Song Played: Hollywood Undead - Nightmare

Razer's POV

After a long day of destroying villages and slaughtering helpless villagers, I was exhausted.

Well done, Razer.

I felt my chest bursting with pride. I was glad that the Overseer had taken notice of me.

Anyways it was time to rest. I had a lot to do tomorrow.

I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

In my dream, I had a memory of when I was innocent and naive. 

Back when I was Caleb.

"Where was I found?"  I asked.

The policewoman sighed. "Matt?" She asked. "Do you mind explaining?"

The policeman nodded.

"It was a normal day at first," Matt said. "I was trying to figure out what the mysterious sightings were in a deserted mansion."

"As I was searching for clues, I heard some noise coming from the upstairs," he continued. "I had no idea who it was, so I grabbed my gun and slowly walked in."

I was expecting to see a murderer, or a cult summoning a demon... or even a Fortnite squad... nasty little creeps."

"However, I was not expecting to see a small child, his eyes closed."

"I abandoned the search to bring you back to the village... I knew what my task was, but I also knew what the right thing to do was."

"I brought you in... and I took care of you," Matt said. "I know it's hard, being the only one to barely never know his parents here. But I'll make sure to protect you."

"You're going to be a hero, Caleb." He said to my smiling face.

After that, I remember trying to fulfill my dreams... only for it to be crushed again and again.

I felt like everyone was depending on me.

I felt pressured.

And I slowly began to crack under this pressure.

It took me forever to realize that I was fooling myself.

Why was I even trying?

Why was I lying to myself?

I was never a hero... I was chasing stupid dreams all along.

All I am is a nightmare.

Nightmare Lyrics

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep

The weight of the world falls down on me

It's all a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Sick, inside of bed, infected with the feelings

Staring up like my dreams were projected on the ceiling

I can see it, I want the money and the fame too

They told me when you get it, never let it change you

And finally, I've morphed into everything I tried to be

The fucking irony, as everybody's got their eye on me

Society, quickly became my rivalry

Driving me off the deep end, then doubt starts to creep in

Fairweather, they're never there, do I need friends? We eating

But will they stick around when the feast ends?

You say you love me when it's glitter and gold

But when it's bitter and cold, would you deliver my soul?

Or just cut me out the picture and roll?

Love is pain and it's taking its toll

Feel like I've wasted my whole life

Always working, searching for some shit

Tryna live a life that's perfect, but perfect don't exist

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep

The weight of the world falls down on me

It's all a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Spent my whole life chasing after dreams

But every dream turns out to be

Just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Help me, no, I can't help myself

Help me to believe that I'm somebody else

Not some fucking addict who can't dream 'cause his habits

Are chopped up on a table 'til he screams, "Let me have it"

Fuck it, what's a life anyway, huh?

You hear about that kid who died again today, huh?

I'd pull my fucking guts out just to make you understand

That I've become a ghost, I am a ghost, I'm not a man

Why can't I fucking say it? They'd say that I'm insane

But in a song they'd play it 'cause they understand the pain

What the fuck is going on? Who am I?

Life is just so fucking long, I wanna

Forgive me, don't forget me, believe you can protect me

It's just a song, I'm venting with the verse that's never- ending

And I have finally lost, the world has finally won

Dear God, did you forget your son?

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep

The weight of the world falls down on me

It's all a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Spent my whole life chasing after dreams

But every dream turns out to be

Just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Can't find a reason why, don't know why I even try

I pray when I sleep at night, so at least I'll die a decent guy

When I look in the mirror and say hi, I can't look me in the eye

We're both ashamed of the guy on the other side

Can't find my peace and quiet, some things are better left in silence

It's me who needs some guidance, or maybe what I need is violence

Well, I'm having a meltdown, can't ask for help now

Got so much self-doubt that I weird myself out, can you help out?

So many selfish phobias like self-inflicted loneliness

Sometimes I get so low in this, empty search for holiness

Can't seem to find a reason why, I don't know why I even try

These demons, they won't let me sleep at night

They're killing my dreams, they need me to die

But fuck it, I got nothing left to say

We're all gonna die anyway

Shit could happen to me any day

I just spit 32 and didn't say a damn thing