudges and it is absolutely justified to feel this way. They are not worth it, but I am so proud you are giving it back to them and you should. But, while doing this do not hurt yourself. I hate seeing you in tears...When you cry it feels as if they are burning on to me and I just feel tormented by them. I feel the need to avenge every person who is the cause of your tears because after all they are precious. Do not ruin yourself because of them...they are low lives. Once you gain it big in life, you will look back and be like why you were wasting your time on these wild clowns," He consoled me as I let out a laugh hearing his last word imagining Arti and Ayaan as circus clowns knowing that somewhere they truly are one.

A smile touching my lips feeling my heart continuing to bounce up and down finding itself relieved that it is not alone, but it too has a mate who will ensure it is never hurt and always protected. That this heart is now in the safety of a right man who will never break it, but only empower it.

"And wow...I loved the way you cussed out that Falguni. Honestly, I somewhat was a little afraid how you would stand up to an annoying persona like hers' and damn you impressed me. You are a complex woman with many shades...and so far I love all of them..." Shivaay letting out a chuckle as my smile widened hearing his compliment liking that he is not one bit supporting his ex, but in fact relishing over her insult that I have given.

"And I liked how you told everyone about us...at the right time to ensure that Falguni does not get wrong ideas. I liked how you bravely admitted about our relationship," I spoke feeling slightly shy admitting that somewhere I like how we are not a secret, but now everyone's guilt pleasure and envy...They hate us, yet, they love the mystery of our relationship.

Our eyes meeting each other as he instantly smiled seeing mine knowing that I am back to the old Anika who he has chosen for himself. His hand wrapping to the back of my hair as he pulled me closer laying another simple, fond kiss on my forehead.

"I have no shame in claiming you as mine, but instead I feel proud to introduce you as the woman I have chosen to be mine. Elegant, poised, and full of dignity, but one who always fights back with such level of courage...I will always ensure everyone knows about our relationship because I want to tell everyone that I have found the ideal," He boasted as he gave me a grin as I let out a giggle continuing to treasure every piece of his line and engraving it on my wounds letting them know that now they shall recoil and vanish...because they are not my friends anymore...I have found a man who will now drink away my injuries and fill in only ecstasy in me.

No words spoken as he slid his fingers into the gaps of mine entwining our hands together allowing the pulse of our hearts merging into one letting me know that he will always stand by me. Lowering his lips, he placed them on Chaaya's head as well giving her a kiss as she slightly smiled with her tears now all the way gone.

Leading our way to the large front desk of the resort, Shivaay began to check in as I looked around staring at the grand glass ceiling above us from where the sunlight covered with palm trees above us as many staircases with many floors wrapped around us going to the peak of the triangular ceiling. Guests continuing to run through the many hallways above us as I slightly smiled looking at the tranquil ocean before us seen right down the beach leading from the resort.

"Yes she is Anika Malhotra..." Shivaay gesturing to me as he got his credit card out. My hand immediately trying to grab it knowing that he is paying for my hotel room. Shivaay snatching it away and handing it off to the receptionist as he smiled pulling me into a hug once again.

"You do not have to pay for me. I have cash," I spoke to him as he chuckled kissing my cheek once more.

"But now you are my responsibility Anika," He intervened as the receptionist handed us off our cards leading me off to the large set of elevators as his guards and Athiya followed behind us. My eyes wandering back to the distance seeing Arti stumbling her way in with Ayaan appearing to argue with him.

Shaking them off knowing they are just clowns, I made my way towards the elevator as Shivaay grabbed our luggage from the guards.

"Okay you all can go to your rooms and rest for now. But, be here in the hotel lobby in a bout three hours," Shivaay speaking to the guards as the nodded not once disagreeing with him.

"Anika, hand over Chaaya to Athiya please. She will take care of her," Shivaay ordering me as I slightly froze finding a need to not let go of Chaaya while holding her closely to my bosom.

Shivaay gesturing me with his eyes to give Chaaya up as I lowered my gaze looking at her who appeared to get sleepy once again not moving once continuing to chew on the strap of my dress instinctively. She is at complete peace that I can tell and I just not want to leave her. To know that this gift from divine is now going to be mine feels as if I for once am blessed...She is hope to me. She gives me hope that the divine truly wants me to be on this Earth for her sake.

"Shivaay we can give her to Athiya later. Let's not disturb her sleep...She already is jetlagged from all the flying," I attempted to convince him as he sighed looking at his daughter knowing that indeed she is a third wheeler. Relentlessly, he thought about my request before agreeing and leading me into the elevator.

"Athiya you can go rest in your room and I will call you later to get Chaaya from us," Shivaay called out to her as I smiled leaned my head on his shoulder seeing the elevator doors close.

Shivaay wrapping his arm around me once again as I felt sleep also overcoming me finding myself tired from the flight. My eyes looking at my card realizing my floor is almost about to come as I leaned over wanting to press the button, but only for Shivaay to slap it away.

