Imagine #125: Me and You (Part 5)

*Patrick's P.O.V.*

*6 months later*

Looks like I really did get the proof I wanted, Y/N is truly pregnant and she already has this big bump on her stomach. I'll be honest, I really did try my best to take care after that and maybe I did a good job too after opening my mind and heart to it. I became less mean to her and I listened to her sometimes too, it's really true to what they say...if you just try to be open to something, you'll eventually be able to like it

I was honestly enjoying her company too and she's really caring. It's not that I'm developing feelings for her, but I do think she's a quite stunning one and I'm not closing the possibilities for something to happen...but maybe not now. Most especially, not recently.

Something from my past is currently coming back and I have no idea how I was just letting her in again. I'm currently at this bar, waiting for her cause she called me earlier and asked if we can meet and just like that I said yes. Finally, after some moments of waiting, she finally came.

"Patrick...I-I really am glad that you agreed to see me," she said with her sweet voice. I have to be honest, my heart is beating unusually fast too.

"Sure thing, El. It's been a while. How are you?" I asked, starting this conversation between us.

Actually, everything is going well. Maybe I just let go of my anger towards her before and now I'm all open to talk to her again. We continued chatting in here, going on about our daily lives and I guess nothing much has changed. I just tried to keep Y/N a secret from El since she didn't know what mess  I got into last few months.

"You're actually better now, El." I told her and she just smiled at me and after that, she held my hand. Her touch was cold and she was also shaking. I looked at her in the eyes and I can see the nervousness through them.

"I have no idea why you're saying that...I'm not even feeling better, Patrick. Since that time, I felt nothing but regret...I shouldn't have done that to you, I should have just chosen you and it was terrible of me to do such thing." she started, her tears filling her eyes and I was just there, fixed on looking at her. "After you left everything just came back at me, to what I did and I regret everything. Funny, how I realized it all too late. You're gone, everyone thinks I'm an awful person which I truly am, but I can't stop myself on thinking about you, how I wanted to apologize and maybe start over things with you, but I had no courage to face you, Patrick. I'm so so sorry." she said and it's like her feelings just exploded right on that spot.

I can see the honesty in her tearing eyes right now and that just makes my heart throb faster. She's always been the what if girl in my life and now she's here again...in front of me. I involuntarily pulled her closer towards me and I hugged her to my chest as she whimper in there.

"I'm sorry, Patrick. I'm so sorry. I'm really trying not to sound so desperate in here, but I can't hide that fact. I shouldn't have taken advantage of you, I shouldn't have lied to you...you deserved a better treatment, but I did the opposite but please, let me redo everything, Patrick." she kept on whispering to me and I swear my heart is saying yes all over the place but my mind was circling around Y/N and I had no idea why.

It seems like over the course of her being with me, she made an impact on my life that I never really noticed and now I'm stopping myself to decide on this because of her. I had to think of her.

"B-but, I'm not forcing you, it's still your choice. You being here is already a big deal to me and I thank you for that. What I mean is I hope you don't hate me as much as I hate myself and I hope you don't close out on me. I'm really sorry, Patrick." she said and I just guided her chin to look at me.

"D-don't be too hard on yourself. I-it's in the past already, it's all be forgiven and forgotten...b-but, I really have to think this through...I-it's not just me now." I murmured to her and she just looked at me with a confused expression as she wipe her tears away.

"I'm not rushing you to it, Patrick. I'm not even expecting you to let me in. Just hearing you forgiving me is enough. T-thank you so much." She said then hugged me once more.

Fortunately, this night ended well...better than I expected it to be, but now my mind is all confused. Would I really choose someone from my past over my potential future...it's like one of our song...Would I really trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday?

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*Y/N's P.O.V.*

*Several days later*

I really though the good relationship I am building with Patrick will continue until the moment I deliver my baby, but I guess it's different from that. Recently, Patrick has been distant with me...not mean, but distant and that really makes me worry more.

