I just want to wake every morning

Smile at the world

And think what a glorious day it is

I just want to float

And drift along with the breeze

I'm tired of swimming against the current

Proving point after point

Being right, dreading the time I will be wrong

Oh the fear of being wrong

I hate being right too,

It's a curse,

Expectations and reputations

Twist around me

Suffocating me

Yet every day

I wrap another thread around me

Delving deeper into the torture

I hate I hate

The smiles and tears

I hate everything

I loathe every inch

I shouldn't.

I know I shouldn't

But it's hard to love

When everything thing disgusts you

From the little wave and smirks

To the casual hair flips and drawn out words

The day is beautiful,

Not really

Today was someone's tragedy

Today was someone's making

Today was just another day in life

Where is the beauty in that

Repetition, boredom pain

It's the same every day

In and out

Instead today you chose to look up,

Yesterday you looked left

Perspective shifts, views change,

But life stays constant

Monotonous

Until it isn't

Pandemics and incompetence

Blind obedience to an organisation that doesn't seem to know any better

Confusion and hatred, so much to do and so much to feel

But all I want to do

Is wake up

and smile.