hehe. thisll be fun to write.

im officially going to be gone for 32 days or more.

i've had a lot of shit:

two midterms in consecutive days
random mental breakdowns where I can't think
easily crying
not being able to sing a song because it's linked with my best friend who is no longer on this earth
overall stress
thoughts of cutting
and my best friend killing herself, when there was something i could've done that i discovered one fucking day too late

look these are the reasons im on hiatus, and SOMEONE doesn't give a shit! whenever i talk to said person, i hate myself more than i do when i talk to cameron.

so yeah. im not even sure if i can keep writing now because im sobbing while i block out all my emotions.

have a fun day now. i sure won't.

God I miss you Emma...