I'm suffocating in the memories
Of a time when I couldn't be me
Restless nights and fear of sleep
The dreams still haunt me, falling to my knees
I'm begging for this feeling to go away
So that I can feel better, to enjoy this day
My skin is crawling from unwanted touches
This pain it riddles me with punches
Everywhere I turn I'm reminded with a simple brush
The ignorance of my tragedies forgotten by one
Who I thought would understand, my heart crushes
How can one undo cruel things that have been done
In hopes of healing and to be happy
With the ones that I hold dear
I know today is just crappy
Right now though, I'm drowning in fear
The toxicity of the memory is tearing me apart
People truly never listen when you're hurt
It's what they want, they'll take everything like sharks
No regard to your plight
The ache in your bones
The feeling that you are dying... it's not right
To weak to throw anymore stones
Heartbroken sadness is life threatening
Without an inkling of hope.
I have it though and I'm struggling
So hard to stay afloat.
It's hurts to breathe, it's devastating to see
Yet no one pays attention, it's what they need
They leave the broken lifeless on their knees
Just another glimpse of a shattered me