I'm becoming worse. I don't think I have a place. I don't have that much people to lean on, nor do they ever tell me "I have your back, don't worry." Maybe, I just feel sad, after the numerous things I've gone through, only not to get a spot in the Top 10 of my batch. It's frustrating since I tried so hard, but failed. Wattpad has been an outlet for me, and now, it just feels like it's bringing me down. Everything feels slow, and mushy, and last night, my chest felt like it stopped breathing, and it was the end. Maybe I feel heartbroken, as I have no possible idea as to if the boy I trust in real life is still there, or if Bodhi is, and I know that he has changed his account, so... I doubt he'll notice this, or what I have messaged. Maybe 2016 is a rough year for me, and I shed lots of tears, just because everyone who I know and loved, has somehow... left me. I'm not pertaining to you guys, if that's what you think. At least, I don't blame you. Or is it maybe that if I quit, it'll be a whole lot better, and just take the time off?

P.S. For my real life friends reading this, hope to see you soon, July right?

P.P.S. If any of you could just send this message to -That_Pilot-, I guess it'll be very much appreciated, maybe the void in my chest will loosen, because it feels like I failed him a lot.