CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT

We get out of the pool eventually, cutting it too close to ten PM lights-out curfew. Dripping wet, we pull on our clothes and race back to our dorms, laughing. At the entrance to Section Fourteen, Yellow Quadrant Dorm, I squeeze Logan's hand as he turns to me with another lingering look before heading back to his own Red Quadrant Dorm.

"I'll look in on Gracie for you," he says.

"Thanks!" And I smile at him as he goes.

"Hurry, hurry, gotta hop in bed in five minutes," Laronda says, as other late Candidates all around us race up the stairs to our sleeping floors.

I run after her and Hasmik, and as we hit the bathrooms, there's a minor stampede and a decent line. That's because Claudia Grito cuts right in front of us with a sneer, together with a few other alpha girls.

Dawn gives Claudia a withering look, but it's no use.

"Gotta pee, gotta pee," Laronda sing-songs to us, shifting from one foot to the other. And then she pulls my sleeve. "So, Gwen, I had no idea that Aeson Kass guy is so red-hot-as in, sexy, on a purely physical level. Must've been fun-"

"What?" I bite my lip and start to frown at her.

"You know-fun to have that special voice training thing you had to attend back in Pennsylvania."

It occurs to me, I didn't mention to Laronda that I am still doing the voice training.

"Yeah, well," I mutter. "He's mostly kind of scary. . . ."

Laronda shines me a wicked smile. "But it didn't stop you from drooling all over him back at the pool, just now. Cause, yeah, I saw that!"

I am suddenly angry and agitated. "You saw what? What are you talking about?"

But now Dawn raises one brow and nods. "Uh-uh . . . I noticed it too."

"Wha-a-a-at?" My mouth falls open at them both.

"Come on, even with your sweetie Logan there, and right after the two of you were messing around, even so, the moment the Atlantean VIP showed up, you went all weird. You changed."

I stand, lips parted in outrage, shaking my head at them. "But-that's just crazy! You guys are seeing things! How did I go 'weird' and change? What's that supposed to mean?"

"Well, you were flirting with Logan more loudly than normal. Less like a normal you, and more 'fakey' and exaggerated. And whenever Kass swam by, you, I dunno-you kind of acted different."

I stare at everybody, and even Hasmik is nodding now.

As all of this is being said, I feel my head, my cheeks, flushing. . . .

Oh, no. . . .

But now I am angry for real. I shake my head, as if to shake off this stupid stuff they're saying, and I roll my eyes at them.

Fortunately I am saved from further embarrassment and need to explain, or even think, by the vacancies in the next few bathroom stalls.

* * *

In the morning, the first thing I remember when the claxon alarms go off is that I do, sort of, have a half-baked plan to get Gracie's points built up. It involves asking a whole bunch of people to sacrifice just a few of their points on her behalf, when the time comes for the Finals.

Now, how will I ever convince them to agree to this thing, is still a big question mark.

The second thing I remember is what happened at the pool last night. An uncalled-for image of Aeson Kass, dripping wet and toned and beautiful, walking at the side of the pool, haunts me as I get dressed, get down to breakfast, and put some unidentified food in my mouth while my friends talk at me-and apparently, past me.

Okay, this needs to stop. . . .

I don't know what it is that is happening to me, but when I see him later tonight, I will deal with it.

The classes and the rest of the day are generally tedious and uneventful. We swim, do extensive Combat sparring and practice Er-Du forms over at the large CA-3 Training Gym. Later, a new Atlantean Culture Instructor gives us a lesson on Atlantean early history, including the original colony establishment on the planet later called Atlantis. And finally a Tech Instructor, this one also an Atlantean, unlike Mr. Warrenson, teaches us some new tone sequences for controlling orichalcum-basic stuff that I know already from my voice training with Aeson Kass.

After dinner, when I finally take a deep breath and knock on the door of Office #7, Aeson Kass acts as though nothing happened the previous time I was here. . . . However, he is possibly even more remote and reserved than usual. For half an hour we go over the exact tonal sequence to restructure orichalcum on the quantum level. In the process, Aeson "fries" at least three more chunks of the metal, showing me how it's done, and I am still unable to replicate it.

