i just realized

it felt so good to say it
even if it is platonic

i just realized

i would defend you
and im real
because of caring so much about you

i just realized

i was shaking as i typed out a reply
and angst wasnt here
my stomach hurt as i almost cried

i just realized

i would do just about anything for you
any gift i could physically gift you
wouldnt compare to what i feel for you
any level of embaressment of me
i would overcome for you

i just realized

oh shit
i love you