"Hey! My floor is coming!" I argued wanting to press the button as he pulled me back wrapping me into a bear hug with his lips now leaving lustrous, appeasing kisses on the nape of my neck making me giggle.

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Chaaya keeping her silence clearly now in dreamworld as Shivaay continued to kiss my shoulder letting his fingers linger on the strap of my dress wanting to lure me into another session.

"No, you are coming with me. Remember you promised me that you will spend all your time in a hotel room here in Goa with me and that is the only reason I agreed to come. Now, you must fulfill that promise babe," He held seduction in voice as I giggled feeling his beard tickle my neck.

"What if someone finds out Shivaay? We will be in trouble," I replied feeling disappointment knowing that indeed considering our families will be residing in this very resort.

Shivaay letting out a laugh as he tightened his grasp around my waist. "No I already found out and they are on the other floors. I especially booked a grand suite...the best one in this resort for the both of us where we have many places to find and explore each other...Now stop arguing and don't ruin my mood. Chaaya is asleep thankfully and now let's just have fun," He ogled running flirtation all over me as I began to laugh hearing his well thought out plan before lifting my head up and pressing my lips gently against his giving him small, affectionate kiss.

The elevator doors sliding up to the top floor as Shivaay grabbed my hand excitedly dragging our luggage out and quickly beginning to make his way down the hallway searching for our room. Laughs erupting from me as I followed him down the empty hallways looking out through the windows lining the walls seeing the beautiful ocean beyond the scenery with an outdoor large pool area and bar many floors down. A sense of freedom felt in the ocean breezes making their way through some of the open windows as I smelled it feeling relaxed before making my way down.

Our feet quickening their pace finding our room at the end of the dark hallway away from the others indicating the privacy it offered. Smart Shivaay. Very smart. This man clearly plans out everything beforehand to ensure all his motives succeed unlike I who plans last minute all the time.

Scanning his card, he opened the double doors for me as I slowly made my way in feeling slightly jittery with excitement.

My smile widening seeing the large creame painted room with sunlight flowing in at every corner as grand windows scaled up to the high maroon painted ceiling revealing a perfect oceanview. Running my hands against the sofas encircling the entranceway, I peered out the window liking the palm trees swaying in the wind with the light blue ocean waves crashing below reminding me of California.

"Goa is indeed beautiful...It feels so peaceful here you know? It has been long since I have felt this close to paradise," I gleaned with a smile as I looked back at Shivaay who locked the door shut before making his way towards me.

His hands sliding against my waist allowing them to linger in the chiffon cloth of my dress inciting a giggle from me. His chin resting on my shoulder as he dipped his rugged lips into my neck leaving fierce, seductive kisses sending heat down my skin turning me bright red.

"I already have found my paradise...in you..." He whispered against my ear enough to incite a blush from me as my smile widened before pulling a sleeping Chaaya closer feeling utterly shy in his presence...for some odd reason he is taking a narcotic effect on me...his words enough to consume me and incite many heartbeats.

"Goa is reminding me of home Shivaay...I miss Cali Shivaay! I cannot wait to go back home," I declared to him reminiscing my home state as I looked out eh window continuing to admire the ocean waves that starked in the background with the sunlight falling upon it.

"Same I cannot wait to go back to California to our home." His lines emphasizing "our" as I gave him a shy smile remembering that indeed once we go back to the U.S., we both are going to make our home with only him, Chaaya, and I.

Lifting my gaze, I looked up at him observing his simple smile that held many hopes for our future ahead together. His hands pulling me closer against his chest as he leaned down taking a hold of my lips softly leaving his passionate promise of giving us a home.

"What kind of home do you want in California? Hills or beach?" He questioned randomly as I raised my eyebrow in confusion looking at him caught off guard. Knocking my mind, I pondered over the question trying to think of the type of home we three should live in where we could only get stronger and find our calm in.

My mind wandering to my fantasies that I have woven for long on the type of home I have always wanted and the life in it...Fantasies I have made since young, but burying them knowing Ayaan would never fulfill them considering he has always been the opposite....but maybe my Shivaay will. Maybe he will listen to me.

Biting my lip, I leaned over kissing his cheek slowly only for his smile to widen and hit his lips liking the introduction to our dream. My eyes lowering to my sleeping Chaaya who grasped tightly on to my dress before burying her head in my bosom finding warmth in my embrace...my dreams coming to my tongue as I began to speak of it.

