Undeniable  regret
Unforgettable pain
Bruising and aching
Burning and red
The tears stream
Seemingly to bleed from their eyes
Thing I should have said course through my brain.
Nothing but pain is remembered here.
Memories of what the had said
They echo through my head
Blood drips.
The pain sets in.
Why can't I make it end?
Tearing and bleeding doesn't help.
Screaming and scratching at my throat.
Begging for mercy..
Why continue to hurt me?
You taught me daily.
Even in my dreams.
Always haunting me to the point I can't even sleep.
Someone end my damn misery.
Help me from this endless cycle.

I scratch at my head
Pulling on my hair.
Screaming to be left alone.
Yet they never go
Why won't you just leave me the fuck alone!?
Give me a god damn break.  Let me have some rest.
How do I  silence you. 
Let me fucking silence you.
I've had enough
End it all
Tempted to but this blade through my rib cage.
I can't jeep fucking doing this.
I'm fed up and I've had enough.
Jm so sick of this.
Just make it end

I've tried to change
Yet people don't change with you
I've forgave and forget
Yet they're the ones to hold the shit over me.
You fucking hypocrite.
Telling me to  change my ways.
Telling me that it'll help
It only helps if you do the same.
I did this to end my pain.
Yet you continue to  add more.
You did this to me. 
You caused me to  reach my breaking point.
This is because of you.
And... I'm sorry.
J didn't mean to hurt you. 
But I could only take so much.
These fucking words that run through my head
This images and chants...
I can't silence them. 
They continue to  scream.  Telling me to  do bad things .
To hurt the ones I  care for.
To destroy all the things I... Love?

Its funny to think like this for me.
Yet here I am.
Putting every god sdamn word onto this blank page.
I find it funny how people tend tk change.
How i say I'd  even consider doing the same
You all know I won't
These Voice
They're a part of  me.
The only family I'd ever need.
Everyone else left because they told me I  needed to  change.
Well look who's laughing now.
I'm the only one left.
Km the last man standing.
I have nothing to regret
... Nothing to regret..

I'm not suppose to feel such things.
But liu.. I'm sorry.
That's all I have tk say.
We go at each others throats day by day.
All because of one simple mistake from our past.
Yet no many how many times o apologize
And no matter how many times you let me slide
I can't forgive myself for what I've done to you.
You were the only one there.
The only one whk ever cared for what I was going through.
Yet I destroyed you.
Way before I could even thank you...
I'm sorry brother. light
And ist couldn't help myself tag night.
I had no control left
It was as if I was control by someone. 
Making me do the things  I did.
I didn't want to hurt you.
You didn't need saved. 
I did.
Yet I saved you instead.
You were the light
And I... I am the darkness that needs cleansed