"We'll continue tomorrow," he tells me dryly, without meeting my eyes.

And then I am again dismissed.

I get back to my dorm and go to bed with a dismal feeling of peculiarity, and always, underneath, is the undercurrent of despair. I think of Gracie with a nervous sick feeling in my gut, and then George, Gordie, and Logan, and the rest of the people I care about, and how Finals will affect all of us. . . .

The unseasonal heat wave continues, and I fall asleep all sticky with sweat. Then I dream of strange old paintings at the Huntington, with Sarah as Pinkie watching me with glassy dead eyes, and opposite her, the broken Blue girl. . . .

The fact that I took a life-was responsible, however indirectly, for killing not one but two people in Los Angeles-is haunting me subtly in that vulnerable time between waking and sleep. It's the only time I let it get to me, since the rest of my time is occupied with stress and exertion and usual despair.

 * * *

Then, for the next two weeks, maybe three, time blurs. All I know is, we're deep in the middle of May, and days are flying by in a flurry of training activity. There is so much and yet so little to tell. We, as Candidates at the National Qualification Center, continue our arduous classes. But for some reason-maybe because it's become such an ingrained part of out lives-it seems less unbearable and more routine.

My sister Gracie manages to do as well as I had hoped in all her training classes, and she has been slowly earning back the points that had been stripped from her. The rest of us Larks each have more than the baseline 100 points required to Qualify. I get scanned each morning and I find I have at least one or two more credits every day, mostly from Culture and Tech where I get to display my geek brains as opposed to physical prowess.

By the middle of week four at the NQC, with only four days remaining before the official day of Finals, my cumulative points average stands at 157. George has earned 179, and Gordie eclipsed us all by scoring a whopping 213 points. Meanwhile Gracie has 67 points, which puts her more than halfway in the right direction.

"Hey, Gee Four can totally have like a whole hundred of my points," Gordie announces with a proud crooked smile, pushing his glasses up his nose.

"You are awesome, bro!" I tell him. And George nods and even abstains from trying to finger-snap his little brother's forehead, or call him a monkey.

In short, we think we have this whole points dilemma figured out, for the most part.

Now, all we have to do for the rest of the time before Finals is actually keep up our strength and endurance, and then, Qualify.

Meanwhile, Logan and I continue to meet up wherever we can, and yeah, we do a lot of homework running and witty clever banter during which I learn how truly smart and clever Logan is. But mostly, we cannot keep our hands off each other. Only, it's all brief, stolen touches . . . a few squeezes . . . and once, a hungry kiss while pressed between a shadowy door and a wall that blocks us from the nearest surveillance camera.

Not once does Logan bring up again the fact that he does not approve of my meeting Aeson Kass on a daily basis for my voice training. We basically treat it as an untouchable subject, an unspoken prickly-weird thing between us.

And as for Command Pilot Kass-I honestly don't know what it is, what happens every time I enter his office. We are both on pins and needles, and there is a strange explosive atmosphere of charged electricity and ragged wild energy that builds and builds . . . and yes, there's a whole lot of repressed anger and frustration.

At least that's what I think it is.

I believe Aeson Kass actively dislikes me on a personal level. He definitely regards me with the greatest disdain. . . . And I in turn find him irritating, frustrating, annoying, rigid and pompous, and more often than not, a smug a-hole, especially when he is right about something and knows it.

Not to mention, he's overbearing and ruthless and implacable.

But I strongly believe he is the only one here who can teach me the full extent of what I need to know to use my Logos voice.

And so, I deal with it.

* * *

At some point, with only three days left before the Finals, I suddenly realize that tomorrow is my birthday.

Holy lord, I am turning seventeen!

And when I mention the fact that the next day is May 25, my birthday, Laronda squeals and says, "That's it, girlfriend, tomorrow we're giving you a Birthday Party!"

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