"Hmmm...I think maybe hills? A nice single road going to our home at the end of the forest with a big yard in the front full of greenery, fruit trees, and many flowers...where our Chaaya can play and have fun while I will wait for you to come home...I will sit right by the gate waiting for you with Chaaya and then I will give you a kiss of hello and take you inside into our large, big home that is still cozy and warm. Then we three will have dinner where I will listen to your stressful day at work, but also talk about what I did and what our little Chaaya did as well. Then we three will spend time together watching a show and play with Chaaya...and then night will come. We will read a story to our little baby girl and then put her to sleep...an then-" My voice halting as I bit my tongue finding demure touching me knowing what I was going to speak next.

Shivaay immediately coming into my sight as he turned me around making me look into his eyes only to reveal a teasing smile. "Then what? What will we two do?" He questioned in a husky voice ready to play with a dirty thought.

My eyes lowering as I began to nervously giggle with my stomach flip flopping finding myself in dire embarrassment over what I am thinking about what we would do alone at night. "Well...um...we can just go to sleep then. I will write my poems and you can do whatever work you have and then we will sleep...Our Chaaya will be right in the middle between us because how can I put her away right? She will be right between us where we can snuggle her...and coo over her...My cutie Chaaya," I faked a tease towards him knowing on how to crunch his dreams wanting to mock him.

My hand brushing against Chaaya's cheek as I showed her off to Shivaay. Shivaay's smile falling flat appearing to frown and hating my idea to pieces while seeing the death of wild imagination of what we would do together.

"Really? Are you serious? Chaaya is going to third wheel us even at night? Why?! Would you have not had enough of her woman by being with her all day that you have planned out to make her sleep between us?! Why?!" He began to exclaim with his hands grabbing hold of his head as he began to shake it back and forth horrified knowing that he might just be deprived of pleasure almost every night.

Laughter erupting from me as I stared at his misery liking how I have fooled him cleverly as I began to whistle while bouncing Chaaya up and down who continued to sleep unaware of the shockwaves she is inadvertently inciting in her father.

"Relax Shivaay! I am just joking!" I exclaimed slapping his chest as he began to take deep breaths trying to purge himself out of the thought while continuing to grunt. My hand ruffling his hair as I tried to calm him continuing to giggle as he huffed hating how he has been fooled.

"Don't worry...I have many plans about the two of us...alone for many hours at night. I will give special attention to you during the night and only you," I held seduction in my voice grasping on to his shirt pulling him closer forcing him to look into my eyes and let go of his useless frustration.

My idea consoling him slightly as he formed an impish smile on his lips with wicked thoughts running in his blue eyes knowing that I am not lying. "You better or I have to use mine.." He hissed beginning to lean in down towards my lips continuing to blow heat upon it as I giggled pushing him away gently.

Holding on to Chaaya, I made my way from the living area into the large bedroom only to see rich shades of creamy white merging with maroon on the ceiling.

A king sized creame and sea blue colored canopy bed sitting right in the middle with sunlight shining brightly on it giving it a lively feel. Moving towards the center of the bed, I picked up the red fabric colored pillows before leaning down and lowering a sleeping Chaaya between them ensuring she would not wake up again. Her tiny fingers still holding on to the strap of my dress not wanting to let go as I giggled looking at chubby cheeks puffing out as she lightly snored with her mouth opening up slightly drooling.

"She is just a gem Shivaay. Look at her sleeping like this...the most beautiful treasure I have seen," I complimented her continuing to kiss her cheeks softly as she slightly yawned before snoring once again barely letting go of my strap. Picking up my feet on to the bed, I laid down next to her patting her belly while admiring her.

Shivaay smiling looking at Chaaya adoring her sleeping face as he leaned over me before collapsing on to the bed and immediately wrapping his hands around my waist pulling me into his chest.

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A yelp erupting form me as I began to laugh feeling his fingers lunge down my bare thigh before slipping them underneath my dress. "Now admire me! Do not give her all of the attention!" Shivaay pretended to be angry with his lips grasping on to my neck as I giggled wanting him to let go. Without any shame, he began to leave tiny, emphatic kisses on my neck with his lips dipping down on to my shoulders before letting their heat crawl up to me neck as I tried to escape his grasp knowing this is not the time to do the deed.

"Shivaay stop! Chaaya is here!" I whispered back to him as Shivaay groaned immediately jumping over me and trapping me between his arms.

He chewed on his lips violently while scorning my thought as I continued to laugh seeing desperation written all over his face right on the verge of losing himself to me. My hands tracing up his chest before wrapping them around his neck while he continued to heave with his fingers continuing to lift up my dress. His lips lowering and without a warning taking mine in as I giggled replying back to the kiss instantly. Diving into fierceness, our lips began to rip into warm blooded, hasty kisses with moans erupting from me as our tongues collided with his hands beginning to penetrate against my waist. His lips teasing me lengthening every kiss while selfishly biting into my ripe flavors that juiced out of my mouth while I tried to increase the pace. Loud, vuloptous kisses taking course between us as I entwined my legs into his continuing to pace myself against him pulling on to his shirt while he pressed himself against me.

