i'm not going to name the people i'm talking about because i don't want this to be a public issue, but i'm just posting it here on because i know they aren't all on their accounts right now and they might have a better chance of seeing this.

first of all, a general apology to everyone who read my last post. i was upset about an issue that came up earlier today, and my mind took it too far and made me worried about everything and everyone else in my life. i did not mean to undermine anyone else's care for me, and i'm sorry if it seemed like i was being accusatory. i love all of you.

second, an apology to my friend who i was venting to about that and about something else. i never meant to try and get you involved in any drama, and it wasn't supposed to be drama, but i can see how it may have come across that way. i understand that my presentation of the issue stressed you out, and i should have worked out the issue immediately instead of going to you about it. the issue that i had with that person is resolved and we are fine now, and i'm very sorry if i made it seem like i was trying to get you to pick sides or get involved. i wasn't. you're one of my closest friends and you've helped me through so much shit, and i would never want to make you uncomfortable or upset, or make you feel like i don't appreciate all that you do for me, because i really appreciate you so much. i'm sorry for letting my emotions get the best of me.

and finally, to another person - i love you so much, and i've already apologized, but once again i'm sorry for being such a hypocrite. i wanted to talk to you so badly, but i was anxious because of something that had happened earlier. i should have talked to you about it instead of ignoring you, and i didn't mean to make you feel that way but obviously i did and it's absolutely immature and inexcusable. i promise that i'll come to you if i'm ever having trouble again.