I had no idea if I have done something wrong, or maybe I began to irritate him again, but I do feel that he's avoiding me. He rarely stays at his home, he rarely talks to me again, and it's making me worried. 

I am currently alone inside his house when suddenly the doorbell rang. I hurriedly went to the door to open it and in shock, his best friends were in there.

"O-oh, hi. Uh, Patrick's not here." I said, trying to hide myself from behind the door. I actually have no idea if Pete, Joe and Andy knows anything about me and I just better play it safe.

"Come on, Y/N. Do you really expect Patrick to not tell us? Don't worry, we know you and the whole situation you and Patrick are in." Pete said with a smile and I slowly opened the door for them. This is actually the first time I saw these three.

"Well, just playing safe. I don't want to cause Patrick any problem." I explained. "Come in, Patrick's probably coming home sooner or later." I said while I let them in.

"Honestly we didn't come here for Patrick. We came here for you." Andy explained and I looked at them with curiousity.

"Me? Why?" I asked.

"We really approve of you as, you know, a partner or companion to our best friend and we do believe that that little angel inside of you is his. That's why we wanted to talk to you." Joe started. We all just sat down in the living room, already having a deep conversation like I've known them for years.

"I don't understand anyt--

"Patrick's been seeing her ex-girlfriend again. It's not that we have anything against her, but we just feel like he's making a wrong move here." Pete explained and I stared at them blankly.

I should really be feeling any kind of jealousy in here. I have no right to.

"W-well, if it's his choice I have nothing against it. I mean, I and Patrick are nothing but--

"You have that child connecting the both of you, Y/N. And it's really not a good time. You know you need an intensive care right now and we know that Patrick's not always here." Andy said and I couldn't disagree with that.

"L-look guys, I really appreciate you all telling me this, but I really don't want anything more with Patrick. All I wanted him to be is to be a good father to this baby inside of me and that's it. I can honestly take care of myself, I just don't want my baby to grow up not knowing his father." I explained truthfully to them, even though I was now slightly hoping for a little bit more than that.

"That's the problem, Y/N. Patrick and his ex-girlfriend is planning to runaway from this mess. Patrick opened that up to me two nights ago when he was drunk. I really did try my best to put him back to his senses but it's no use. The guy is love drunk, false love drunk to be exact." Pete explained.

"What? He can't...he said, h-he promised that no matter what h-he'll want to know this baby." i said, somehow panicking inside my head.

"You have made an impact to Patrick's life even if he denies it. We catch him sometimes thinking about you and he smiles like an idiot. The guy likes you, he wouldn't have done it with you if he doesn't. That's why we think you can put the senses back to him." Joe explained and all I did was nod.

"Also, we still have trust issues towards the girl. I know she's all sincere now and she loves Patrick, but she really has this vibe of being a cheater. I'm sure Patrick will get hurt eventually again." Andy said. 

I can really see the worry on their faces and I have to admit that I have that I now have the same expression too. I can't believe Patrick is really thinking of ditching me, but I can't blame him, it's just him doing things for love.

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*Patrick's P.O.V.*

*A Week Later*

"Well, do you feel that the baby is really yours?" El asked me since we're having this conversation again. She really wanted us to go as soon as possible but I find myself not being able to do it because I was think of Y/N and the baby. I haven't even told her about El, I knew somehow she would understand what's happening, but not this...not the part where I'll be leaving the baby.

"I-I don't know! It'll just be three more months and until the DNA test will prove everything. I can't just leave." I reasoned to her. I know she's worried and wanting to start all over again, but this situation really stops us from doing so and I can feel it that she's not liking it. "I-if you're really up for it, you'll wait..."

"Fine. But promise me, after this and we're off." she said and all I did was to smile and nod at her. 

Honestly thinking and hoping to myself that Y/N's baby isn't really mine...that's its just a big game for her so I wouldn't feel too much guilt if I leave...

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