their texting me how they love me and how I'm the most pretty girl
my cheeks flush
but then my eyes catch on the word "girl"
and a hint of wrong flickers in the back of my mind

he's signing me up for an event
I've looked forward to this for a long time
then he clicks on "female"
and my heart sinks a little

she's teaching us a new dance
I can't wait to get lost in it
then she mentions being lady like
and I stumble just a bit

I'm...
I am not a boy
I am not male
but I don't feel like a full girl sometimes
so
idk
I'm prolly just making up these feelings
lying to myself like always
so these feelings are probably not real

but what if they are?