I kept it to myself. The question I wanted to ask, the one on my mind constantly. But we were best friends who lived together. Our situation would be awkward if I voiced it, if it was left out there in the open.

Everyone around thought we were a cute couple, knew we had a profound bond. I told myself over and over, "we're just best friends." Just best friends. That was what crushed my heart. The ultimate friend zone. Best friends. That's how some couples start, but that's also how they end. In the friend zone. We can just be friends. That's not what I wanted. Not with Scott. Not with a lot of the situations we set ourselves in.

When he got with my ex, I was upset for several reasons. The friend zone the main one. Not that they'd gotten together shortly after we'd broke up, or that they both knew how I still felt deeply for Chris. But I was mostly upset about missing my chance with Scott.

When he reads this, I'm probably going to be distracted and not remember writing it. Then he'll remind me and everything will become thirteen times more awkward. I don't know... I just don't want to be in the friend zone anymore.