Feeling breathless, we let go of each other as he let his lips dip on to my neck leaving sudden, reckless kisses on it with his teeth sinking in leaving small bites. My hands wrapping around his back pulling him in closely as he continued to claim my flesh.

"Shivaay...Chaaya is here...we cannot..." My voice barely breaking through continuing to pant as Shivaay let his lips roam my cheeks where he continued to press his lips taking a taste of their softness not wanting to leave a spot that did not have his kiss.

"Let's go to the shower then. She can...sleep here..." He introduced the idea making me blush as I giggled shaking my head not agreeing with his idea knowing it is wrong.

"No Shivaay...it's not right to leave her alone...let's stop now..." I noted as he groaned pulling me in closely as I continued to laugh patting his back.

"There there...you should be lucky we have one...think about if we have more," I played with the thought as he chuckled before we heard a loud cry next to us.

My hands immediately pushing Shivaay away as I turned towards Chaaya wrapping my arm around her while she let out another small cry barely opening her eyes. Shivaay collapsing behind me in defeat as I looked back laughing at him seeing him completely red indicative that he definitely is in the mood of lovemaking, but clearly know he is not getting anything form me.

"Go to sleep now...I am right here I promise..." I continued to pat her belly as she smiled with her eyes almost closing once again finding sleep taking over her.

"I think she is mocking me with that smile of hers'," Shivaay proclaiming his delusion as he lifted himself next to me while I laughed at him looking back at Chaaya who began to snore now.

"I cannot believe she is third wheeling us on this trip...Never would I have thought...What hopes I had and what is happening...I thought of romance and now here we are laying at bed with a baby," He drowned himself in his broken dreams as he wrapped his arm around me with his hand falling on top of Chaaya.

Rolling my eyes, I kissed his cheek as he gave me a miserable smile while I giggled looking back at our Chaaya. "Look at her Shivaay...she is never going to be third wheel...She is the center of our world and will always be. My heart tells me that is the thread that will join us and give us our forever never allowing us to part. She has been sent from the divine to save us and believe me she is the reason why we continued to breathe and desire to live...because the divine has chosen us to care for her...and now we must do such," My voice entering a trance as I looked at her finding my thoughts drowning on to her features feeling as if I have seen them before....long before, but not able to remember where.

I just feel an attachment to this child and I do not know why. It just feels as if she is mine...a part of me and I do not know why. When I do not see her, I get restless and the moment I have her in my arms, I feel as if I am complete. It feels right to give her motherly love and its feels right to nurture her and introduce her to life...I love her and it feels odd to want to be a mother to a child I have just met, but this baby has won my heart and I do not know why, but what I do know is that I truly want to take up her responsibility.

His hand sliding down my waist as he kissed my temple before closing his eyes and burying his lips in my shoulder.

"I know...She is beautiful. I just like to tease her, but she truly is precious as you say. You know this is the first time I am watching her sleep in such peace not once shedding a tear. Ever since she was born...she lost both of her parents and now she only has me...well he only had me until you came. And now I feel so relieved...that my Chaaya has a mother figure in her life. To see you putting her above me and nurturing her selflessly...making her smile...laugh...and showing her life just makes me thankful that God has sent you not only for me, but my daughter...and thank you for that..." His lines shooting up to my soul that found itself tremble considering it is a stranger to compliments as I turned looking at him giving him a delicate smile before entwining my hand into his.

To hear him accepting me as Chaaya's guardian is enough to let me know the respectable and honorable position he wants to give me in his life. Some positions can be labeled as wife or girlfriend...and others remain nameless, but have a sense of dignity to them perhaps more than the labeled ones. Under labeled relationships, we are forced to follow particular rules and perform duties, such as being a wife only to bear your husband's heirs...Women can be coerced into motherhood who are put under these named bonds...And then there are women like me who do not search for relationships with names, but relationships that give them esteem in life regardless of the labels they carry if they do at all. Women like I have small dreams, but ones that are enough to fulfill us...My smallest dream has always been to be a mother to a beautiful child and people will laugh and ask why are you not dreaming of a career or an education...Well I am. I do want a career and further my education, but I also desire a personal need and want to raise another life and to see a man giving me my dream in such an honored way by allowing me to raise his child...is perfect and makes me thankful to God that he is saving me...One year ago, I was in my worst place...I was the worst and I was not myself. That is another story to tell, but I was not myself and I needed hope and finally I have found hope in Shivaay and Chaaya.

Shivaay smiling as he pulled the covers placing it over the three of us before wrapping his arm around me. Lifting myself up, I picked up Chaaya before placing her carefully on my bosom wanting her to hear my heartbeats letting her know that now she is under my shadow.

Shivaay's hand wrapping around Chaaya's head as I placed my hand on top of his with the sun lifting its way through the sheer white curtains and falling on the both of us indicating as if divine fate itself is blessing us and telling us that this is the path it is choosing for us...a path to the most unusual, peculiar family and home that we three want to build together.

