I find it interesting how much people expect from each other. 

I never signed up for this. I never asked for anyone to rely on me. 

How the fuck can you expect someone who is this damaged to be there all the time.

I try. I swear to god I do. Only because I want nothing more than to make you and everyone else happy.

"You are my happiness" You say.

"You were happy too" you say.

Why? Was it because i was smiling?

For someone who is a self titled "genius" you sure are stupid.

You throw your pain in my face and make me carry the weight of it then get pissed at me because I can't even handle the weight i was carrying in the first place.

"I wish I were dead" I can not even count how many times I have heard that or a variation of that toxic phrase fly from your mouth aimed at me.

What you don't understand is that I find myself thinking that more than anything else these days. 

I don't know if it's because you have drilled it into my brain or if I'm honestly getting so sick of you and your bullshit that I'm ready to die just to get away