ITS BEEN A WEEK BUT S T I L L

I LIVED BITCH

YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD KILL ME

HAHA FUCK YOU MIDDLE SCHOOL

okay so on another note, it's already in my announcements, but still

It's kind of an unconventional r/nicegirls chapter but still a nicegirl nonetheless

I'm gonna screencap then clarify

So the girl I'm talking about posted a chapter about this (not the announcement I made that after)

I actually read it again today which is why I'm writing this

I'm comfortable with the stuff I'm writing bc I know it's mostly anonymous unless the people from school follow me

So she complained about being slapped once or twice by -chlorine

But like actually tf

He's slapped me a lot lol

I t s n o t t h a t b a d h e s f u c k i n g w e a k

Then she goes on to complain about people asking if her and one of my seventh now eighth grade friends are dating

It's an assumption bc you guys spend so much time together and people assume le straightness

About three weeks ago she broke up with her gf and said it's bc she hangs out with me and Ryan

Wtf is that excuse

She said that her mind made up the feelings to escape from her trouble at home

Bitch what

Liking someone isn't made up unless you force yourself to believe it (or Stockholm)

You didn't make it up, it was probably just one of those crushes people have as kids

If you wanted to stay friends and it doesn't feel right then yeah, that's fine, I've done that before and it's perfectly fine between me and my ex

He didn't break up with me because he didn't like my friends though, we ACTUALLY thought we were better off as friends

And she keeps saying she's made fun of

At least she can find friends who last more than a year

The longest I've had a single friend group was two years

For the past eight years only Ryan was a consistent friend of mine

It took me t e n y e a r s to find a friend group to stick with

Not even online friends last too long, I stopped talking to one that I was texting after like three months of texting

And another thing is she always says that she's being made fun of

Look, public school suck, but they do things about when someone gets bullied

Private school kids are usually dicks, Ryan included, but I can deal with him lol

Ever since fifth this one kid has been consistently bothering me about liking anime and drawing

The others who do it aren't so bad bc some of them genuinely watch anime and the others are kind of more poking occasional fun to see my reaction like once a month

But it's a private school

It's not really physical bullying, and for some reason I always brush insults off, but I know when they're making fun of me, and I asked a girl, and she confirmed that they make fun of my name, which has actually been going on since kindergarten

AT LEAST THE NICEGIRL HAS A COMMON NAME

I'm literally one of three kids of my nationality in school, and I've been getting shit for it since fifth

And the family shit

I dont actually know most of my family, they're across the Atlantic and Indian oceans, but at least

My mom and grandma are manipulative, and my grandma always talks shit about us and how I should 'be ladylike' and 'respect people'

Fuck no, I'm not going to stop sitting however I want or making fun of people for being absolute fucking idiots who can go eat shit or being frustrated with my entire fucking family for not giving me space

My family is on the verge of coming apart, and I don't know whether my parents might get divorced or not with how dysfunctional the household is. On top of that, I'm pretty sure my parents are verbally and emotionally abusive

my mom yells at me for flinching when she's mad and walks towards me, saying about how people are going to think she hits me when sometimes she actually does

There have been times when she's threatened me, and literally a month or two ago she threatened to stab me with my scissors

I've been tempted to tell her to do it, that it'd save me the trouble of doing it myself

I don't get why she's saying her school life is so bad though, I know when I'm being bullied, and I know that they make fun of me when I'm not there, but do I let it affect me? No

That may be why, I act pretty oblivious to people making fun of me

Just because private school sucks doesn't mean she can make an entire sob story of how everyone is against her

And if you're reading this (you know who you are) I don't fucking care what you say to me next year or whether you hate me or not, I'm done dealing with your sappy, emotional bullshit

I dealt with it for the entire school year, and I'm fucking done, I hate people being emotional around me, I hate people being overly controlling of what I joke about

If I want to joke about suicide, I'm going to, because that's what's stopping me from fucking doing it

You do you sweetie, see if I care when school's back in.