ugh

today was a waste of time -_-

so i actually had a good morning - my bro and i played exploding kittens eheheh it's such a fun game

also zoha inspired me to change my homescreen and omllll i love it so much now

for all those peeps not into kpop, LOOK ! DALVIE COLOUR CODED EVERYTHING MWAHAHAHAAHHA

^ isn't is beautiful whkdkwlfkwkkdwldlk

when i showed my dad, he said "why is there a guy on your phone" and i kinda just like faceplamed LMAO

but then

mall trip came around

aaaaandd that was like a complete waste of five hours

first of all, it was three girls ( including me ) and two dudes

let's call them girl 1, girl 2, dalvie, dude 1, and dude 2

so ( ugh )

girl 2 and dude 1 were flirting the entire time afhafhflas they're apparently "only friends" but like pshhhhhhhhh honey, him holding your forever 21 bag and walking with you and talking with your the whole FIVE HOURS is NOT just friends

so it was us three just sorta chilling

note: girl 1 and dude 2 are LOUD, SO. LOUD. and like i myself am super loud, but they were SHOUTING in public about like dude 1 being bi or gay in a teasing tone ( he's straight ) and also about three ways and how school is fun and crap like that

ugh

and all of them are like bff's now

and i'm here like :)))))))))))))))))))))

also apparently they went to anther mall this week without me????? so gr888888

SO YES

AND

THAT WASNT THE WORST OF IT

ok so basically like dude 1 is kinda cute and funny and sorta nice ( eh ) but he's kind immature af ANYWAYS

i was hoping to get his attention today / make a good first impression bc like why not also im desperate af so whatever

buuuuuut dalvie kinda relapsed into her quiet school side :/

also he was flirting with my friend the whole time so i gave up and was on my phone most of the time, which def did not impress him ( he was like "alright everyone we gotta slow down for dalvie bc she's texting LOL" and i was so embarrassed udhfiuahlfhzfluadl why do i have to be like the ahlsfhsulfhsafdsakflh ) so yeah ... i will never catch any guy's attention let's be honest

and then in the car ride back, he was talking about choir ppl ( bc he's friends with some choir ppl; actually he dated one of my choir 'friends' and i caught them making out once so he actually remember me by that ahahahahahah * slow tear * ) and then he was like " oh yeah my friend got into the advanced choir "

ahem

and i was like " oh haha yeah everyone did except me lmaooooooooooooo " and then i wanted to cry lkkluagyagjdf

he apologized like " omg im such a dick ahhh sorry dalvie sorryyyyy " but then girl 1 was like " omg dude you're so rude LOL " so that made me want to cry more

i just kinda gazed at my homescreen to make sure i didn't cry

so

yeah

my self esteem went way down woohoo

also they're like all so excited for school to start again and i'm like wtf no, school is horrible already and it hasn't even started

also also girl 2 used to be my bff but she's the one who moved to a diff school so now we're very different

she cusses a lot a lot and like loudly too and i was so like embarrassed to be near all of them in the store bc the employees were looking at us and omg iahflhfuiadhfuadf

im so drained ugh ( and i usually get energy from people )

but yeah

that was my day

my home screen is the only thing keeping me alive right now ;-;;

mark is too beautiful

QOTD: are your apps organized or nah? if organized, what kind of organization? ( ex: colours, uses, etc etc )

ohmyhaylee kalopsiascity ororotchalla the_talking_sword tribecky miIkytae 1-800-EATJIN egotistics xxxlejindaryxxx xxJinJoyzxx tomsbella _binbin_ radiance- -AnAngelsGrace scarletmischief -dayas heartwares citystruck @ anyone else!

AOTD: mine are now colour coded but also by which ones i use the most ehehe ( i think the purple folder is the prettiest one ahhhh )

OK

WELP

THAT WAS LONG RANT

I MISS MY BEST FRIEND UGH WHY DID SHE HAVE TO BE BUSY THIS MORNING HAKDK

AND I STILL HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK

SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGH

im really done with everything right now.....

ok here are some random pics

^ i took some aesthetic photos at da mall

^ * googles: " how to be a doggo " * ( photos from maddie- )

^ i really want to try this but like too much effort lahxkoakf

^ IM BREAD

^ i actually have this memory of playing in the snow as a small child but honestly i have no idea 😂😂😂

^ YEP YEP YEP

otay byeeeee ily all

^ the love of my life ahkckld also yes that's my home screen lmao i actually clicked it by accident but then i liked it so much that i kept it so YAY