I find you
on the deserted and sandy shores of a beach
left with dead bushes and tumbleweeds
since its October

I find you
and a sunset at its coldest
the feeling of leather
from when I knew you better

I find you
the most handsome in a crowd
a balance
you were always meant to be there

I find you
when I look at anything silver
and when I find anything gold
you're not even that old

I find you
in the water with me
sitting still and silent
when we are way in over our heads

I find you
on an xbox controller
and I hold you
in the dark light from an old tv screen

I find you
in the wavy grass at sunset, again
I held you
and you never flew as high

I find you
through others
but not you
i get it

I found you
when i found myself
through nothing but another warm sunset
and a cold night filled with snow

I found you
in my lower back
a pain that never left
and a dark starry sky with concrete against my hands