I've been trying to let go.
I've been minimizing contact.
I've been looking away.
But my heart still glances.

I've been convincing myself.
I've been cursing my head.
I've been muttering enchantments.
But you're still haunting my mind.

I've been filling my schedule.
I've been keeping busy.
I've been hoping and hoping and hoping.
But then you smile.

So.

I've been giving up.
I've been letting go.
I've been falling down the rabbit hole.
But I know it won't end well.

I've been watching closely.
I've been staring secretly.
I've been holding ( your ) hands recently.
But I still need you.