Tears touching my eyes as I exchanged a smile with Shivaay as the three of us laid together finding solace. A taste of Paradise embracing us as after long the three of us are finding healing from our wounds. Shivaay lifting his lips up kissing my tears away before pulling the two us closer into his arms wanting to protect us not wanting any harm to come by.

Silence. That is the conversation Shivaay and I can always easily have. It is odd, but our silence is often enough to let each other know that no matter what we both will always stand by each other and never let go...We will be that couple who will get judged and ridiculed...who will be challenged by society...who will take many paths full of thorns and ashes...but we will always be that couple who survives the worst and becomes their best. We both are flawed and that is a fact, but this is what pulls us together and allows us to heal each other...and healing is what we both need the most. People may call him a sadist and dark and people may call me lunatic who is weak and fragile, but I do not think that. When the windows are closed and the curtains are drawn, he is the most passionate, loving, and considerate man to me...He gives me esteem back...He heals me slowly with his loving kisses and embraces...He keeps his simplicity in his words that are enough to light me up...And I...I for once become brave and courageous. I find strength within myself...And I stand up for myself in moments like now when I stood up to my sister. He is perfect for me because he accepts me at my worst and adds beauty to my best.

My eyes holding Shivaay as his eyes began to close while our hands laid entwined on top of Chaaya ensuring ourselves she will not part from us. Weakly smiling, I closed my eyes shut only only to fall into sleep finding myself at peace after long.

Shivaay's Point of View

Her heartbeats merging on to mine as I felt them lightly dig themselves on to mine forcing my heart to open and accept her innocence in the wicked apathy it always has soaked itself in. Our hands continuing to entwine as we formed a fragile barrier around the precious life that we hold dearly to our souls ensuring she never parts from us.

Slightly opening my eyes, I lowered my gaze only to find immediate solace knowing that the two people I am now coming to value the most more than myself are here laying in my arms not daring to leave me, but only wanting to embrace me despite the cruelty...the wounds...the sins that I myself carry in secret within me.

A small smile touching my lips looking at Anika and reveling in her raw beauty that she ensembles upon herself without any awareness to it...How her beauty is not only portrayed in her soft full lips that only speak love to her chocolate brown eyes that have hints of hazel them where she captures the entire universe's ecstasy not its infamy... t...Her beauty lays in how she is that innocent treasure that I have always desired to have...Free of ills...Free of sin...Free of the vicious beasts that lurk around us. She only loves with selfless intentions. She only desires on the surface with naivity. She rages without thinking because she is pure.

But what is most important is that she is willing to be a mother to Chaaya while not forcing me into a relationship. Her beauty is in how she lays here enfolding my daughter into her heart and making it hers' wanting to be her mother and now being her mother not once faltering from it.

It took me months to years to find the right woman and now thankfully due to God, I have found her. She is the one I have been searching for long in almost in every corner wanting to fulfill the unusual desire I have formed on the type of future I want...a future where I can continue to stand by my beliefs while also giving my Chaaya a family that she needs.

I needed a woman like Anika who is on the same page and belief system as me and thankfully she is...The past has taught me that there is no thing love besides it being an illusion...That love does not exist in any shape or form....The relationships that society forces upon us in name of love is false and complete myth that I have witnessed with my own eyes. I have witnessed and experienced myself that love is a lie in the form of my mother...My mother who gave birth to me forsake me to a heinous deed...She ruined my teen years with doing the worst atrocity...an atrocity that has brought me down to the deepest, purgatory gutters from where I can never rise...My flesh slowly crawling up with a repulsive shake running down my body reminding me of those years when due to my mother my worst came...A memory that even I do not want to touch.

It is best I do not even look at that memory. I do not! I must not!

What is important is that I have found a woman who will give me the home that I have come to desire to build. A home that is free of relationships that cause suffocation and death and misery...A home where only our selfish needs will be pleased while we find healing. A home where I can come to and know that I have two people in it whom I can trust and who will stand by me and support me...A home that I can call my own.

Lifting my eyes up, I looked at open skies outside of the windows trying to search for my own my blood...my brother.

Rudra I have fulfilled my promise to you. You said you wanted a mother for Chaaya well look I have found a mother for her...She will love your Chaaya and give her everything even her own happiness...Look at how she is holding her dearly without any selfish need....Look at how she wants to be a mother by choice to Chaaya...I know Rudra that Anika will be the perfect mother who will give Chaaya the values, the character, and the courage to be a true woman...to be an Oberoi...that even we could not be due to our poor upbringing. I know maybe you would have desired me to marry this woman, but I am hopeless Rudra...I cannot marry. I just cannot...I do not believe in this and you know best why I do not. So forgive me, but this is all I can do.

