Man two chapters titled hate? Wow. Stop being so hateful me.....yeah I'm also tired of being hateful of myself and I hate my insecurities and hate how I write and hate everything...

God why the fuck must I be so fucking lazy? Oh wait schoooollllll. Wording. I suck at wording.

I hate my feelings. I hate everything I do.

Hate hate hate.

Great I'm a parody of myself and being cringe. Fuuuuck

Anyways yeah I hate my feelings of sadness, abandonment and so on even though that didn't happen and no one even really should be concerned with any of this because I'm just saying stupidity now.

I'll probably be asking myself why I even made this in the morning, typical.

I feel like rewriting shit that I haven't even finished yet. I feel like rewriting shit that sounds wrong and seems so simplistic.

Like can't be any more vague can I? Probably.

God I should just fucking write and stop complaining about myself and others. Other people complain too much too.

Like no one reads our announcements? Yeah...gonna throw a temper tantrum about it? This isn't news. People just don't bother anymore I suppose...or I'm just too god-awfully pissed to feel sympathy towards those who relate to me right now.

God I feel like I'm so inconsiderate at times. I try to be reasonable, but it's hard to be reasonable even though you say the same thing. I'm such a hypocrite. Maybe I'm just tired of all the negativity. I'm tired of being negative, but I don't want to be positive because....dang I don't know why. Maybe because happiness can't come if I fake it? Idk

Anyways yeah this is just a stupid ramble at 11:30 at night