Biip...

The door opened to the good smell of food, but not like usual, I can't smile and only walk toward the stair after glancing toward the kitchen counter.

It's not her.

It's been a while; it's been a month she never shows up.

She is in business trip, Mr. Jeon.

Or

She is busy.

Been the usual reasons Lisa's house maid said to me. It's okay at first. But the more I think about it, the more I feel like really alone now.

No genuine smile, no hot chocolate, no her.

Knock... knock...

I look at the door when someone knocking on it, lazily I put the books that I had been read for a while to the nightstand and open the door to see the maid.

"Yes auntie?" I ask her with a polite smile.

"Someone's asking to see you." She said and I am waiting for her to spill the name. "Mr. Kim Seokjin."

I walk toward Hyung and hugging him. He has been in a seminar in US, his assistant been with me to do the useless therapy. I miss him.

"US air make you looks more handsome." I tease him make him chuckled and put the v sign on his chin approving what I say. "Or is it just because Jisoo noona coming with you there?"

"Stop teasing as if you know what we did." He winks and I hold my chest dramatically.

"I can imagine."

"The thinks you see in porn?"

"I don't watch porn."

"So, you had been doing one night stand?"

"Will you allow me?" I ask back not even blinking with a tone annoying him.

"Fucking no." He said and took a seat. Looking around the living room and end up in the kitchen. "Anyway, where is Lisa?"

I cough awkwardly because of that. Noone mentioning about her for the past 2 weeks.

"She is busy."

"Fuck, I shouldn't talk to her about it." He softly murmured but I have this sharp ear make me look at him suspiciously. "What?" He asks again to make me glaring even more for it. "Urgh, fine. I tell her about the final result. About the hormones-"

"Hyu~~~ng."

So, is that why?

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"Jieun, what's after this?" I ask Jieun when we just finish the meeting with Mr. Joon a while ago. We were held meeting at one of the cafes inside the mall. I need more time to enlighten my mood.

I had been missing from Jungkook's life, I mean I stop to come there. I ask Auntie to send the food that I cook, and also doing the chorus as I ask her to do.

I don't want to be included in another person's family matter. I only agree to cook for them, no more. But I can't lie that I can't stop to think about Jungkook.

How's he doing?
How is he?
Has he eaten?
Or
Is he happy?

I can't stop worrying about him. And it's wrong.

"Nothing ma'am. Eum, and-" I look at Jieun which is sitting in front of my chair, and she looks hesitate with a red face on.

"Spill it!"

"My husband is around here, asking for lunch together so-" she squirm on her seat make me want to pinch her cheeks.

"So, what are you waiting for?" I ask her to make her stop fidgeting and smiling. "Run!" She then hugs me, our friendship just showed up. Even though Jieun insists to act all formal, she can't resist me sometime.

"I promise to be in the office before you do." She speaks and standing up.

"You should be." I tell her and waving my hand, watching her disappearing inside the crowd outside the cafe.

I've been wondering if love does exist. But to see how peaceful and happy Jieun's life with her husband make me want to taste it too.

Can I be greedy?

"Okay. So, I am alone." I said to myself and gathering my bag. Touching the crumble side of my dress where I used to hold on when I have hard time to talk. Until a shadow make me to look up.

"Hey-" I said unconsciously. "Oppa."

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"You don't have to do that thing. In fact, you have no obligation doing what Jin Hyung told you." She sighs when he said that. Its unplanned thing, she met him, the one she wanted to run away from.

But there is nowhere to escape when he stands there, watching her with a concern look. He asks to talk anyway.

"It's fine, I am fine. I am healthy." He speaks again with a sad smile make her feel pank in her heart, biting her lips she hesitantly reaching for his right hand to be hold on the table. Tightly. Sending the strength of her to him. He froze for a good second until he responds it with a gentle squeeze. And with warm smile too. "Promise me you won't do this."

"Do what?" She asks innocently.

"Running away." He speak calmly. "I know that I am shameless. And pathetic too. But I don't want you to stop doing whatever you love to do. And I can see that you really love to cook for Jen." He then bravely taking her hand which is holding his with his both hands and warmly bringing it up.

"And I don't want you to do what you dislike doing. Just like this," he then looks at their hand. "You must feel uncomfortable but just because you want to cheer me you held my hand anyway. No. Lisa. You don't have to do this if you feel uncomfortable. Even though with this slight touch my pain faded away, you don't have to do this." He then put her hand on the table and leave it alone.

Her heart pinched with his confession. Her touch is really making effect for him. The frown on his face slowly faded away, the pain slowly goes away.

And it feels like a magic.

A gift,

and curse at the same time.

"I am sorry, Jungkook oppa." She said in the end bowing, apologizing to distancing herself.

"No. It's okay, Lis."