Holding tears in my eyes, I slowly raised myself up carefully lifting my arm from underneath Anika's neck as I slightly smiled looking at her and Chaaya cozied up together. Both of them puffing their cheeks out lightly snoring while letting drool drag themselves out...Pure innocence and naivity painting both of them as they found comfort in each other...And this is the home I always wanted and thank God I finally am going to build it.

Grabbing the laptop bag from the floor, I made my way towards the small living area only to hear a loud knock on the door. Sighing, I placed my laptop on the table before making my way towards the door only to open it and see room service.

"Hello welcome to Paradise Resort. We have brought our complimentary snacks as a means to welcome you," The woman speaking as I weakly smiled looking at the cart of food filled with different fruits, chocolates, and other desserts on it.

"Thank you, please do bring them in," I spoke opening the door and letting her in as she placed the cart before grabbing a tip from me and walking out the door.

"My my...never would I have thought that we both would end up with rooms so close on the same floor," The snarky, wayward voice erupting from behind me as I turned only to see Falguni standing right in front of me.

There she is...The viceful, vindicative woman who once dared to ruin my empire...my reputation...and even me in her greedy, selfish and narcissistic way. This woman who dared to question my authority and through dirt on me to claim her minute of fame for her business.

Anger felt crawling itself up into me and dragging down on to my flesh as I clenched my fists finding injuries inflicted by her felt in a stinging tone within me. Slamming my hand against the door, I took a step out towards her ready to claw her down remembering the blatant insults she dared to throw at my Anika outside of the resort.

"Long time no see Shivaay...at last we finally get to meet alone without that little toy of yours' that you have found," She noted casually giving me a smirk before tracing her hand down her cleavage trying to lure me in as I looked away disgusted knowing I dared to once touch her.

Collapsing against the wall, I clawed my hands against the wall finding them flushing red with a sudden raving and urgent need within me to slash her ego and burn it....to lash on her and ensure that not once she dares to speak ill of my Anika.

"Shut up! Anika is not my toy! Did you not hear outside?! She is mine now and only mine! This time it is different....Anika for me is completely different and at a higher level compared to you and rest of the women I have been with...We are different...our relationship is unique...and now I want you to stay away from me and her! Do whatever shit you want to do on this trip, but stay away from my girl!" Screams lunging themselves out of me towards her as she slightly shook before stumbling back on to hold the wall behind her.

Fear hinted in her eyes. But she kept a vainful smile flashing her off her green eyes towards me.

"Oh please, you and committing to a girl will be joke of the century. No way is that girl your ideal and you do not have one if I think about it. You just like fucking women and that is all! She is no different in this matter. You will get bored and then leave her!..." She spat back in her conceited tone before taking a step forward trying to place her hand on my arm only for me to snatch it away and throw it back towards her.

"Do not touch me! Don't you dare come close to me! I do not want to do anything with you, so go away! Just leave!" I ordered grabbing on to the door behind me ready to go into my room only for her to grab my arm and pull me towards her.

"Shivaay we are meant to be together! Not Anika and you! You and I are end game...Look I know I messed up by leaking to the media about your anger issues and the cheating, but I was mad and upset over what you did! Alright?! So can we just forget and try to work on our relationship....I mean our families were considering our marriage at one point and I totally want that now. I have not found a man like you after we broke up-" She began to run her crocodile tears down her cheeks pretending to proclaim her false feelings for me.

"Marriage?! You! I will never marry a woman like you who ruined my reputation and even almost my entire empire!...You and I getting married?! What the fuck?! I will never marry a woman like you or anyone...You knew what I wanted!...I wanted you to not only accept me, but also Chaaya and you did not! You were the worst...You are nothing like Anika and to be honest I was looking for a woman like Anika and thank God I have found her!" My temper rampaging and salvaging itself within me as I began to blow up in heat continuing to turn red finding my skin raise itself up not wanting any association with the woman in front knowing how she has wronged me....How she spilled our dirty laundry in the media...How she challenged me...How she dared to blackmail me into marrying her by threatening to leak our relationship's dirt to the media and I denying it leading her to leak it and put it out in the press while also getting publicity for diamond jewelry line.

"Oh really?! What you demanded from me was absolutely disgusting! I do not indulge in such practices of sexual pleasure and more than that it was the most absurd relationship you were demanding from me....More than that, why would I care for Chaaya? She is your niece not your daughter! You could easily get away by putting her with a nanny and then boarding, so why did you want these expectations from me?! No woman would do such. No woman...and that Anika appears as an ideal, but she is not! She is crazy! She is mental!" Falguni's voice beginning to echo loudly in the hallway as guests soon began to peak out of their rooms looking out towards her.

Her gut twisting words slaughtering into me and putting a wedge into me trying to inset her deadly poison that only brings death to one's wants and life to her needs. My temper now folding on to itself only to ramble and tremble more igniting many wild sparks of my own venom that I want to spew on her.

