Imagine #155: Dare Me Not (Part 17)

*Y/N's P.O.V.*

"Hey, guys. What's up?" Finally, after three days, I showed up to Pete and Meagan in the college...starting them both up with a 'what's up?'

I didn't show myself to them or even contact them for the last three days, I know that's unfair, but that's what I did. I just stayed away for a while to forget.

I caught the two of them while they are staying in the gazeebo and the looks on their faces when they saw me cannot be explained.

Worry? Pity? Sad? Angry?

"Y/N. What happened to you? You could have --

"I'm fine now, don't worry! Come on, don't you know me, I can handle anything!" I said and I know to myself I'm trying too hard to be okay again, I can't believe just being in here again somehow breaks me once more.

Some students have seen me too, and of course, they now have these reluctant feelings towards me, but fortunately, some didn't believe what that evil girl said.

Meagan suddenly held my hand then smiled at me sadly. I stared at her with a smile.

"I'm fine now, please, I'm sorry for ditching you guys that night." I told her.

"We know and we understand, Y/N. But please tell us, you didn't believe what Elaine said, right? Patrick didn't do that on purpose." Meagan said and I just looked away.

"I've forgotten about it and I do believe that's just how this is supposed to be. So let's just leave it like this." I said and it came out more blankly and coldly than I imagined it to be.

Pete and Meagan looked at me in shock and worry. I know they don't believe that Patrick did that on purpose too, and trust me, I realized that too. The guy never stopped calling me or checking up on me, I'm just the one who chose to ignore it all. I knew Elaine wasn't done with me and maybe that was the last ace she got, if she couldn't drag me down, she'll drag down what I and Patrick have and honestly, maybe I should be thankful for that. She might have given me the perfect reason just to stay away from Patrick.

"Anyways, I'm so hungry. Want to grab some snacks?" I said, changing the topic and Meagan just nodded at me.

I know the moment I turned my back on this too, I'm sure they are shocked with the character change I've went into.

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*Patrick's P.O.V.*

"She's here? Is she okay? What happened to her?" I asked Pete continuously the moment he told me that Y/N finally showed up again.

"Different. Weirdly different." Pete said and it seems he's really thinking deeply.

His answer really saddened me, Y/N changed because of what happened and by Pete's looks, it's not a good change.

"She's not the type of girl that would just believe what happened, that would believe that you really fooled her...Maybe it's understandable if she believed it that moment, but after three days and you doing all the effort to reach out to her? Something's not right." Pete said and I sighed.

"You're overthinking. Maybe she really hates me." I murmured then chuckled sadly. "Come on, out of all the people in this college I'm the guy who's capable of doing such thing. Dude, I even looked at her just like a dare...some girl to toy with. I've done nothing but to distract her from the academic works, it's obvious that I could have really done that. She's had enough."  I said...and yep, this is me giving up.

I've reached out to her since that moment, I wanted to explain, I wanted to tell her that I'm on her side...but how can she believe that anymore? I didn't even protest that night and the one who saved her is Brendon by diverting the attention of the crowd out of her...I was supposed to be the one who defended her that night, but I just silently stood there like a coward.

"Stop it, that's not like you. Don't give up just yet." Pete said and I really do appreciate them for believing in me like this, but I myself can't believe in me anymore.

"I don't know, Pete." I sighed while standing up and getting my bag. "I'll just go for a walk around the college." I said and left him.

I walked alone along the hallways while my mind is probably flying elsewhere. I just blankly walked along this corridors, not minding anyone. I'm done with these judging looks of these people, right now I just wanted to see how Y/N would react if she sees me. I honeslty miss her too.

Suddenly, I saw her walking my way. I stopped my tracks the moment I saw her, I just wanted to pull her and talk to her...Y/N have seen me too, at first she was in shock, but then just coldly looked at me...and actually ignoring me. Finally, she came close to me, but is not giving me any attention...

"Y/N, can we talk? Please?" I said while holding her arms. She gently pulled away from me, but thankfully she looked.

"Five minutes, I have a class after this." She answered me...Pete was right she's weirdly different.

I just led her out of the corrider as we found a more private place to talk.

"Just tell me what it is." she said while staring at me.

"I wasn't on Elaine's side that night, please trust me, Y/N. I didn't confess to you just to make it look like that, everything I said that day is true..." I started to explain.

"Same here, Patrick." she told me blankly, diverting her eyes from me. "And you know what I said that day too? I'll never believe in anything again. and trust me on this one, that'll be better for the both of us." She said and it's like she just gave up just like that.

"Do you really hate me that much now?" I chuckled sadly and I was shocked that she smiled at me...a sad smile and her eyes are even filling uo with tears.

"I honestly don't. I've just accepted the fact that whatever we do...this will not work. I may sound unfair, it may seem unfair, but I'm giving this up and you should too." She said and I honestly felt her words peircing me. "Bye, Patrick." She said and she started to walk away.

And again I'm just standing there silently...not saying anything.

"No...I won't, I'll make you realize that you're wrong. This will work. We will work." I murmured with determination and she stopped walking. I thought she'll look back, but I just heard her faintkly say.

"Just stop, please. I don't want us to come to the point where you'll hate me." i heard her say and I swear I became more confused after that.

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