I'm kinda sorta really sick physically and I think it's making me a lil sick emotionally ugh

I was trying to do homework today and write, but I literally could not do anything and I found no motivation to do anything

I tried texting my irl friends to get more energy, but no one was on

I think I'm slowly sinking emotionally (hopefully not into depression or anything) because my friends at school don't really talk to me anymore

I'm a HUGE example of a pure extrovert - I LITERALLY get my energy from talking to people and interacting with them and making them laugh or whatever

But now, I have no consistent person in real life for me to do any of that, so I'm slowly caving into myself and trying to be an introvert but it's not working at all and ugh

And this cough is really not helping. Now I physically can't sing or talk without bursting into a fit of coughs that last like minutes, so there goes practically everything

My parents are also piling more and more pressure onto me, and I just can't

I thought about taking a hiatus from Wattpad to focus of school and all that stuff, I siruisly did (ahaha puns)

But I don't think I can do that which makes me sound weak and needy and hdafhalaflvaavh

To add more: I love writing soooo much, but it also kinda stresses me out. I have to complete all these books so we can get onto our sequels which I had planned to be more interesting but yeah. I don't know.

Basically, I have to complete LETTERS (it's sorta close to being done) to fully focus on PERFECT so that we can go onto HAPPIER which is the sequel and maybe even make it to a third book, which I'm planning on naming SICK OF LOSING SOULMATES or something else idk yet

However

I also have SUPERHEROES which I REAALLLYY want to work on becasue Mira is amazing and Ragnarok just came out so people are looking for fics, and I like to think SUPERHEROES is a little different (Mira isn't from Sakaar for one) and I just think Loki is a really kewl character to write.

THEN! There's CLICHE, which UGH! I feel so bad for not even having the first chapter done omg. I really love Val, and she's also amazing and savage and her and Will are going to have so much drama and ajflamajvaego. I really want to finish CLICHE, so I can write the sequel because that sequel is going to be AMAZ and I have like half of the first chapter already done for the sequel, but I'm starting to think that I will never finish CLICHE and we won't reach the second book

But wait! There's more!

I want to rewrite IN THE NAME OF LOVE because Ryan was like my first OC ever and her whole story is very near and dear to my heart PLUS I want to keep writing Outsiders preferences because y'all love those and I love those greasers PLUS PLUS I gotta update this book for all y'all every day

So yeah

Writing is kinda stressing me right now, and I'm sorry if I don't update my fics as frequently these few weeks cuz there's also finals coming up wowowowowwowo fun

WHEW

Ok yeah

So I'm sick

And dying

But it'll be fine

I guess

QOTD: What was the happiest moment of today for you and why?

ohmyhaylee laracroft- GroundedBellamy @ anyone else (i didn't have time to tag ppl)

AOTD: I had a discipleship thing today with these girls from my church. That was pretty fun. We talked about Proverbs 31, and how we shouldn't stress too much and we should smile at the days to come, no matter how hard they are. I got boba too mwahaha (prob not good for my throat oops). Then my fam took some of the girls home, and we went to one of their neighbors' house cuz they are cat-sitting the neighbor's cat. AND THE CAT WAS SO CUTE AND RUBBED AGAINST MY LEGS AND AHHH I WANT ONE.

So yeah there we go! Some happiness for today

Oh also my friends got a husky ahahhhaah PUPPY

Good night you all! Hope you have/had a wonderful day! Don't forget to smile!

~

So that was like two hours ago

I was happier

Update: I'm going to cry till I sleep and my parents are so disappointed in me that they will let me fail my classes

Bye