"You have no right to tell me how to raise my Chaaya and who and what Anika is! This is my life not yours' and I know exactly what I am doing....Shivaay Singh Oberoi never misjudges anyone and he is the one who controls fate besides God. I have made my choice and now that is what I will adhere to. I have chosen Anika and this is my final decision...So now go the fuck away because I do not want to see you and your ugly face," I spewed right at her inciting a loud growl from her as she slammed her hands against the wall wanting to plunge her nails to me, but failing to as I grabbed the door behind me only to enter and slam it shut knowing that woman is not worth any explanations or even my time.

My feet hitting the ground loudly as I collapsed into the single sofa chair and grabbed my laptop quickly beginning to open the document that I have to memorize tonight before going out with Anika to the nightclub. It is essential I win Anika's heart tonight at the club whether by hook or crook. I have to ensure her commitment and not allow her to back off. She cannot back off now. I will not allow her to.

Letting my eyes wander, I looked towards the bedroom seeing her sound asleep. Her curves snaking across the silky sheets as she held small lovebites that canvased on her skin showing my marks where I claimed her. Her unjaded soul enough to enhance her allure and spark off a desire to introduce her to a realm of dominant lovemaking that I often feed myself in and want to with her...A realm that very few women have agreed to enter with me and if they did only once...But Anika I can see is one who willingly wants to see this realm which she herself has proclaimed many times to me. She is the one I have been looking for....Innocent, simple, and one who is homely, yet, has her own independence and her own ways of life along with sensuality.

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Looking back at my laptop, I lent a smirk staring at the document that holds all of Anika's secrets. Her photos from the recent months making their way on every page from her lingering at the coffee shop to grocery sprees and then even her home. My hand scrolling down the page as I read her hobbies and her interests that I had been sent to me by assistant last month before the wedding festivities had begun. Anika...you thought I just met you, but how would you know that you and others are ones' I have been searching for a long time.

Name: Anika Malhotra

Age: 23

Weight: 145 lb.

Height: 5 feet 6 inches.

Birthmarks: One on her ribcage and one on spine.

Education: University of California with B.A. in Cell Biology and minor in History.

GPA: 3.3

Hobbies: Writing, singing, gardening, and painting. She has a deep knack for reading history books and loves to discuss historical subjects.

Interests: Wants to pursue medicine or public health. Deep commitment to community work seen in various of her service projects at local hospitals to teaching others. Has been doing this work since her teenage years and still is doing them.Her larger goal is mainly serve and give back to her community.

Family: One younger sister and two parents who are fairly middle to low class. She had a previous engagement that was broken off due to cheating fiancé.

Character Traits: Generally introvert and has a very small social circle. Is socially aloof and has weak relations with her family. Shy and reserved, but artistically inclined. Quite grounded and fairly down to earth. Has values measured in her quite natured voice and charm. Her weakness according to a childhood friend is her need for money...Seeing fair poverty in her childhood, she has a need to make money or have money as a means of survival...Can easily be dominated upon and fairly low self-esteem according to her childhood friend.

Health Condition: Barren and has had a history of mild anemia. She has no history of sexual relations. No smoking, drug, and alcohol usage.

Mental Health Condition:.....

My eyes stopping reading the line "mental health" as I paused biting my lip taking a deep breath knowing what it read and having it known for a while before I even began this relationship. Throwing my head up against the couch, I looked towards Anika holding Chaaya closely to her heart protecting her and not letting her out of her sight...a complete contrast to the mental health conditions she holds...an antipathy to what she is described as in this document.

No she cannot harm a soul that I know. Her mental health status does not define her and that I can definitely tell by spending my time with her. Everyone has flaws and this condition is not her fault. Definitely not and what is important is that she is getting the help she needs and I will ensure she stays on the right track.

After going through many women, Anika is the only one I have found who will be able to commit to this type of relationship that I want. This unusual relationship that demands her to run my home, raise my child, and indulge in a relationship with me without asking for the damned social commitments that exist. Only she can do this that I have known since I saw her file.

How do I know Anika?....That is for another time to tell. I know her from before....Of course I do. Many years ago, I met her and she caught my heart ever since. I thought it was nothing and I let her go trying to remind myself of her flaws from that night, but damn she has not changed. All these years she has lingered in my mind and yes I tried to look for her after Falguni left me...I ran with my heart and decided to search for only for my assistant to hunt her down and reveal t she actually is my employee's daughter all along?...

A drop of wickedness falling on me as I lifted myself up on to my feet making my way towards her slowly eyeing her deadly body that gives me many kicks of pleasure that no woman ever has...How all these years she only has become sexier....utterly damned gorgeous....There is not a woman with that figure and that heart that I can guarantee.

The night from years ago flashing in front of my eyes as my smirk widened remembering every bit of it reminding myself that night this naïve Anika won my heart....that night she took a place in it...and that is when she began to tease me in every corner trying to incite me and play with me...How I imagined her in every woman I saw and compared her to every woman I have been with...Oh Anika, if only you knew how long I have been searching for you...and I am glad I found you only to know that you are the ideal I have been looking for.

Is it an obsession? No. Because if it was then by now I would have forced her to be with me...but I have not. I have given my Anika the freedom to choose me and she did. I have done nothing wrong in tracing her back...I had to go through with my heart and I did.

Leaning down on to the bed, I ran my hand gently against Anika's cheek only to make her smile as she found familiarity with my touch. Her hand immediately grabbing on to mine as she pulled me down on to the bed before wrapping her arm around me. My smile widening as I pulled the covers above us before embracing her into my arms continuing to admire her features relishing them knowing that at the end of the day I have won. Fate just sided me on the right time and moment...Who would have known that she would be mine? Even I did not. I went on my heart and traced her and found her...If only she knew, I had my eyes on her since the day we met even though I pretended to be angered by her...If only she knew she already had won me at the hello she sang that night five years ago when we first met.

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Thank you for reading :)

What do you think about Anika's unusual lazy personality and her character traits in general? Will she be able to take Shivaay this time in her new life compared to her last lifetime?

What do you think about Shivaay and what past does he have with Anika that she does not remember? (Weird.) What do you think about him tracking her? (Weird.)

What happened to Anika a year ago that Arti and Falguni talked about in their fight at the resort?

What do you think of Anika's fight with Arti and Falguni?

What do you think about Shivaay and Anika's agreement to use the Goa trip as a way to test drive their future as a couple and as a family involving Chaaya? What changes should Anika make to the rules and will she suceed?

What do you think about Falguni and Arti and Ayaan who clearly are emerging villains in this story?

What do you think about Shivaay and Anika and Chaaya as a family? Do you like their bonding?

Who will will the dance competition at the night club?

What do you want to see next in the chapters and nightclub chapter that is next?

Next chapter begins at the night club where chaos and havoc will ensue...we might just see a drunk Anika and a lot of chaos along with the couple's dance competition LOL.

Thank you for reading and please do ready Chapter 10 that was posted before. I think many readers did not get notification on Chapter 10 due to Wattpad glitches, but please do read that as well :)

Thank you for reading and I hope and pray that all of you and your loved ones stay safe and healthy :).

Ciao!

-Jasmine

Next update hopefully coming soon this week and will be based on chaos and havoc that happens at the nightclub...

Let me know if you want me to continue writing :). Actually, Wattpad is glitched, so I do not see any reads until 48 hours, so I never know if anyone likes my chapters LOL :D. Also, Chapter 10 of course got the glitch as notification on it was missed, so I am so sorry about that :(.

I am so so so sorry for the delay in the updates this week :(. I am just having a lot of personal life issues going on at the moment and I am having health issues as well involving my back pain, but I will definitely try to update this book and then update my other book "Learning to Love Him Again". Writing is the only thing that is giving me hope at the moment and thank you for reading these chapters :). I know everyone is struggling in these tough times and it means a lot to me when you are reading my stories and thank you for reading, voting, giving feedback, and just sharing this story with others and giving so much love to this book :). Truly, thank you and I hope and pray all of you and your loved ones stay safe and healthy :). Edit: Hi everyone :) I hope you all are doing well :).

I just wanted to drop by and let you all know I have recently been writing a new book on Shivika called "Infinite Love" that has a total of eight chapters and get's updated frequently within a week at least three times where chapters are SHORT LOL.

The link to my new Shivika book is this: https://www.wattpad.com/852840586-infinite-love-trapped-in-love-arrange-marriage

If link cannot be clicked, then please just click my profile icon picture and the book is on the top of my profile :)

This book follows the emotional journey of Anika and Shivaay who have been separated by fate many times. First in childhood then when they were adults. After Shivaay married Anika's older sister Tia, he cannot seem to forget about Anika who he fell in love with a long time ago...Anika on the other hand only loved Shivaay but pushed him away....But the truth is both of them betrayed their loved ones and formed a secret relationship that awakens again in the present. This book is full of mystery and suspense, but is quite emotional. If you liked the earliest chapters of this book "Learning to Love Him Again" which were the falling in love phase then give "Infinite Love" a try which follows the emotional journey of Shivika falling in love again and healing each other...Beyond that there is a mysterious child in the book who is linked to their past...This book also has the heat and steamy romance, but also the emotions...I really tried to put a balance between darker and lighter shades in this book :).

Find out what happens when Shivaay and Anika are to be wed to others only to be united by their families in an arranged marriage....even though they both already share a relationship that is revealed in a twist in Chapter 8.

So do tune in if you want to see Shivika's separation phase that transitions to falling in love...a book that teaches the meaning of marriage.